u/ObjectiveDue1326

Ive had a dilemma these last few days

My friend is letting me borrow their portable AC for the summer, but I'm not sure whether I'll need it. The last few days have been hellish, but I'm also not sure whether they seem to have been flukes or represent real Ithaca weather around this time?

Google says that it doesn't usually peak beyond 85, but I know there have been frequent heat waves. At the same time, im posting this outside where it feels amazing at 65 and I heard the northeast is expected to be cooler than avg this year (sure feels like it). I'm worried if it'll be completely redundant to use some days especially since it's a wall AC that would completely block half my view of outside. I'd prefer the box fan for aesthetics, but I'm also from the mid atlantic and I know how much humidity can be a bitch and make temps feel worse

For reference: 3rd floor of building from the 60s

I say this as someone who spent 90% of undergrad on a crusade against it. I hated this font, tot he point where I'd submit papers in Palatino or Century Schoolbook (my history professors were fine with this since it was still serif), and until now I loathed anything I had to read that was in that font.

But after writing my 60 page senior honors thesis I kind of realize the value of this font. It's not the best by any means, but it's so common that it feels much easier to read than most digital fonts I see day to day. Even if Century Schoolbook is basically the same style, TNR is still a lot easier to read and I can't really explain why that is. I'm still debating which to use to submit the final project (since Chicago allows either really) but I can see the value in TNR years later.

given that these hold their value really well I'm not expecting to find a 100k+ used fit for anything less than 20k

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My mom was hospitalized on monday for a jaw injury. I didnt see the message since i have my family group chat muted and 90% of it is related to things at home. She messaged about it but I didnt see.

Today she called me saying that I have let my family and my dead dad down. I talked to my brother yesterday and he said nothing about it. She said she was waiting for hours just for me to call. Today is Thursday ftr. She was let out yesterday.

"You don't care about me, right? Your brothers turned down offers to leave home to help me... you turned your back on me and your religion..m your education means nothing. Islam is everything... What if I died then? How would you even know? It was a mistake to let you study..."

TLDR I'm being written out of my dad's inheritance (he didn't have a will) and $500k because I didnt check my messages one day. I've read other posts on this forum about dealing with being written out wills and losing any family support but I genuinely dont know if I can continue living if I truly am cut off like that. Any future security is simply just gone.

I know that I am guilty (had I seen the pictures I would have called but I honestly didnt) but I cant help feeling like it was dumb to even leave home or care about independence at all anymore. I'm probably cancelling my lease and going home for the summer now

Utilitarians would justify an industrial animal farm as being a net benefit for humanity, while postmodernists will argue that it shows the wrongs of mass consumerism and growth. I hate how often social sciences admire Foucault, but at the same time I can't argue that they're wrong per se. I think that a lot of postmodernism is an attempt to justify things retroactively, and not actually contribute towards systemic solutions. The Sokal Affair is literally what every journal article in my field reads like today

But I feel like the anthropologists that publish these articles aren't wrong for doing so, its just meaningless to live and die by a culture of critique that doesn't seek to lead to tangible change beyond critique. Idunno. I like Betrand Russell and realist theory for this reason, but postmodernists equate it with utilitarianism leading to the start of this post

I played IN and PCB for 3 hrs today. It's nearly twelve hours later and I still see IN (usually reimus stage 4 spell card) in my mind. I'm also hearing Alice's theme. It's as if I'm still looking at the patterns and mentally picturing myself dodging the bullets or arrows etc. I can't ignore it, when I close my eyes I'm literally seeing reimus spell care where she launches tracking cards with that delay and me dodging them as Remilia

Interestingly this doesn't happen to me for other games, probably because they aren't as fast paced? Maybe it's just catchy (the music rly is lol). I wouldn't even say I'm addicted, I do play other games

I wish this was a shitpost lmao but it's almost 3 am and I'm still dealing with this. Watching a movie and taking migraine pills hasn't changed it since. I figured I'd post this before sleeping because I'll probably be fine by tomorrow morning

Also weird is that I get a lot better at the games while drunk, and that's not a shitpost either. My current high score in IN was from being 2 ciders drunk, playing Marisa using my mouse to move instead of arrow keys (with a github mod, its so much fun). Is it the ZUN method?

I know people that undoubtedly love this country but are going to grad school in China or even private work in Saudi Arabia because it's all that's available to them. I'm very likely going to be in a similar situation soon. I had always wanted to travel the world and maybe work for the State dept. someday, but not at gunpoint like this. I've lived in the UK and Taiwan and had lots of fun in both places.

I'm graduating from undergrad with no debt, but with basically nothing to look forward to after May. I've started drinking to cope with the stress of basically having any hope taken away from me from an election two years ago. Yes I do unironically think this is all Trump's fault. Someone at my college was arrested for planning a school shooting and cited Trump's election as one of the main reasons for it. It's ruined lives

I'm honestly scared of living in this country at this point and might take up my Professors offer to live in Beijing, or apply for a UK visa just to escape. Objectively, those are what I feel like my only two options are.

I know I sound hysteric, but being 22 and having no future is brutal on its own. Knowing consciously that your future was literally stolen from you makes it so much worse.

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This sucks

I went down from 20 to 10mg and I've noticed a significant rebound in sexual interest, to the point where it's honestly just frustrating to me. I'm a month away from graduating college, so near the point where dating becomes basically impossible, and I'm only now feeling how I should've months ago at least?

It's too late to act on anything, is there even a point going down then? This is my only real side effect, I've had a good experience with Wellbutrin alongside it (the rzn I went down here was to take it with that). I know this almost sounds like a non argument but I really am frustrated at how I'm only now feeling less passive towards things, to the point where it just makes me feel worse overall

Have any of you known people that have gone from challenging backgrounds but still managed to get far in life or education? My friend is really passionate about learning despite going through depression as well as parents divorcing, two years since we've met now and he will be attending an R1 after transferring from a CC

I feel like people often say education is a good way to move forward, but I don't often see how people explain that a love for life and learning can truly work wonders

I was full slate rejected from every grad program I applied to (3) this cycle with zero advice from advisors there. I graduate in may, finished a senior honors thesis, but have absolutely zero hope. Mostly because learning has frustrated me lately.

If you ask any of my professors, they'll tell you that I'm very passionate, dedicated and active in class. I fucking hate being in class because it feels like a waste of time. It feels like I'm always the only one talking in lectures and no one else ever speaks up (as a senior I'm extra self conscious as the oldest and ugliest person in the room). Seminars are much better, but also very rare.

I'm really fed up with this aspect of learning. The topic of the class I'm referring to is direclty relevant to my thesis, and said professor has helped me a lot regarding it. Other than that, it feels like I'm a teacher's pet. What's more, none of my friends care about the things I find in my research. One goes as far as to say I only pretend to know what I talk about to seem smarter. Who gives a fuck about history or geography I guess? Especially knowing none of the schools I applied to see me as qualified enough to know it.

I'm fed up with everything lately. It feels like unless I'm headed to grad programs in this field there's literally zero reason to care about anything whatsoever. I'm probably going to end up in a pencil pushing job where nothing I care about right now will amount to anything, given that I've been rejected from every program I applied to and next cycle is almost guaranteed to be shut down. There was a way to make use of things I care about, but I missed it. Is there any point in caring anymore? Is my friend right and should I get on antipsychotics so I can stop thinking at all and get a real job (his advice, in grad school himself for STS just so he can stay in the US but someone who despises his field)

I want to give up on learning entirely. But it isn't learning I hate but the fact that anything I learn about will amount to nothing