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I personally don't like the thing 'hero worshipping '. But some communists do this thing a lot. I personally, don't like Mao's actions like - Four Pests and Great Famine, Cultural Revolution, Stance with oppressive countries side during my native countries freedom struggle, oppression on Xinjiang. So, if i agree with Mao's ideas but not many of his actions, will i be a Maoist?

রিসেন্টল, আমার এলাকায় এইগুলোর উৎপাত বেড়েছে। নেশা থেকে শুরু করে নারীদের টিজ করা, কোনো কিছুই বাদ নেই। বাড়ির রাস্তায় দেখলে ভয় করে। নিজের চেয়ে বেশি চিন্তা হয় ফ্যামিলি নিয়ে। কী করতে পারি?

I believe that socialism or marx never was hateful or disrespectful to religion. Though i know that in depth dialectic materialism is detached from spirituality, but marx never claimed to attack peoples spiritual beliefs.

But why is it that, soviet union became an atheist state rather than just a secular state. I was recently reading an article where it says that around 1939, only 200 churches were not destroyed or attacked ; which were 46000 before revolution. Also, things like burning of religious symbols and texts. Now, i understand the logic that church was at that time heavily feudal and had a strong connection with tsarist regime. But it wasn't after the revolution or at least justified all these chaos. Also, not only christian but also islam and jewish beliefs were hurt too.

In China you also need to be an atheist to be in CCP.

But in my country I've seen too many people who are believers and they are as much as communists as you can expect. They aren't those blind superstitious people, but people with very holy and moral values.

সভ্যতার উৎপাদন ব্যবস্থার পরিবর্তন, অর্থনৈতিক বিকাশ ও বদল এবং নানা প্রতিষ্ঠানসমূহের উৎপত্তি ও বর্তমান অর্থনৈতিক ফাংশন বিষয়ে ডিটেইলস আছে, এমন কোনো বই রেকমেন্ড করতে পারবেন? অর্থাৎ, কৃষি, শিল্প, প্রাচীনকাল থেকে এখন পর্যন্ত অর্থনৈতিক বিবর্তন, সম্পত্তি, বাজারব্যবস্থা এইগুলো সম্পর্কে কিছু বই ; যেখানে এককথায় নানা দেশ বা সময়ের অর্থনৈতিক বিকাশ সম্পর্কে বিস্তারিত ভাবে লেখা থাকবে?

I'm thinking about starting Maupassant. But not understanding should I read 4 volumes of collections or best 25 - 50 stories collection?

I personally have read the White nights, Poor folks, Notes from Underground, Crime and Punishment, Brothers Karamazov. Now, I've liked the Poor Folk, Crime and punishment. Karamazov Brothers was ok, especially the philosophical parts was great; but the the slow paced story narration without any distinct literary style made this whole book kind of boring for me. White nights felt a bit average. But my favourite is Notes from Underground.

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Now, I'm not understanding should i read - Humiliated and insulted ( which I'm only wanting to read because i heard nietzsche wept reading it), The Demons, The Adolescent, Netochka N, the Gambler, Village Spenachikavo. Or just your simple reaction regarding this books?

I'll request you to read this text whole. I'm in collage. 20 years old. But i have less experience and very underconfident. Feel afraid with trying something new. Also, skinny bodied and looking younger than age. I've been dealing with these for almost all of my life. But in collage this became already too much regarding how far ahead everyone is of me. I've been an introvert all my life. I didn't approach people that even could be similar minded and spent a long time absolutely in isolation for a few months. I had a very small but still connection always - like my parents, siblings, friends unlike college. But now, I'm trying to make connections in which luckily I'm progressing until limerance came and made everything more distressing.

