u/Odd_Coast_9719

Should I reach out to him

B.E.K. my love of always, i am so happy to talk to you again, lord knows how much I have missed you. I wish you and I could just be together, it has always hurt me that people would never support us being together even though we are actually happy together. If we could have just been together as a couple like we wanted I bet you wouldn't have spent the psst 13 years like you have and honestly though you are with someone else and you want this beautiful life, that person already did the same shit to you, that the last piece of trash did..it of course bothers me, because I love you. I want to see you have a life. I want you to be a dad to your kids that you never have been. But if you think your gonna get any of that with that person your with now you not. And I will have to sit back and watch yet another piece of trash destroy you, and to think this all could be avoided...smh heartbreaking truly it is. But no matter what I can and will always be there for you, they can't keep us from that, and thank you for reaching out to me I really needed this. I love you always. Handsome

You have my heart darling, at least for the most part.

Love Always me

S.B.C for life!@

One is back at least partially and the love i love the most won't contact me. I have 2 people who share my heart and broke it equally as bad. One was in my past one is current. When I got separated from #1 I knew we would cross paths again, and i feel the same way about #2. I guess what im wanting to know is why can't we just be together as one either of them, and do I take up their thoughts like they do mine?

What is one thing you think would make everyday life, better for us as a society?

The society we have created, and exist in, i feel is not what it was ever intended to be. People of the past were very ignorant to alot of things, very closed minded, belief systems based of religious doctrine, and little education. So what are some things that would help our society today?

One is back at least partially and the love i love the most won't contact me. I have 2 people who share my heart and broke it equally as bad. One was in my past one is current. When I got separated from #1 I knew we would cross paths again, and i feel the same way about #2. I guess what im wanting to know is why can't we just be together as one either of them, and do I take up their thoughts like they do mine?

Our society has turned into...idk but it's very off putting for me. Racism, pedophilia, drugs, crime, hate, wealth inequality, i could really go on and on, but facts are this is our everyday. What is morally right and wrong? And who makes these judgements. How can we ever come together as functioning people again when we can't get the basics of morality agreed on. We have gone back 100 years it seems, women's rights and health are again up for debate, we are treating people worse than vermin because they aren't white, and undocumented, crime is rampant, drugs are no longer a problem or taboo, it's everyday life, our kids are not being educated correctly, and not a actual real solution to any of this mess is being sought out. Our society is really ok with all of this and I want to know why?

Every day is exactly the same. Idk what happened to me exactly but after the events of last year I think it did me in. I dont want anything, or anyone, I hate my job, I dont want to leave my house for any reason. Everything just seems pointless. The things people care about are trivial at best, but actual problems that plague our society, we'll none of those things really get anything but bitched about on social media. People are just stupid, and it just keeps getting worse. Families aren't families anymore, everybody thinks their beliefs and thoughts are the only beliefs that should be lived by, im so sick of our wonderful "christians" spewing their unchecked hate, and constant s support of the most ridiculous, not fact based, bullshit that they hear from fox news, seriously have you heard that shit, any person with half a brain would be like wow how stupid, and never think about it again, but not right now, dumb people get to spread what ever conspiracy theories they want, including to children who then take what they are being told by adults that all these "facts" are truth and now more stupid people. We literally have a pedophile for a president make that make sense, a pedophile, felon failure pig dumb f$%# as our country's leader...on top of not being able to afford to live, so many just unhappy, lonely, people smh. This is everyday life, and it's so tiring. So mind numbing, how do I escape this hell

One is back at least partially and the love i love the most won't contact me. I have 2 people who share my heart and broke it equally as bad. One was in my past one is current. When I got separated from #1 I knew we would cross paths again, and i feel the same way about #2. I guess what im wanting to know is why can't we just be together as one either of them, and do I take up their thoughts like they do mine?

Answer my question

What the fuck is this situation? There are so many people that talk about how much they love someone, but they can't be together, and alot of times they have been missing said person for days to years, just can't seem to let it go. So why break up? Why not just work it out? I will never understand how anybody can say they love a person than just leave them behind, spend years missing and wanting said person, so why not FIX things, why would you give up some one you love so much. Every other post on here is basically some form of what im talking about here. So was it worth leaving ur person? Did you get what you wanted once you left? Oh your still friends, why is that? Explain yourselves

I'm. Totally burned out, no money to do the things I want to do im drowning. Any body want to give me a reading?

Does anyone else get frustrated and anxious when they haven't had anything make their brains work in a deep way? I deeply feel like I should be doing something meaningful or deep, I don't know what it is that im searching for, but this everyday that I live just isn't working anymore.

The same wore out faces, the same lame meaningless conversations, same old fucking places, this everyday n repeat. It's causing me so much grief.

