There's this girl from christian camp and I think I might be delusional, but my friends say she likes me
Hi, so I just got back from the graduates christian camp yesterday, fully crushing on this girl who I'm not entirely sure likes me, but everyone I know keeps telling me how obvious it is (I'm really bad at picking up on things, like REALLY BAD-)
She's absolutely wonderful, and so incredibly kind to me.
I guess I'll skim over a few things that gave me the gay vibes:
- She, on her own terms, took and kissed the lenses of my sunglasses. For context, I was paying people in snacks to kiss random objects at the camp (long story of something I got roped into, don't ask) and as people kept begging me to give them a dare, she just asked if she could kiss my sunglasses. I asked her what she wanted for it, she said she didn't want anything, she just wanted to do it.
- Literally picked me up and held me bridal style. After she picked me up she said "This is actually really comfortable, I could get used to this!" AND WRAPPED HER ARMS TIGHTER AROUND ME.
- A lot of physical attention in general, more so than anyone else got. She also always sat RIGHT NEXT TO ME when we'd sit on my bed in the dorm. She came into our dorm room nearly every day. She would sit on my bed, sing to me, look through my shelf a bit while talking to me
- COMPLIMENTS. COMPLIMENTS ALL THE TIME TO MY SCRUFFY LITTLE NERD SELF, AAAGGHDVDJDBJS she also checked on me a lot, making sure I was okay throughout the week (I cried once, she hugged me so hard.. sighh, I could live in her arms)
Mind you, I left out a lot, there's still like a list of items
I say I'm just delusional, my friends say I'm an idiot because it's so obvious, anyway-
Idk what to do. I don't even know for sure if she likes girls, but I do know her bestie is homophobic... though the silence when her friend said she was "anti-pride"- that's a silence of survival. That's a silence of "Oh no, you're gonna hate me aren't you?"
I'm trying to pray about it, because this has actually come at the most perfect and convenient time in my life. It just makes me wonder.
Also we still have contact with each other, I have her number and email, we've messaged a bit (both extremely tired, so-)
Even better is that she's currently moving just a state away from me, and I go to that area in the state all the time, it's perfect!
We've briefly talked about getting coffee and meeting up over the summer!!!