There's this girl from christian camp and I think I might be delusional, but my friends say she likes me

Hi, so I just got back from the graduates christian camp yesterday, fully crushing on this girl who I'm not entirely sure likes me, but everyone I know keeps telling me how obvious it is (I'm really bad at picking up on things, like REALLY BAD-)

She's absolutely wonderful, and so incredibly kind to me.

I guess I'll skim over a few things that gave me the gay vibes:

  1. She, on her own terms, took and kissed the lenses of my sunglasses. For context, I was paying people in snacks to kiss random objects at the camp (long story of something I got roped into, don't ask) and as people kept begging me to give them a dare, she just asked if she could kiss my sunglasses. I asked her what she wanted for it, she said she didn't want anything, she just wanted to do it.
  2. Literally picked me up and held me bridal style. After she picked me up she said "This is actually really comfortable, I could get used to this!" AND WRAPPED HER ARMS TIGHTER AROUND ME.
  3. A lot of physical attention in general, more so than anyone else got. She also always sat RIGHT NEXT TO ME when we'd sit on my bed in the dorm. She came into our dorm room nearly every day. She would sit on my bed, sing to me, look through my shelf a bit while talking to me
  4. COMPLIMENTS. COMPLIMENTS ALL THE TIME TO MY SCRUFFY LITTLE NERD SELF, AAAGGHDVDJDBJS she also checked on me a lot, making sure I was okay throughout the week (I cried once, she hugged me so hard.. sighh, I could live in her arms)

Mind you, I left out a lot, there's still like a list of items

I say I'm just delusional, my friends say I'm an idiot because it's so obvious, anyway-

Idk what to do. I don't even know for sure if she likes girls, but I do know her bestie is homophobic... though the silence when her friend said she was "anti-pride"- that's a silence of survival. That's a silence of "Oh no, you're gonna hate me aren't you?"

I'm trying to pray about it, because this has actually come at the most perfect and convenient time in my life. It just makes me wonder.

Also we still have contact with each other, I have her number and email, we've messaged a bit (both extremely tired, so-)

Even better is that she's currently moving just a state away from me, and I go to that area in the state all the time, it's perfect!

We've briefly talked about getting coffee and meeting up over the summer!!!

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 1 day ago
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Bought Skyrim for the 5th time! (Not including the copy I bought as a gift, or my original ps3 copy I still have)

u/OfficerGrapes157 — 17 days ago

Those of you in secret relationships, what's your experience been?

ONLY IF YOU'RE SAFE ENOUGH TO SHARE AND ARE WILLING TO DO SO

I had a secret long distance relationship last summer. I remember sitting on call at night saying "I love you" back and forth, hoping my parents wouldn't hear us.

I just wanted to know what y'alls experiences are/have been like

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 1 month ago

Queer teens who are in secret relationships, what's your experience like?

I was in a secret long distance relationship over the summer, but I do wonder what everyone else's experience is like

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 1 month ago

I think I might be Recipro, but I'm not sure-

So I think I could be recipro, but there's two things that make me question whether that fits me or not

  1. What if I VERY OCCASIONALLY find someone attractive first? It's extremely rare for me, but it does happen.

I develop emotional attachments that usually fall somewhere between a platonic and romantic crush, but like I said, they're very VERY rare. Has maybe happened 3 times in my life. Even then those are usually extremely tame unless I see a flake of interest.

  1. I'm a lesbian. I do not like men, if a man liked me I wouldn't be into that.

I've heard some people say that being recipro automatically makes you bi or pan, but idk about that broski.

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 1 month ago

This was my last year with Abeka after I convinced my parents how bad it is. What do I do with the books?

I don't want to donate them, no other person should have to use these...

I've considered either straight burning them or using them for art as to not was the paper AND to gain back a bit of control.

u/OfficerGrapes157 — 1 month ago

I'm struggling, I wanna come out to my parents but my dad thinks being gay is a "Mental Illness"

I really wanna just tell my parents and get it over with, but recently my dad has been falling more and more into homophobia..

From what I've noticed he's falling into the Right-Wing quite a bit and it's really hard to listen to how he talks about people. I know he cares about me, but he's always been quite hard on me. I'm not in a position where I can leave, in fact I still have a little over a year before I can even think about getting my own place. I don't wanna get yelled at, I don't wanna lose my friends.

My mom on the other hand would handle it a lot better. Though she does believe being gay is a sin, she doesn't treat gay people like mentally ill scum. My older uncle got married to his boyfriend recently, she was quite happy for him actually!

I did come out to my mom as bi at one point (when I still was trying my hardest to like men)

I think she either forgot or is just banking on me liking men- I'm only really scared ro come out to her because the option of men has left. She's the "men and women NEED each other" type. "Feminine and Masculine energy" Idk

Idk, I'll probably wait to come out, but I'm still struggling in my silence.

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 2 months ago

I felt led to come here and talk about this so-

Hi there, so I (16F) really REALLY like this one person..

They're great, I've known them for quite awhile, we've been together before (no hard feelings or anything at all, it simply wasn't a good time in either of our lives to start a new relationship)

I've been praying about them a lot, asking God for his will on the situation. I keep getting mixed signals- I'm trying to be really patient though. I know that even if this isn't God's will it'll be okay, I know that whatever he has in store for me will be the right thing!-

I just.. Idk prayers would be nice, I guess that's all I'm asking for. I just felt really called to talk a bit about this here for some reason, so any prayers, advice, anything is much appreciated

Also I'm going to see them later this year, something I've been praying for for a long time, so that's exciting!!

But yeah, thanks, God bless you all!!

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u/OfficerGrapes157 — 2 months ago