u/No_Blackberry143

Okay this genuinely messed with my head so I need to share it lol. Around 6 months ago, I wrote a bunch of stuff on my whiteboard under “OWNED.” It was messy as hell because I had written so many things on it. Specific luxury stuff, random stuff, etc.

And I didn’t even write everything out properly. For example, if I wanted something from Hermès, I’d literally write “herms” as a code word because I knew what I meant. Then I completely forgot about the board. Like genuinely forgot it existed. It was just sitting there in the corner while I went on with my life. I barely looked at it because there was so much shit written all over it.

Fast forward to literally today. I’m sitting at my desk studying, randomly look toward the whiteboard, see those little shortcut words and suddenly go WAIT. WHAT THE FUCK. I started looking at what I’d written and realised I’d recently bought basically all of it. Not vaguely similar things. Specific brands. Specific categories of cosmetics and clothes. And the amount/number of things was freakishly close too. And the funniest part is that this wasn’t some conscious “OMG I NEED TO MANIFEST THIS” thing anymore. I had completely forgotten I’d even written it.

Meanwhile, last week I was shopping like a fucking maniac. Parcels were coming almost every day. The delivery guy basically knows my name atp lmao.

And I’ve been sitting here wondering why I’m not even that excited about all this stuff anymore. I’ve spent a lot recently and when I say a lotttttt, it’s a lot..and I’m not feeling guilty, but I’m not particularly euphoric either. Then I look at this board and realize.. Bitch. You literally wrote “OWNED” months ago. And now it’s owned.

This is the part I wish I could actually explain properly because I feel like every time I talk about manifestation I’m only explaining the fucking 1% of what I’m seeing.

If you’re the creator in your own reality, then you’re not only the creator of the things you want. You’re also the destroyer. You’re the obstacle. You’re the limitation. You’re the fucking wall standing in your own path. You’re both sides of the coin.

You’re the entire fucking universe containing everything.. not just the things your human mind labels “good,” but everything it labels “bad,” “wrong,” “impossible,” “unwanted,” etc.

And THAT is why detachment matters so much. People scream “DETACH” on this subreddit and half the time people interpret it as “Detach so your manifestation will come.” Noooooo.

That’s not even the point I’m talking about.
Detach because you stop fucking interfering with yourself. Detach because when you’re constantly checking, forcing, doubting, contradicting, obsessing and asking WHEN WHEN WHEN you’re not just waiting for your desire. You’re creating your own hurdles. You’re putting yourself in a trap and then wondering why there’s a trap.
You’re simultaneously saying.. I am the source. and BUT WHERE IS IT?? Like… pick one.

The whiteboard is what really drove this home for me. I forgot it existed. I wasn’t looking for signs.
I wasn’t trying to figure out how it would happen.
I wrote it, lived my life, forgot about it, and then months later accidentally discovered that I was already living inside something I’d previously imagined.

And THAT is what I mean when I talk about letting the power within you work. You don’t need to babysit the universe. You are the universe you’re trying to babysit.

Here’s my last post about how manifestation got boring for me. I got so many DMs and comments that it became practically impossible to engage with everyone, but I still tried. And I was literally screaming in the comments: BE ON A STRICT MENTAL DIET FOR GOD’S SAKE, MAN.

Mental diet isn’t omg I must only think positive thoughts 24/7. That’s impossible and honestly exhausting. It’s about becoming conscious enough to notice when you’re thinking against yourself. Because if you’re constantly thinking “I can’t.” “What if it doesn’t?” “What if I lose it?”
…then you’re literally constructing resistance and then calling it circumstances.

Your mind can become the fucking obstacle course.
And then you wonder why you’re exhausted trying to reach the thing.

So yes, watch your thoughts because the thoughts you repeatedly entertain become assumptions, expectations, emotional patterns, decisions, behaviors, and ultimately the lens through which you experience and create your reality. Stop creating against yourself.

And tbh, that’s what makes this whole whiteboard thing so funny to me. My old self wrote a bunch of stuff under OWNED. Forgot about it. My current self bought the stuff. And then my current self had to rediscover my old self’s handwriting to realize it had already happened lmao. The creator forgot what she created… and then stumbled across the creation while casually living her life.

Also this is the part I wish people actually understood. You don’t manifest what you want.. you manifest what you ARE… the identity underneath it all.

So change yourself. Not the 3D, not the circumstances, not the external shit. You.
Become so self aware that people in the 3D can’t tell you who you are because you already know yourself to the core.

