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I’m feeling really confused about my spiritual path right now and would appreciate some respectful advice.

For about a year and a half, I’ve been venerating my ancestors, although I took a break for a while because I experienced psychosis and had to focus on my mental health. Even during that time, I still read Psalms, prayed to my ancestors, and recently set my ancestor altar back up so they have a space in my home again. I also still read playing cards since I have to keep my practice private from family and can’t openly keep tarot cards.

Before my psychotic episode, I felt very drawn to the 21 Divisions. I’m Caribbean, but my family is from Barbados rather than Puerto Rico or the Dominican Republic. I felt deeply connected to the saints and wanted to learn more, but during my episode my spirituality became mixed with religious delusions. I started believing things that were clearly not true, and looking back on it now, I know my mental state was affecting my beliefs and behavior. I genuinely hope the saints forgive me for the things I said or believed while I was unwell.

Now that time has passed and I’m in a more stable place, I want to carefully reconnect with spirituality in a healthier way. I’m interested in African traditional religions again, and I’m also curious about Obeah because of my Barbadian background. At the same time, I still feel strongly drawn to the saints and the lwa through the 21 Divisions.

What I’m struggling with is figuring out what path is actually right for me. Part of me worries that because of my psychotic episode, I somehow damaged my connection spiritually. Another part of me wonders if I should focus more on traditions connected to Barbados and my ancestry instead.

I already have a relationship with my ancestors, and I feel ready to start learning about a tradition more seriously, but I want to approach it responsibly and respectfully this time.

If anyone has advice, especially people experienced with ATRs, the 21 Divisions, or Caribbean spiritual traditions, I’d really appreciate it. Please just be kind regarding the psychosis aspect — I’m trying to navigate spirituality and mental health carefully and honestly.

I’m feeling really confused about my spiritual path right now and would appreciate some respectful advice.

For about a year and a half, I’ve been venerating my ancestors, although I took a break for a while because I experienced psychosis and had to focus on my mental health. Even during that time, I still read Psalms, prayed to my ancestors, and recently set my ancestor altar back up so they have a space in my home again. I also still read playing cards since I have to keep my practice private from family and can’t openly keep tarot cards.

Before my psychotic episode, I felt very drawn to the 21 Divisions. I’m Caribbean, but my family is from Barbados rather than Puerto Rico or the Dominican Republic. I felt deeply connected to the saints and wanted to learn more, but during my episode my spirituality became mixed with religious delusions. I started believing things that were clearly not true, and looking back on it now, I know my mental state was affecting my beliefs and behavior. I genuinely hope the saints forgive me for the things I said or believed while I was unwell.

Now that time has passed and I’m in a more stable place, I want to carefully reconnect with spirituality in a healthier way. I’m interested in African traditional religions again, and I’m also curious about Obeah because of my Barbadian background. At the same time, I still feel strongly drawn to the saints and the lwa through the 21 Divisions.

What I’m struggling with is figuring out what path is actually right for me. Part of me worries that because of my psychotic episode, I somehow damaged my connection spiritually. Another part of me wonders if I should focus more on traditions connected to Barbados and my ancestry instead.

I already have a relationship with my ancestors, and I feel ready to start learning about a tradition more seriously, but I want to approach it responsibly and respectfully this time.

If anyone has advice, especially people experienced with ATRs, the 21 Divisions, or Caribbean spiritual traditions, I’d really appreciate it. Please just be kind regarding the psychosis aspect — I’m trying to navigate spirituality and mental health carefully and honestly.

I’m feeling really confused about my spiritual path right now and would appreciate some respectful advice.

For about a year and a half, I’ve been venerating my ancestors, although I took a break for a while because I experienced psychosis and had to focus on my mental health. Even during that time, I still read Psalms, prayed to my ancestors, and recently set my ancestor altar back up so they have a space in my home again. I also still read playing cards since I have to keep my practice private from family and can’t openly keep tarot cards.

Before my psychotic episode, I felt very drawn to the 21 Divisions. I’m Caribbean, but my family is from Barbados rather than Puerto Rico or the Dominican Republic. I felt deeply connected to the saints and wanted to learn more, but during my episode my spirituality became mixed with religious delusions. I started believing things that were clearly not true, and looking back on it now, I know my mental state was affecting my beliefs and behavior. I genuinely hope the saints forgive me for the things I said or believed while I was unwell.

Now that time has passed and I’m in a more stable place, I want to carefully reconnect with spirituality in a healthier way. I’m interested in African traditional religions again, and I’m also curious about Obeah because of my Barbadian background. At the same time, I still feel strongly drawn to the saints and the lwa through the 21 Divisions.

What I’m struggling with is figuring out what path is actually right for me. Part of me worries that because of my psychotic episode, I somehow damaged my connection spiritually. Another part of me wonders if I should focus more on traditions connected to Barbados and my ancestry instead.

I already have a relationship with my ancestors, and I feel ready to start learning about a tradition more seriously, but I want to approach it responsibly and respectfully this time.

If anyone has advice, especially people experienced with ATRs, the 21 Divisions, or Caribbean spiritual traditions, I’d really appreciate it. Please just be kind regarding the psychosis aspect — I’m trying to navigate spirituality and mental health carefully and honestly.