For context our house was made in the 1990s, and our electricity wire being struck down or hit by a truck has never occured. I think masyadong malapit sa our side of the street dumaan ang truck kaya nahagip talaga niya ang mga wire namin. Our electricity has been repaired, pero ang internet ay bukas pa makakabit ulit.

I think we will have to replace the electric wire ulit kasi sobrang konti nalang ang natira, I wouldn't trust it's performance din lalo na at both sides siya nasira ng truck (sa meter namin at sa electric pole).

Ang tanong ko, may habol ba kami? Okay sana if nandun sila at nag assist ng damages, pero wala ehh, nag try pa tumakas.

I have thousands of scenarios in my head of circumstances I am ready for in case they come up.

But give me a question I have never remotely thought of then I would either freeze up or confidently come up with the most cringe bullshit possible 😬😬.

😣😩I want to either restart the day or curl up in a ball and hibernate for 2 whole weeks 😬😭😭

First it was that clients can't message our pages sometimes., that bug is still not fixed.
Ban aid Fix? We have to ask them to make a comment on one of our posts so we can message them first.

Next is the slow as fuck switching from our main Facebook Accounts to the Pages in the Messenger App.
Ban aid Fix? Carry multiple devices.

NOW WE CANNOT SEND MESSAGES TO SOME CLIENTS IN BUSINESS.FACEBOOK?!?

What do you want us to do now? Always go to our phones just to talk to clients.!? Pictures have to be sent to our main accounts, opened and saved on the phone, and then resent again using the app?!

Your Annual revenue is more than $200 billion for fucks sake, why is the platform you pushed to us still as buggy and shitty as this?!

Parang gusto ko pagpautang ng inverter refrigerators sa mga 4Ps beneficiaries.

I can acquire them for ~12k each, less pa if in bulk na.
Tapos ipapa utang ko 1,500 per month for 3 years.

Libre ang kuryente if they open the refrigerator as seldom as possible, tapos they utilize an icebox din.

Tapos need lang nila magbenta ng 17 ice per day to more than break even sa monthly payment. (pwede din maglako ng ice water or bottled water to get more income).

^(For context I am only talking about those who consume less than 15kWh per month on their electricity bills to get a big enough space to safely still be under 50kWh on their monthly bill. I can also include a) ^(power consumption limiter) ^(sa package ko to make sure na hindi talaga sila lalagpas.)

What do you think, is this a good idea? I'm prepared to acquire at least 15 units next week if walang major problem sa plan ko.

Earlier I was trying to remember something I did. I was convinced that it happened in 2024, but after some calculations it actually was in 2022.

Just like that I realized that the walls I built around me are like opaque lenses that blur reality and time from my perception. My indifference to the outside world may have stopped me from feeling cold, but that warmth also insulates me from what is happening around my life.

Truth be told I decided during the height of covid to just be an "observer" of this world. To stop trying. To stay here and just wait for the ending of one piece, overlord, jobless reincarnation, etc..

Lately I have realized most of my goals are not for me, but for my children if I would have any.>! Learning the basics for algebra, trig, history, philosophy, etc., learning foreign languages. The basic things to give my children an edge. But !<I digress, my main point is, that I have not really been living this life for myself these past few years.

I have been fine with that until earlier when I had this realization. 2020 feels like it was 3 years ago, 2022 feels like it was 2 years ago. My question is that, if I somehow reduce this numbness, this indifference, would the coldness come back?

I don't know what to do.