Basically, in the end of the lonely months in collage, i met a girl ; same like me looks younger, cute and a tomboy type of girl. Like literally once in a lifetime you see this type of girl. Unlike me she was very smart and confident. We also shared same interests like politics, cinema, literature. While i first saw her, i was like 'wow, she's the coolest person I've ever seen'. I barely talked with her that time. But i was so mesmerized by her. Then, for a couple of days i thought i need to be friends her (absolutely not in a romantic way). But then, from the third day things started to get change. I started daydreaming and fell in love with her instantly. It was a prize and punishment together. But even in all these days i didn't met her. Then, after 2 weeks i found that she have a partner. I was absolutely broken. I cried for the first time in a long time. Trust me, it wasn't like the 'crush is just a lack of information '. I've been absolutely sane throughout this whole time but she is absolutely different and unique. Now, it's been more than 3 months. We barely meet. But just because i love her I didn't stick around with her at all. I'm living absolutely normal life like any other time and communicating with her like generally 'a not so close' friend would ; same as her. We are in a same club and some groups so we meet maybe 2-3 times a week. But we both treat each other like very normal friend. But for this 3 months I'm dying inside. I always thought all these heartbreak are just hormones and nothing. But now i realise how painful is this. I know i might sound dramatic, but it's the most painful feeling I've EVER felt; even more than the time my brother died. (Weirdly, Between this months , i had a sudden pause in this limerance. I was in peace. But only after a couple of days this started to happen again which is still going.) As I'm becoming a part of that friend circle, we are communicating more than before. And no ones understanding it but my situation is bad as before. Now I don't know what can i do in this situation. Can't get out of the circle because they are the only friends i have here.

And not only that, after having crush on her, my sexual urge has badly declined. Trust me in this whole time i haven't thought any sexual feeling for her. It's not that I didn't fantasize sexual videos and etc but nothing happens with past intensity. I also have lost my interest on more feminine women. I don't know but it feels like my unconscious is treating them like inferior.(I'm sorry But I'm not being disrespectful. It's just how the problem is. I don't objectify women and not a porn addict).

I had suicidal thoughts a lot and feels like I'll never be able to love or being loved by anyone.

I'll request you to read this text whole. I'm in collage. 20 years old. But i have less experience and very underconfident. Feel afraid with trying something new. Also, skinny bodied and looking younger than age. I've been dealing with these for almost all of my life. But in collage this became already too much regarding how far ahead everyone is of me. I've been an introvert all my life. I didn't approach people that even could be similar minded and spent a long time absolutely in isolation for a few months. I had a very small but still connection always - like my parents, siblings, friends unlike college. But now, I'm trying to make connections in which luckily I'm progressing until limerance came and made everything more distressing.

Basically, in the end of the lonely months in collage, i met a girl ; same like me looks younger, cute and a tomboy type of girl. Like literally once in a lifetime you see this type of girl. Unlike me she was very smart and confident. We also shared same interests like politics, cinema, literature. While i first saw her, i was like 'wow, she's the coolest person I've ever seen'. I barely talked with her that time. But i was so mesmerized by her. Then, for a couple of days i thought i need to be friends her (absolutely not in a romantic way). But then, from the third day things started to get change. I started daydreaming and fell in love with her instantly. It was a prize and punishment together. But even in all these days i didn't met her. Then, after 2 weeks i found that she have a partner. I was absolutely broken. I cried for the first time in a long time. Trust me, it wasn't like the 'crush is just a lack of information '. I've been absolutely sane throughout this whole time but she is absolutely different and unique. Now, it's been more than 3 months. We barely meet. But just because i love her I didn't stick around with her at all. I'm living absolutely normal life like any other time and communicating with her like generally 'a not so close' friend would ; same as her. We are in a same club and some groups so we meet maybe 2-3 times a week. But we both treat each other like very normal friend. But for this 3 months I'm dying inside. I always thought all these heartbreak are just hormones and nothing. But now i realise how painful is this. I know i might sound dramatic, but it's the most painful feeling I've EVER felt; even more than the time my brother died. (Weirdly, Between this months , i had a sudden pause in this limerance. I was in peace. But only after a couple of days this started to happen again which is still going.) As I'm becoming a part of that friend circle, we are communicating more than before. And no ones understanding it but my situation is bad as before. Now I don't know what can i do in this situation. Can't get out of the circle because they are the only friends i have here.

And not only that, after having crush on her, my sexual urge has badly declined. Trust me in this whole time i haven't thought any sexual feeling for her. It's not that I didn't fantasize sexual videos and etc but nothing happens with past intensity. I also have lost my interest on more feminine women. I don't know but it feels like my unconscious is treating them like inferior.(I'm sorry But I'm not being disrespectful. It's just how the problem is. I don't objectify women and not a porn addict).

I had suicidal thoughts a lot and feels like I'll never be able to love or being loved by anyone.