You can’t change what you don’t even know is running you. So actually look at yourself… your beliefs, your patterns, how you function, how you interpret things, what meaning you automatically assign to everything. (I literally used to journal my patterns in insane detail back in the day, just trying to figure myself out. I’d research my own fucking mind to the point where I genuinely felt crazy but that level of self observation taught me more about myself than constantly trying to “manifest” one specific thing ever could)

Because the point isn’t to keep changing the reflection. Change the one who’s looking into the mirror. I don’t even know how else to explain what I’m trying to say. I genuinely feel like every time I try to explain this stuff, I’m only describing the tip of the iceberg. And maybe that’s why I’ve started talking less about it. Because at some point you realize you’re trying to explain the ocean using a glass of water.

PS: Sorry for the long ass post.

So I usually wear S in H&M, sometimes even XS depending on the fit. My measurements are:
Bust: 32-34
Waist: 28
Hips: 38

I wanted this stretchable H&M bodysuit so bad, but S was out of stock, so after debating for days I finally ordered an M. Now… FOUR DAYS LATER… guess what’s back in stock? 🥲 Yep, S.

Normally I’d just order both and return one, but apparently H&M doesn’t accept returns on bodysuits for hygiene reasons, so now I’m just sitting here staring at the S size on the website questioning every life decision I’ve ever made. 😭
Part of me thinks M might actually be okay because of my 38 hips, and at least it won’t be too tight or uncomfortable down there. Worst case, if it’s a little loose around the bust, I can probably get it taken in by a tailor.

But then another part of me is screaming, You ALWAYS wear S. What if the M is too loose? Arhh.
Now I’m debating whether I should: Stick with the M and hope it fits or buy the S as well, and maybe gift size M to someone later (although I don’t really have anyone close enough that I’d casually gift a brand new bodysuit 😭).

Anyone with similar measurements (especially around 32-34 bust, 28 waist, 38 hips) who’s bought H&M stretch bodysuits..what size worked for you?
Please convince me I’m overthinking this because I genuinely am. 🥲

Has anyone else ever gotten… tired of manifestation? Not because it isn’t working.
Not because you don’t believe in it anymore.
Honestly, I think I’m tired because I believe in it too much.

I’ve been into this stuff for about 1.5 years now. In the beginning, it was exciting as hell. Every little thing felt magical. I was constantly testing things, watching my thoughts, doing mental diets, being super conscious of what I was assuming. And it worked. I’ve manifested money, a whole house (specific one), iMac, academic success, opportunities, specific people reaching out, random circumstances turning in my favor, and plenty of things. The list is honestly too long to even get into.

Over time, I reached a point where I no longer believed manifestation worked. I simply accepted it as a fact of my reality. I became deeply convinced that I am the operant power. That consciousness creates. That assumptions harden into fact.
I stopped looking for proof. It just became normal. (it would probably take another complete brain rewiring for me to think otherwise lol.) THAT’S HOW NORMAL IT HAS BECOME.

Things would happen and instead of being shocked, my reaction would be, “Yeah, that makes sense.”
That’s actually the weird part.
The more convinced I became that consciousness creates reality, the less exciting it all felt.
I used to be fascinated by it.
Now I just kind of…mehhhh
I just feel exhausted.

Like I’ve spent so much time observing my thoughts, directing my focus, being aware of assumptions and inner conversations that I don’t want to manage any of it for a while.
Ironically, I think I’m tired because I believe it too much.

The excitement that existed in the beginning is gone. The mystery is gone. It’s like already knowing how the movie ends before pressing play. It’s like mastering a skill so completely that the challenge disappears.
It’s like I know how to drive. I’ve driven countless times. I’m confident behind the wheel. But lately, I feel too exhausted to even start the engine.

That’s the closest description I can give.

The excitement of “Will this work?” is gone.
I already know what I believe. I know how this works. I know who I am. I know what I’m capable of. And somehow that’s left me feeling weirdly uninterested in playing the game right now. Like I don’t feel excited about it.

I’m curious if anyone else has gone through this phase, because I mostly see people talking about doubt, failure, or losing faith.
For me it’s none of those.
It’s more like manifestation burnout after reaching certainty.

Bro what even is this post-exam life 😭

Before exams I had a whole list ready… I’ll binge series, sleep till noon, watch all the stuff in my wishlist, chill properly and what not aur pata nahi exam time pe kaise kaise atraangi hobbies bhi yaad aati hai like

I’ll learn guitar, learn a new language, workout, get into cooking/baking, skincare…matlab pura personality development chal raha tha dimaag me.

