u/No-Office7081

I feel like I take the most unaesthetic pictures on this sub haha

I've got some pb2 and off brand nutella too

firstly, I know my typing is controversial as some believe that e1s must be xxxJ. e1 is what I am most confident in.

I am highly Ti but also highly Ni. I am often concerned with underlying patterns, hidden motivations, symbolic meanings, and unifying frameworks. I’m constantly trying to find “the thing underneath the thing.” I’m more framework-oriented than outcome-oriented. my focus is largely “what is actually true?” rather than “what is the most efficient way to accomplish this,” although I do the latter as well (usually when under stress). I challenge definitions, refine categories, dissect inconsistencies, compare systems, and look for internal logical coherence. it is actually connected to being e1 for me. I want to be perfect, and this includes ideological and analytical perfection. I must analyze things and understand what the “correct” course of action is to be able to take it.

another thing is that I like to plan and have goals and structure, but I struggle to physically maintain it. I struggle a lot with executive dysfunction. this is why my conscientiousness is 50%. I am structured, but not necessarily orderly. the idealized structure exists in the mind but execution is an entirely other matter.

I see myself as deeply analytical and introspective. I'm driven by a quiet desire to understand both myself and the world. I naturally dissect ideas, compare frameworks, and search for underlying principles. I'm interested in building a coherent model that accurately reflects reality.

I value integrity over convenience. I want my beliefs, actions, and identity to be internally consistent, and I often question myself to make sure I'm not fooling myself.

although I'm very reserved and independent, I care deeply about people. my concern tends to express itself through fairness, responsibility, and a desire to improve things rather than through overt emotional expression. I'm not great at communicating emotionally. I often notice problems that others ignore and I feel a quiet obligation to make sense of them or help where I can.

creatively, I'm drawn to contrast: beauty mixed with melancholy, order mixed with mystery, softness alongside intensity. my writing, aesthetic preferences, and favorite fictional characters reflect an appreciation for complexity rather than simplicity. I enjoy ideas that reward careful thought and leave room for interpretation.

at my best, I'm thoughtful, principled, imaginative, and perceptive. I'm willing to revise my opinions when presented with convincing evidence, and I generally seek truth over validation. at my worst, I can become trapped in analysis, excessive self-criticizism, or I get mentally exhausted from trying to optimize every decision and understand every possibility before acting.

I'm not trying to become the loudest or most successful person in the room. I want to become the most authentic, competent, and ethically consistent version of myself.

payday 😞

I was like "does it mean he's tired?" "does he send it when he's in bed?" turns out he sends it to start a conversation and just thinks it's funny.