By now, I've read 3 of Dostoevsky's 5 major works. These are - Notes, C&P, Karamazov. Finished the karamazov brothers a month before. My reaction regarding this isn't disappointing but also not as satisfying as i thought it would be.

I know many people here are gonna tell me that ' Dostoevsky is philosophical and you may haven't understand those'. But these isn't the issue. I actually liked specifically the philosophical parts in this book but not slow paced narration of story in many parts.

Basically if i divide this book in 5 parts (not like as in the books but personally), then -

part 1 is basically unique background of karamazov family, which i liked and was necessary for building up the whole book.

Part 2 was the BEST part where we see the chapters chapters like The Great Inquisitor and Father Zosima's monologue and Ivan and alyoshas conversations.

Part 3 - or the Mokreyet part was some of the most boring part in literature I've ever read. It took me 2 weeks to go through, almost same as the rest of the book combined. 200 pages of Dmitri gambling and drinking, grushenka and the polish people doing dramas and nothing. As Dostoevsky flatly narrates it without any distinct style, it was absolutely boring to read.

Part 4 - oh man! Great existential thriller part. Felt so modern! Absolutely ahead of it's time.

Part 5 - courtroom. Some of it was great and some wasn't.

So, I'd still stick with Notes from Underground as my favourite.

I'll request you to read this text whole. I'm in collage. 20 years old. But i have less experience and very underconfident. Feel afraid with trying something new. Also, skinny bodied and looking younger than age. I've been dealing with these for almost all of my life. But in collage this became already too much regarding how far ahead everyone is of me. I've been an introvert all my life. I didn't approach people that even could be similar minded and spent a long time absolutely in isolation for a few months. I had a very small but still connection always - like my parents, siblings, friends unlike college. But now, I'm trying to make connections in which luckily I'm progressing until limerance came and made everything more distressing.

Basically, in the end of the lonely months in collage, i met a girl ; same like me looks younger, cute and a tomboy type of girl. Like literally once in a lifetime you see this type of girl. Unlike me she was very smart and confident. We also shared same interests like politics, cinema, literature. While i first saw her, i was like 'wow, she's the coolest person I've ever seen'. I barely talked with her that time. But i was so mesmerized by her. Then, for a couple of days i thought i need to be friends her (absolutely not in a romantic way). But then, from the third day things started to get change. I started daydreaming and fell in love with her instantly. It was a prize and punishment together. But even in all these days i didn't met her. Then, after 2 weeks i found that she have a partner. I was absolutely broken. I cried for the first time in a long time. Trust me, it wasn't like the 'crush is just a lack of information '. I've been absolutely sane throughout this whole time but she is absolutely different and unique. Now, it's been more than 3 months. We barely meet. But just because i love her I didn't stick around with her at all. I'm living absolutely normal life like any other time and communicating with her like generally 'a not so close' friend would ; same as her. We are in a same club and some groups so we meet maybe 2-3 times a week. But we both treat each other like very normal friend. But for this 3 months I'm dying inside. I always thought all these heartbreak are just hormones and nothing. But now i realise how painful is this. I know i might sound dramatic, but it's the most painful feeling I've EVER felt; even more than the time my brother died. (Weirdly, Between this months , i had a sudden pause in this limerance. I was in peace. But only after a couple of days this started to happen again which is still going.) As I'm becoming a part of that friend circle, we are communicating more than before. And no ones understanding it but my situation is bad as before. Now I don't know what can i do in this situation. Can't get out of the circle because they are the only friends i have here.

And not only that, after having crush on her, my sexual urge has badly declined. Trust me in this whole time i haven't thought any sexual feeling for her. It's not that I didn't fantasize sexual videos and etc but nothing happens with past intensity. I also have lost my interest on more feminine women. I don't know but it feels like my unconscious is treating them like inferior.(I'm sorry But I'm not being disrespectful. It's just how the problem is. I don't objectify women and not a porn addict).

I had suicidal thoughts a lot and feels like I'll never be able to love or being loved by anyone.

I'll request you to read this text whole. So you understand it pretty well.

I'm in collage. In my early 20s. But i have less experience and very underconfident. Feel afraid with trying something new. Also, kinda skinny bodied and looking younger than age. I've been dealing with these for almost all of my life. But in collage this became already too much regarding how far ahead everyone is of me. And include in slight body shaming.

