u/Pinchhu

So I recently switched Gujarati medium to English medium 2nd year of college 😭 nd my exams are going to start in 1 month but I am not able to study I have 4 theory sub and 2 accounts I don't understand where to start

I'm M18 overthinker and I need some peace in brain 🧠

I'm a college student, and I've been struggling with one-sided love for 4 months. She was my classmate, and we became friends. We used to talk mostly about college, assignments, and normal things. Over time, I developed feelings for her.

When I confessed, she rejected me politely. She said we always be friends and never misunderstanding again. She wanted to stay friends because she genuinely valued our friendship. I tried to accept that, but I couldn't. Every conversation gave me hope, and every dry reply made me overthink.

I explained her that staying friends was hurting me and that I needed distance to move on. Even after that, she texted me several times over the next few months just to check in or continue the friendship. I ignored some of her messages, replied late to others, and even tried acting cold, hoping she'd stop contacting me. But she seemed serious about keeping the friendship alive.

The problem is that every time she messages me, my feelings come back. Then I start imagining. I replay old conversations in my head for hours. I keep checking my phone, hoping she'll text, even though I know a relationship isn't going to happen.

I've tried staying busy with college, playing games, watching movies, reducing social media, and giving her space. Nothing has worked for long. I'm an overthinker, so my brain keeps creating "what if" scenarios all day.

I don't blame her because she was honest from the beginning, and I know she isn't responsible for my feelings. I just want to stop thinking about her and finally move on.

I tried everything watchs youtube video for solution, I tried ChatGPT,

I tried everything they told to improve yourself,go for walk,talk to new girls,don't check out her profile. Everything I tried for moving on but nothing happened 🙁 I don't wanna to live whole life with her memories.

I am an overthinker and I feel that I live only in the past or the future and I have spent very little time in the present. Expectations increase in everything, one may not want to find any shortcomings even if one has millions of shortcomings. This brain exhausts me, it takes away all my energy, it takes 1-2 hours to even fall asleep at night.

If human intelligence had never evolved, and we had remained like other animals such as chimpanzees or monkeys, the universe would still exist. The difference is that we probably wouldn't be asking questions about its existence.This is a bit sounds scary

So this makes me wonder: Does the universe need a purpose, or is the need for a purpose something created by the human mind?

I'm curious to hear different philosophical and scientific perspectives.

Why does this universe exist? The Big Bang blast occurred and after many trillions of years the Earth was formed and water meteors fell, then life was created. If our brains were not so efficient and we were monkeys or chimpanzees, then too this universe would exist, but why does it exist, why does it exist if it is of no use? This is all very scary.