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Tonights episode of pure boredom lead me to create peak, what can I say ✨

Hii! don’t know if I’ve posted here before, but if I haven’t, hello!! I’m Opal, this is my boyfriend Ronin (from the visual novel Killer Chat). I post about my other F/O’s in r/yumeshipping sub sometimes but I don’t know if I’m allowed to post about ronin there since he’s a serial killer 😞

He's so scrumptious

And also very shark-coded

🦈🩺

Drew my top 3 highest kins :)

WHY ARE THEY ALL FROM BSD

I'M CURSED /silly

IM SLEEP DEPRIVED AND BORED I HAVE THE RIGHT TO DRAW MUSCULAR MEN IF I FEEL LIKE IT :P

I had a hunch about Clown, turns out I was right. Ticket Taker has been in the dungeon for a while since I’m not allowed to play TFC yet, but I’m fairly certain it’s a kinfirm. and I THOUGHT I might be an OC from Gokurakugai but i was wrong, shifted yesterday, I’m kinfirming Alma. goddamn it I gotta update my pronouns cc again -__-

NEW SIGNOFFS:

Alma -🍜🩸

Ticket Taker -🎟️🎪

Clown -🩵📖

I CONVINCED MY PARENTS TO GET TICKETS FOR ME AND A FRIEND, THERE IS TOO MUCH JOY RN 😭😭✨✨🏳️‍🌈

yippee! much joys :] also behold the bookmarks I made of me and my source mates

(EDIT I JUST NOTICED THE SPIDER ON PIANOMAN IM GONNA LOCATE IT AND MURDER IT)

My big ahh chuuya plush making a celebrity guest appearance today I guess lmao also yes I stole his hat cry about it

WHATEVER THATS NOT THE POINT (also he is pretty neat if I do say so mysel)

I miss this stupid idiot. so much. every bone in my stupid gay little body aches right now (only partially Chuuya related, otherwise disability related) and I don’t know what to dooo.

What do you mean I miss him and I want to kiss his stupid face but also punch him but like in a violently affectionate way. I stabbed him bro he probably fucking HATES me but oh well, that’s my own fault isnt it. I don’t got a right to bitch and complain about it.

whatever, sorry for ranting AGAIN I’ve been doing this a lot recently. just got a lot of shit to scream about and nobody irl that gives a shit enough to listen (or even knows abt all this BS).

you guys are fucking awesome btw. and I know all about being awesome so this is coming from a professional. okay I’m gonna go cry now cya freaks.

-🔪🐏

SO!! I started this INCREDIBLE manga series the other day, and I've been getting memories from the universe, but nothing that I can pin on or relate to any of the canon characters so far. I have memories of the Maga but I know I'm not one, I have memories of some of the Saragi but none of their main base, only the Troubleshooters business location, and again very few, so I doubt I'm one of them. LOTS of memories of Alma but they're not AS him. Plus I'm not looking at any of the characters and thinking they're ME, not like I did with my other kins when I was kinsidering and how I do now.

Is it even possible to kin an OC that doesn't even exist yet???? Help-

(also everyone go read Gokurakugai right now it's so peak trust me)

Soooo my period just started, yippee it’s monthly Transmasc suffering time 🫩🫩 ANYWAYS FUCK YOU MEAN THIS IS A TRIGGER FOR SHIRASE SHIFTS? NOW IM GONNA BE EVEN MORE FUCKIN DRAMATIC ABT THIS 😭 trans Shirase confirmed I guess?? y’know yeah that checks out 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈💔 anyways sorry for the mild tweaking out I’m FINE I promise (this is a big fat lie)

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They look so silly I love them, not a thought going on as soon as they get in that pose. stupid honse ❤️

Just downloaded this fun silly visual novel game, Monster X Mediator, I would highly recommend it's very fun and very silly (WARNING FOR GORE AND VIOLENCE THOUGH SO BE CAREFUL Y'ALL). You can't interact with this silly goose until day four but once I did I just knew. Kind of. Probably. Whelp, welcome to the kinsider dungeon, Clown, have fun.

Just wanted to share some photos I took on a recent visit to Melbourne Museum, their Triceratops is incredible

(Original on second slide)

I'm glad the silly sketches I did on a whim became a whole ass competition lmao, I decided to redraw the sketch I did of my highest kin for this contest :) Crackers looks so much better this time around :D I'm really bad at drawing birds

(All artworks used in the above photos are created by me, the hat is mine as well)

TW for mention of attempted murder, self hatred, and just general crippling sadness

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I didn't expect it to feel like this. I don't know what I expected, really, but it wasn't this. Not this empty, crushing guilt that seems to be eating me alive.

I don't know what is wrong with me. I've been sitting here for the last hour feeling like I could burst into tears at any moment, but nothing is coming out. It's like I'm incapable of showing the world how fucking sorry I am. I would call myself a miserable excuse for a human being, but that would imply I am one. I've never been human, I don't deserve to be treated as such after everything I did. So why did you treat me like one, Arthur?

Fuck, I miss him. I miss him so fucking much and I don't know how to cope with it anymore. I have no recollection of myself, I do not remember my own face. But I remember his. I remember every fucking detail. He was the only person who ever treated me like I wasn't broken, like I deserved to be loved. And I shot him. I shot him, and I threw it all away. He lost his memories because of me, he suffered because of me, he died in a foreign land where he had no home because of me. And all he ever wanted to do was make me feel human too. I took that for granted, and I'm so fucking sorry, but I can't tell him that anymore, because he's gone, and I'm stuck here in this wretched vessel of flesh instead of in the arms of the man I loved and didn't have the heart to tell.

So now I'm sitting here on my bed with my stupid fucking hat his hat, fuck and I can feel myself breaking but I can't do a fucking thing about it. I should stop listening to Mitski it's just making it worse.

I'm sorry for yapping so much, I know I sound absolutely pathetic right now. I should be better than this. I would throw away everything just to see him one more time. I'm sorry, Arthur. I should have been better to you.

Fuck, I really hope this shift ends soon.

- 🎩❤️

Drawings of myself!! Found silly outfits on pinterest and decided, y'know what? Fuck it. Art time. Again.

Third one isn't my kin it's my friends, u/expiredd_choxx you're very fun to draw and you look rly good in red (pretend I never said this)

*rotates slowly like a metal can in a microwave*

yo u/expired_choxx where u at diva 👀

I drew all my kins with Crackers!! Shhhh I suck at drawing birds lmao