I've been an introvert all my life. Have very small connection. But in collage i suffered for it more. I didn't approach people that even could be similar minded with me and spent a long time absolutely in isolation for a frmew months. I had a very small but still connection always - like my parents, siblings, friends unlike college. But now, I'm trying to make connections in which luckily I'm progressing, but then came limerance. Which made everything more distressing.

Basically, it happened almost end of the lonely months in collage. There i met a girl ; same like me looks younger and very cute and a tomboy type of girl. Like literally once in a lifetime you see this type of girl. Unlike me she was very smart and confident. We also shared same interests like politics, cinema, music literature etc. While i first saw her, i was like 'wow, she's the coolest person I've ever seen'. I met her through one of my friends. I barely talked with her that time. But i was so mesmerized by her. Then, for a couple of days i thought i need to be friends her (absolutely not in a romantic way). But then, from the third day things started to get change. I started daydreaming and fell in love with her instantly. It was a prize and punishment together. But even in all these days i didn't met her. Then, after 2 weeks i found that she have a partner. I was absolutely broken. I cried for the first time in a long time. Trust me, it wasn't like the 'crush is just a lack of information '. I've been absolutely sane throughout this whole time but she is absolutely different and unique. Now, it's been more than 3 months. We barely meet. But just because i love her I didn't stick around with her at all. I'm living absolutely normal life like any other time. In one sense, I'm communicating with her like generally 'a not so close' friend would ; same as her. We are in a same club and some groups so we meet maybe 2-3 times a week. But we both treat each other like very normal friend. But for this 3 months I'm just dying inside. It's my first crush. I always thought all these heartbreak are just hormones and nothing. But now i realise how painful is this. I know i might sound dramatic, but it's the most painful feeling I've ever felt; even more than the time my brother died when i was 8. (Weirdly, Between this months , i had a sudden pause in this limerance. I was in peace. But only after a couple of days this started to happen again which is still going.) As I'm becoming a part of that friend circle more and more, we are communicating more than before. And now she isn't understanding it but my situation is bad as before. Now I don't know what can i do in this situation. Getting out of that circle is not an option because they are the only friends i have here.

And not only that, after having crush on her, my sexual urge has badly declined. Trust me in this whole time i haven't thought any sexual feeling for her. It's not that I didn't masterbate or fantasize sexual videos or reels. But even these don't happening with that intensity. I also have lost my interest on more feminine women. I don't know but it feels like my unconscious is treating them like inferior.(I'm sorry But I'm not being disrespectful here. It's just how the problem is. I don't objectify women and not a porn addict).

It feels like I'll never be able to love or being loved by anyone. My mind is making constant rules for myself. I'm fucked.

1. Value, Price and Profit

2. The critique of political economy

3. Germen Ideology (M + E)

4. Origin of family, private property and state (E)

5. Anti Duhring (E)

6. Socialism: Utopian and scientific (E)

7. Economic and political manuscripts 1844

8. On the Jewish question

9. Gotha programme

10. Thesis on Feuerbach

11. 18th brumaire of Louise Bonaparte

12. Poverty of Philosophy

13. Contribution Critique of Hegel's philosophy of the right

14. Das Kapita

15. Grundrisse

I have read manifesto, principals, wage labour and capital. As this list is too long that I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to finish it, is there any titles here which can be avoided or have almost same contents? Or something which i should add to the list?

I'm from a third world country. In our here leftists and liberals are widely thought to be same. I knew there were differences. But even in leftist and liberal societies often work together here. Yes, there are criticism in our leftist circle too about the liberals but these aren't nearly as much as i see on Reddit. I have some questions regarding this scenario -

1. In Which side liberals are situated politically ? Left or right?

2. As many ideas of liberalism match (obviously not economical ideas) with marxism like secularism, gender equality, internationalism, lgbt rights, anti racism, equality in justice; why leftists dislike them so much?

I'm personally new in metal. I like thrash a lot. But for some reason I never enjoyed death metal. I tried death recently with SOP and my goodness i just loved it. Same happened with Symbolic. But i didn't enjoy their other albums at all. Tried spiritual healing and Human but didn't work. I've tried laprosy twice but it didn't hit me. ITP was ok. Can anyone explain me what's the reason? Based on my taste what do you think should i try? Not only in death but other metals too.

Also, Can i go straight into Lenin's State and Revolution without reading anything?