God i miss you api, I never thought loosing you would just drown me. I am alive but im not living, there's no joy bin my day, I don't want to do anything go anywhere, I sure am not fucking dating. I want to text you, but I never do, im always hoping you will reach out first. I love you with my whole heart, and i will never get over this. I wish you knew just how much I need you. I can always find someone new, I don't want them I want you. I'm getting a huge settlement and im not even happy about that, I should be but im not. Everyday is exactly the same, there is no love here, there is only pain. I miss the way we laughed, I miss your cooking I think that's why I hate my job so much, is because your not there. I will be waiting for you api, there's no one who can or will replace you, just know that if you ever get lonely or just miss me, im here waiting for you. I love you so fucking much, I should have listened to you about my living situation and im sorry for being mad at you for what you said. I'm sorry, I am suffering endlessly, believe that. I love you I love you I love you.

Love always

Brujia

I am looking for individuals who will simply tell me about them as a person, their life how they live it, are you a survivor, are you super rich, are you straight laced, or are you a hot mess. All I want is honesty. I'm working on a research project, how a person's adult life is a direct result of their experiences in early childhood. I need a diverse group of individuals. All races, religions, backgrounds are welcome to tell me your story. You must be 18 years old, so i need your first name only, your age, where are you from, your occupation, and then what ever your story is. This is a volunteer based project, the information shared with me, is for my research

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C.Ayala

I think this betrayal, has done me in. Everyday I wake up and everything is exactly the same. I didn't notice how much weight I've gained over the past year, or how I just don't take care of myself at all. I replay the situation out in my head over and over again like why did either of you do this to me. And to know that you could careless makes this wound even worse. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, restart my business, I went to the Thrift store that we used to go to yesterday and cried the whole time, I thought it was going to faint. Any time I see a white truck, I almost have a panic attack, and I can't stop there reactions. I don't know who I miss more you or your dad. You were my friend I love you with my whole heart, do I want u around, idk but I just want you to know that your betrayal of our friendship didn't kill me physically but it killed everything else about me. Sometimes I just want to destroy you thinking I might feel better but honestly of all the horrible things I think about doing to you, it's never going to fix the damage to me. I would have never done this to you or your dad, i love him with my whole heart. Someday your gonna realize the mistake you made just like your dad did. Yes your dad just like the snake he is has never stopped talking to me, or sleeping with me this whole time. I still see your cousin and you know why I talk to Johnny all the time and munchies to, has the nature of the way I deal with these people changed, absolutely, the nature of the way I deal with everyone and everything has changed no thanks to you, so really you betrayed me for nothing. Because that little bitch Ivan was in your ear, how did that work out for you, cuz I bet I can tell you what he had to say about everything, Carlos too and Brendan, sad right, all your little friends are snakes just like u.and you don't have a clue, it all makes me very sad I hope you know that. Just because my skin suit is still functioning doesn't mean I'm alive, thanks for that. Sometimes i think I want you to just show up and make shit right, do something but it's far to late, i don't trust anyone, i spend all my time alone because I can't trust anyone. Nothing you can do will fix that.i just hope that someday you suffer like I'm suffering, I hope that someone does you exactly like you did me. And I hope you are totally alone ,just like I have been. Someone said if I actually loved and cared about, I would want the best for you, and I did at one time, i wanted nothing but the best for you and look what you still did. So now what i want is for you to feel like I have been, and have no clue why. I hope those memories start to hurt, and i hope the guilt for all the shifty things you did to me, all the lies you told me, the way you used me to supply your habits and put a roof over your head, i hope when that guilt starts seeping in, that it's all consuming. I fucking hate this, I would give anything to go back to when I felt OK, going to the thrift store with you, loading up our packages to be mailed out, making waffles at 3 am, yes I would go back to those days without a second thought, who knew a real broken heart, would kill everything about you as a person just not your body.

I have written so many letters to you and not one of them will you ever see, but damn I wish you would tho, cuz I want you to understand why you don't do shifty things to people who love you, i want you to understand how your words and actions can affect a person for the rest of their lives. Thanks alot and fuck you!

