u/OkCommand4954

1.LONG+HEALTHY HAIR - balding at 16 is fucking disgusting and also the hair fall aswell as the hair looking and feeling like hay no matter what is horrible. 2.being able to maintain friendships and relationships - your eating disorder makes you insufferable and ruins any relations with anyone 3.GOOD SKIN - it makes your skin breakout due to hormonal imbalances whilst also being dry af and its horrible 4.not be flat - looking like a prepubescent child is not pretty 5.fix anemia - anemia feels horrible because you want to sleep all the time and on the verge of passing out all the time, it also makes you pale and gives you INSANE dark circles 6.food freedom- dont miss out on occasions or memories and be able to eat whatever you want when you want it without a second thought and be able to have fun 7.get period back-so you dont become infertile and be able to have kids in the future 8.get a libido back 9.have pretty nails-nails that dont break or have them ugly white spots and ridges from nutrient deficiencies 10.dont feel the pain of lax abuse ever again+dont be on the verge of shitting yourself in public/actually shitting yourself again 11.better bowel control so you don't piss yourself 12. Dont have ROTTING and MOLDY food in your room from hiding it/ food hoarding 13.fun drinks at coffee shops(especially in summer) 14.dont have the personality of a door 15.better teeth-eroding teeth and gums aswell as teeth turning clear is horrible and painful 16.can find clothes-harder to find clothes when underweight 17.look good in dresses+skirts -dresses and skirts when underweight make you look like a door 18.get a tan instead of being very pale 19. Get rid of disgusting purple hands from heart failure and never have to hide them again from embarrassment 20.dont be freezing 21.better memory 22.dont have disgusting bags of vomit or food you chew and spat out in your room

When youre younger its easier because you have time to be ill, but then as you get older its more difficult because you need to maintain school, job, relationships etc. Im struggling to simply get on with day to day life because i need to maintain college,a relationship,family life and need to get and then also maintain a job

Someone's recovery triggered me. Im in​ recovery and i saw a content creator who showed their weight restored body. This usually isnt a trigger for me, but me and that creator have the EXACT same body type/bone structure and i don't want to end up looking like them after their full weightrestoration. I looked like that before all the weight loss aswell and i am terrified of ending up like that even though they aren't overweight. Like i looked exactly like they currently do at some point in time. I feel so bad for saying this but i really don't want to look like that even though its literally a healthy body. ​

Someone's recovery triggered me. Im in​ recovery and i saw a content creator who showed their weight restored body. This usually isnt a trigger for me, but me and that creator have the EXACT same body type/bone structure and i don't want to end up looking like them after their full weightrestoration. I looked like that before all the weight loss aswell and i am terrified of ending up like that even though they aren't overweight. Like i looked exactly like they currently do at some point in time. I feel so bad for saying this but i really don't want to look like that even though its literally a healthy body. ​

Someone's recovery triggered me. Im in​ recovery and i saw a content creator who showed their weight restored body. This usually isnt a trigger for me, but me and that creator have the EXACT same body type/bone structure and i don't want to end up looking like them after their full weightrestoration. I looked like that before all the weight loss aswell and i am terrified of ending up like that even though they aren't overweight. Like i looked exactly like they currently do at some point in time. I feel so bad for saying this but i really don't want to look like that even though its literally a healthy body. ​

I cant tell if my anorexia has gotten better or worse cuz last year i cut out protein because i believed any protein would make me gain muscle and id look look a bodybuilder (stupid i know but eds dont run on logic) but now im trying to get as much protein as possible and am obsessed with protein and getting protein as high as possible with calories as low as possible. I can't tell if its good since its better for me as im getting protein or bad since im obsessing and controlling​ yet another thing/number

It happened 2days ago and my face is red and my cheeks and nose is covered in blisters and one of them popped sp i put a big layer of salvon antiseptic cream. Ive been using sudocrem and aloe vera lotion RELIGIOUSLY . Im panicking because ive got my first day on college on the 1st of july and prom on the 10th july ,i want to get it healed as quick as possible or atleast as much as possible so i look normal and not scar

My surgery was over 6 months ago so my muscles and stuff should have adjusted to their new position and also its not due to my spine because i quite literally have no curve in it at all now, but my hips still arent fully even and i don't understand why​​​

My mum is slavic, im polish. In Slavic countries this type of behavior and remarks towards others appearance or what they are doing are very normal and people are very critica/judgemental/harsh in slavic countries and if you don't like it thats your problem and fault for being sensitive, in eastern Europe peopleahave a harsh mindset and thats very normal(myself included)

I developed an ed when i was 12,im currently 16 and i look pre pubescent to a significant degree.ive tried recovery before but even then i gained weight but was still very flat so just looked like a blob. It feels​ horrible compared to the other girls my age. it very much feels like ive made my bed so now i have to lay in it so now i just have to stay this way because even if i gain weight/recover i feel like ive already messed up puberty and everything and i won't catch up with development so theres no point​​

Bit of a wierd question but i need to knowwww. I have a T4-L3 fusion and im pretty flat anyway which dont help​ my case but i swear i got no moves cuz of my fusion, help a girl out.

On birthdays or anytime in general i never finished a slice of cake, always nibbled on it and left the rest but it was my brothers gfs birthday and i actually finished a slice , pretty proud of myself

I have a restrictive ed and am a pretty low weight, is it wierd that i eat in private? Like in school i will secretly eat alone, lock myself in a classroom so my friends don't know im eating before going to them because i feel they will judge me and at home too, eat and make sure no one knows. Like logically iknowi starving makes people worry and they WANT me to eat, but the idea of eating feels so shameful and embarrassing and i feel people judge me and that i dont live up to the expectations of having an ed

I feel so greedy, i hoard ALOT of food that i dont even eat. Unopened boxes of cereal,bags of sweets and food in general. I feel my reasoning for it is so selfish because the main reason i do it is because it hurts to see people (eg family) eat stuff that i adore but know i cant have so i steal food so no one else can have it and its with me just for it to lay in my room unopened. I do it KNOWING its pointless because it wont be eaten but i cant help myself, im so protective over it and dont want anyone else to eat it despite​​ me not eating it

I have such paranoia eating anything because im terrified that the numbers on the back are lying to me and its alot more than it says,my mind just convinces me of it so it makes me eat less simply because im scared​