u/NoPush8163

Did he talk about it somewhere?

Years ago I was immature and had falling out with some family members. And since we haven’t talked. I wanna have relationship with them again as I have matured.

Can anyone share their success stories regarding this

I had few people in my life who abused me mentally, emotionally and ruined my relationships with geniune people by manipulation. They were clearly some borderline and some narcissists . Which has caused me loads of ptsd and trauma.

Including happiness, peace and joy and I fully Believe they need to be taught a lesson and suffer.

I took a coffee jar and written their names (each name on separate paper) and below what I want to happen to them. Added red chilli pepper, chilli powder, turmeric powder, ashes, toothpick then poured lemon and closed the lid and shook whenever I cry, feel anger or sadness.

I am doing this for 2 days. And I still have loads of emotions inside me to put into this they just keep on coming.

How long can I expect to see to work? I am putting all my energy and emotions and it’s all geniune

3 years ago I lived with some family relatives at their home for few months and just before that my biggest dreams of life was fulfilled.

They began the love bombing phase I was completely unaware and slowly they started controlling me and one day I had enough of controlling and put up boundaries I moved on but few months later those memories started coming up.

I tried to make All the logical sense of why it happened and I kept getting stuck in those thought loops then I learned about bpd and npd and understood what kind of people these are.

I tried getting out of these thoughts and memories by all ways but I am still here trying to gain my vitality and joy back.

The thing that was supposed to make me most happy ended up having me go through worst period of my life.

cause of this I can’t trust anyone, I can’t enjoy things I used to enjoy.

I am doing trauma release exercises but it’s a long journey to complete healing. I lost 3 years in just ruminating.

My mind made a 180 turn and I went from being at complete peace when i was in worse physical situation and now my mind is restless even though I have no physical problems.

I just want to feel the joy again

3 years ago I lived with some family relatives (bpd and npd couple) at their home for few months and just before that my biggest dreams of life was fulfilled.

They began the love bombing phase I was completely unaware and slowly they started controlling me and one day I had enough of controlling and put up boundaries I moved on but few months later those memories started coming up.

I tried to make All the logical sense of why it happened and I kept getting stuck in those thought loops then I learned about bpd and npd and understood what kind of people these are.

I tried getting out of these thoughts and memories by all ways but I am still here trying to gain my vitality and joy back.

The thing that was supposed to make me most happy ended up having me go through worst period of my life.

cause of this I can’t trust anyone, I can’t enjoy things I used to enjoy.

I am doing trauma release exercises but it’s a long journey to complete healing. I lost 3 years in just ruminating.

My mind made a 180 turn and I went from being at complete peace when i was in worse physical situation and now my mind is restless even though I have no physical problems.

I just want to feel the joy again

3 years ago I lived with some family relatives at their home for few months and just before that my biggest dreams of life was fulfilled.

They began the love bombing phase I was completely unaware and slowly they started controlling me and one day I had enough of controlling and put up boundaries I moved on but few months later those memories started coming up.

I tried to make All the logical sense of why it happened and I kept getting stuck in those thought loops then I learned about bpd and npd and understood what kind of people these are.

I tried getting out of these thoughts and memories by all ways but I am still here trying to gain my vitality and joy back.

The thing that was supposed to make me most happy ended up having me go through worst period of my life.

Just needed to tell this to someone.

Edit- cause of this I can’t trust anyone, I can’t enjoy things I used to enjoy.

I am doing trauma release exercises but it’s a long journey to complete healing. I lost 3 years in just ruminating.

My mind made a 180 turn and I went from being at complete peace when i was in worse physical situation and now my mind is restless even though I have no physical problems.

I just want to feel the joy again

What did psychedelics teach you about “why we are here”?

Always been in fight or flight mode my whole life and now I get flashbacks on every unrelated or related mentions to my past.

I sometimes feel happiness and peace but its temporary

What practices I can do to permanently have joy and peace as my natural state?

This is a hypothetical that if every person in the world did TRE and healed all of the ancestral and this lifetime trauma causing everyone to be blissful and joyful

hence no one doing any bad things and everyone helping each other out?

How does past life trauma work?

Is it genetic based or is it based on reincarnation theory?

If it’s genetic doesn’t that just mean everyone has trauma?

I (21) live with my parents.

Can I use their residency documents since I can trace it back with my birth certificate but I have one problem

On my identity proof (green card), ssn and application name has FNU (first name unknown) as first name since they can’t leave it empty and my real name is in surname section.

On my birth certificate it just has my real name as there is no section of first and last name.

Can this cause issue since it doesn’t match exactly but FNU is just a placeholder