I think this betrayal, has done me in. Everyday I wake up and everything is exactly the same. I didn't notice how much weight I've gained over the past year, or how I just don't take care of myself at all. I replay the situation out in my head over and over again like why did either of you do this to me. And to know that you could careless makes this wound even worse. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, restart my business, I went to the Thrift store that we used to go to yesterday and cried the whole time, I thought it was going to faint. Any time I see a white truck, I almost have a panic attack, and I can't stop there reactions. I don't know who I miss more you or your dad. You were my friend I love you with my whole heart, do I want u around, idk but I just want you to know that your betrayal of our friendship didn't kill me physically but it killed everything else about me. Sometimes I just want to destroy you thinking I might feel better but honestly of all the horrible things I think about doing to you, it's never going to fix the damage to me. I would have never done this to you or your dad, i love him with my whole heart. Someday your gonna realize the mistake you made just like your dad did. Yes your dad just like the snake he is has never stopped talking to me, or sleeping with me this whole time. I still see your cousin and you know why I talk to Johnny all the time and munchies to, has the nature of the way I deal with these people changed, absolutely, the nature of the way I deal with everyone and everything has changed no thanks to you, so really you betrayed me for nothing. Because that little bitch Ivan was in your ear, how did that work out for you, cuz I bet I can tell you what he had to say about everything, Carlos too and Brendan, sad right, all your little friends are snakes just like u.and you don't have a clue, it all makes me very sad I hope you know that. Just because my skin suit is still functioning doesn't mean I'm alive, thanks for that. Sometimes i think I want you to just show up and make shit right, do something but it's far to late, i don't trust anyone, i spend all my time alone because I can't trust anyone. Nothing you can do will fix that.i just hope that someday you suffer like I'm suffering, I hope that someone does you exactly like you did me. And I hope you are totally alone ,just like I have been. Someone said if I actually loved and cared about, I would want the best for you, and I did at one time, i wanted nothing but the best for you and look what you still did. So now what i want is for you to feel like I have been, and have no clue why. I hope those memories start to hurt, and i hope the guilt for all the shifty things you did to me, all the lies you told me, the way you used me to supply your habits and put a roof over your head, i hope when that guilt starts seeping in, that it's all consuming. I fucking hate this, I would give anything to go back to when I felt OK, going to the thrift store with you, loading up our packages to be mailed out, making waffles at 3 am, yes I would go back to those days without a second thought, who knew a real broken heart, would kill everything about you as a person just not your body.

I have written so many letters to you and not one of them will you ever see, but damn I wish you would tho, cuz I want you to understand why you don't do shifty things to people who love you, i want you to understand how your words and actions can affect a person for the rest of their lives. Thanks alot and fuck you!

I think this betrayal, has done me in. Everyday I wake up and everything is exactly the same. I didn't notice how much weight I've gained over the past year, or how I just don't take care of myself at all. I replay the situation out in my head over and over again like why did either of you do this to me. And to know that you could careless makes this wound even worse. I'm trying to pick up the pieces, restart my business, I went to the Thrift store that we used to go to yesterday and cried the whole time, I thought it was going to faint. Any time I see a white truck, I almost have a panic attack, and I can't stop there reactions. I don't know who I miss more you or your dad. You were my friend I love you with my whole heart, do I want u around, idk but I just want you to know that your betrayal of our friendship didn't kill me physically but it killed everything else about me. Sometimes I just want to destroy you thinking I might feel better but honestly of all the horrible things I think about doing to you, it's never going to fix the damage to me. I would have never done this to you or your dad, i love him with my whole heart. Someday your gonna realize the mistake you made just like your dad did. Yes your dad just like the snake he is has never stopped talking to me, or sleeping with me this whole time. I still see your cousin and you know why I talk to Johnny all the time and munchies to, has the nature of the way I deal with these people changed, absolutely, the nature of the way I deal with everyone and everything has changed no thanks to you, so really you betrayed me for nothing. Because that little bitch Ivan was in your ear, how did that work out for you, cuz I bet I can tell you what he had to say about everything, Carlos too and Brendan, sad right, all your little friends are snakes just like u.and you don't have a clue, it all makes me very sad I hope you know that. Just because my skin suit is still functioning doesn't mean I'm alive, thanks for that. Sometimes i think I want you to just show up and make shit right, do something but it's far to late, i don't trust anyone, i spend all my time alone because I can't trust anyone. Nothing you can do will fix that.i just hope that someday you suffer like I'm suffering, I hope that someone does you exactly like you did me. And I hope you are totally alone ,just like I have been. Someone said if I actually loved and cared about, I would want the best for you, and I did at one time, i wanted nothing but the best for you and look what you still did. So now what i want is for you to feel like I have been, and have no clue why. I hope those memories start to hurt, and i hope the guilt for all the shifty things you did to me, all the lies you told me, the way you used me to supply your habits and put a roof over your head, i hope when that guilt starts seeping in, that it's all consuming. I fucking hate this, I would give anything to go back to when I felt OK, going to the thrift store with you, loading up our packages to be mailed out, making waffles at 3 am, yes I would go back to those days without a second thought, who knew a real broken heart, would kill everything about you as a person just not your body.

I have written so many letters to you and not one of them will you ever see, but damn I wish you would tho, cuz I want you to understand why you don't do shifty things to people who love you, i want you to understand how your words and actions can affect a person for the rest of their lives. Thanks alot and fuck you!

I would like to know why my step daughter abandoned me. And will we ever be close again