But now that I’m finally free… I’m literally getting bored doing all of it. Can’t even sit through one episode properly.😭

Series dekhte dekhte bore hojaa rhi hu. Exam time pe toh koi bhi random tatti series masterpiece lgti thi bhai🫩💀

And now when I actually have time, I just sit there wondering what tf to do with my life

What are you guys even doing after exams?? Need suggestions fr.

I’m gonna be a bit blunt..but it’s genuinely for your own good.

A lot of you aren’t actually “practicing the law.”

You’re consuming it.

Reading Neville, watching videos, going through success stories, jumping from one technique to another.. SATS, affirmations, visualizing, mental diets…

And still feeling stuck.

Why?

Because you’ve turned this into something external.

You’re trying to find the right method**, the** perfect explanation**, the** next success story that will finally make it click.

But the truth is.. No amount of reading Neville Goddard will replace actually facing YOUR OWN MIND.

The clarity you feel while reading or watching something?

That’s not coming from Neville. It’s coming from you.

He’s just triggering it.

But instead of taking that clarity inward and stabilizing it, most of you go right back to searching again.

That’s the loop:

read.. feel clarity..doubt..search again

That is not practicing the law.

That is dependence.

Even Neville didn’t “give” anyone anything.

He spoke from his realization.

And even his teacher Abdullah didn’t sit there answering endless questions or guiding step by step.. he pushed him back into himself.

That’s the whole point.

This isn’t about perfecting techniques.

It’s about:

noticing your thoughts,

seeing what you’re actually assuming,

sitting with the discomfort instead of trying to fix it instantly.

and becoming the state, not just trying to force it

You don’t need another success story.

You don’t need another technique.

You don’t need someone to “guide” you.

You need to stop abandoning yourself every time doubt shows up.

Sit with your mind.

Watch it.

Be honest about what you’re actually thinking and identifying with.

That’s where the shift happens.

Not in more content.

Because in the end..

you are the one imagining.

you are the one assuming.

you are the one experiencing.

So you are the only one who can apply this.

Not by binge consuming Neville…

…but by actually living it.

Everything you’re looking for is already within you.

Not in the next post.

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For a bit more clarity Abdullah didn’t let Neville depend on him or anything. He actually pushed him back into himself.

There’s even a lecture where Neville talks about it.. “How Abdullah Taught the Law.”

A quick summary of Neville's first process with quotes :)

Desire:

"It’s almost 12 years, and I’ve never had a desire to go back. But now I have a hungry desire, a haunting desire, to go to Barbados. Not a thing stops me but a lack of money. I have no money.”

Abdullah's response:

He said to me, “You are in Barbados.”

I said, “I am in Barbados?”

He said, “Yes. You are now in Barbados. And so… you see Barbados, and you see America from Barbados, and you can smell the tropical land of Barbados, see only the little homes of Barbados, and that’s all you do. You just simply sleep this night in Barbados.”

First reaction:

Well, I thought him insane, really… I mean, at the moment, it seemed so… stupid.

Doubt:

I said, “You know, Abdullah, there’s no… not a thing has happened.” He wouldn’t discuss it with me. He turned his back on me and went into his little library and slammed the door. (READDDD IT AGAIN)

Seeking encouragement:

Oh, he said, “You’re in Barbados.” And I’m in New York City physically, but he put me in Barbados in my imagination. So that I slept in Barbados to the best of my ability. But you know days go into weeks, and the weeks went into a month, and I’m trying my best to open the discussion with him, to get a little hope. No, no hope! (audience laughter) He wouldn’t give me any encouragement if I did what he told me to do. Well, we all are human enough to want another little discussion, another little push.

Abdullah's attitude: So all that I did… I tried to the best of my ability to with his almost insolence… he was rude. But he taught me by his rudeness that I cannot discuss how if I am doing what I’m supposed to do.

Lesson learned: And so he taught me the lesson that there is no such thing as “a little pregnancy.” (audience laughter) No such thing. If you did it, then you’re pregnant. Let the child grow. And interference with it is going to be a miscarriage.

(...) Now, don’t try to argue. You have conceived. And all you have to do is be a faithful mother, and bear that child, and don’t discuss it with me anymore.

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The only way out is within. Simple as that.

You need to pause and turn inward.

You’re your own Abdullah. No one can do this for you. The more you depend on outside sources to get it, the more you delay actually seeing it.

Sit with yourself.

Go within. That’s where it actually happens.