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I want to preface this by saying I’m not looking for comments telling me to go to therapy. I’ve been in therapy my whole life.

Does anyone feel like they’re constantly having to accept that they’re a woman? I am inherently uncomfortable with being a woman. My breasts which although they’re A cups, whenever they swell due to PMS I feel uncomfortable in my skin. Things like my legs, thighs and butt that look kind of feminine make me sad.

I am tall and boyish and I workout a lot. But, my body will never be how I’d like it to be.

When I’m on my period I feel uncomfortable as well. But it’s in a way where I feel nauseous that I have eggs and a uterus and I’m the type of human that has to bleed and can be bred.

I think the societal aspect plays a large part as well. I wish women were as physically strong as men because we wouldn’t be as subjected to abuse and intimidation by them. I also hate being viewed as an object. I hate how it seems that my looks are the only worthwhile thing about me. I hate that because I’m not necessarily the best looking so it’s like I’m essentially worthless in this patriarchy.

I just overall struggle with being a woman. I feel different and strange and uncomfortable in my body. There’s some disconnect from other women as well. Is this just me? I can never tell if there’s something off with me or this is just part of my personality/ the way my brain works.

I desperately want to like how I look so I’m always trying to strive for that. For me it’s tattoos and working out

I just watched a birth vlog of a young couple who are very close. The woman’s partner was extremely in tune with her, speaking life into her, taking care of her and remaining fully present the whole time.

I’m sitting here crying because I truly feel that I’ll never be loved like this. It’s like an intuitive knowing that I haven’t and will never have someone care about me like this and I feel like I’m grieving because of it.

I’m usually very strong and bury emotions like these, refusing to be affected by my lack but this video brought my feelings to the surface.

At my core I feel worthless, neglected, unlovable. This is what my experience in life has felt like. I love myself and take care of myself, but every once in a while I question when someone else will love me.

It always comes back to there being something wrong with me and that’s why I don’t have XYZ..
I’ve tried to bend myself every which way and no matter what form I take it’s never good enough for someone to cherish me.

It was 2023, I was in the passenger seat of my ex boyfriend’s Toyota Tacoma driving through south Austin. We always listened to KUTX, NPRs music station in his truck. Quarry came on and we both looked at each other like “damn this is good”. I Shazamed the song and abused the fuck out of Rat Saw God and I’ve been hooked ever since.

So for the majority of my adult life I haven’t really shaved my stache. I have gotten comments about it every once in a while so I learned how to thread recently and started doing that.

The only thing I dislike is how fast the hairs grow back. I guess before I started threading I didn’t notice but now I’m realizing I have to thread like every 3 weeks or so and it feels like a chore.

What is y’all’s relationship with your stache like? I’ve always had some discoloration in my stache area too because I’m darker skinned and it’s a big insecurity of mine

Try to stay in contact with people who can be of use even if you don’t necessarily like them.

I have a friend who I despise. There’s nothing about her personality that’s likeable. She’s selfish, rude and arrogant.. BUT she’s extremely skilled at fixing/building things, has knowledge of programming, coding and a garage full of tools. Despite disliking her I maintain our connection just enough to use her as a resource.

I try to think of people as tools. I’m actively looking for friendships with people who have specific skills that can benefit me. Example: I have a friend who is a mechanical genius and can help me with anything related to my car.

I also kinda do something similar with authority figures/ people who can positively or negatively impact my wellbeing like at work. If I can tell someone is attracted to me I’ll be kind/flirty in order to receive special treatment/ consideration. (This doesn’t include sleeping with them but maintaining a playful attentive attitude towards them)