Hi!! Im bored and tonight is the last night I can stay up til 3am because school started on Wednesday. A little bit about me- Im physically active and do lots of sports, I have lots of animals, I write poetry, I’m mentally ill (isn’t everyone?) andd Im really cool.
A fun fact about me: I cant STAND Taylor Swift or Ariana Grande.
Hi!! Im bored and tonight is the last night I can stay up til 3am because school started on Wednesday. A little bit about me- Im physically active and do lots of sports, I have lots of animals, I write poetry, I’m mentally ill (isn’t everyone?) andd Im really cool.
A fun fact about me: I cant STAND Taylor Swift or Ariana Grande.
Hi!! Im bored and tonight is the last night I can stay up til 3am because school started on Wednesday. A little bit about me- Im physically active and do lots of sports, I have lots of animals, I write poetry, I’m mentally ill (isn’t everyone?) andd Im really cool.
So a sad thing happened and I am very regretful. I bit my nails yesterday and was very sad, therefore I did not post. I also bit my nails today.
So In November my school has the privilege to be going to Washington DC to march in the parade. Im so fucking scared. We’ll be gone for 6 days. Im terrified something bad will happen and Im having really bad anxiety over it. Like, so bad Ive cried and I want to quit band before the trip. I know that realistically Ill be okay but I have so many “what if” questions going through my head and I have a panic attack every time I think about it. When it gets closer to time do you guys have any recommendations on things I can do to help me I guess calm my nerves?
Room IS smaller than this but this is how I currently have things
When I said Im going to post everyday until I no longer feel the urge to bite my nails.. I meant everyday.
When does it get less tempting though?
Story time in addition to the question because I just wanna brag about the progress we’ve made - This 4 year old horse in particular has had it rough when it comes to humans. We got her last year as a “broke” mare. We had test rode her and everything and there were 0 red flags from the seller. We got her home. She was not broke. In fact, she just seemed to hated people. She wasn’t mine originally so I had no control over her exercise or any of it. Her owner at the time was thrown 8 times within 2 months before she finally had enough and broke his back and kicked him. I dont blame her. But anyways, after that she had lost all her trust in humans. Became very skittish, nervous, fearful, and you could have even called her aggressive. For 3 months she wouldn’t let me pet her and would shy away whenever I would go near her. She would try to bite me whenever she was close enough. So I left her alone. Co-existed. Talked to her and held out treats to her (which she sometimes took) while I was on the other side of the fence with my other horse.. until eventually she really opened up. Her personality came through and she loves attention now. I don’t think Ill ever try to train her to ride. There aren’t any GOOD trainers nearby and Im not experienced enough to SAFELY train a horse as.. emotionally complex as her. But she really is so sweet. Whenever Im tacking my other horse up she puts her head over and nibbles on my hair or nudges my hand til I give her forehead scritches.. or I squish her nose. I do basic groundwork with her, take her on in-hand walks, groom her, and recently we’ve been working really hard on her holding feet up better for the farrier.
Its just these nose squishies… I dont understand why she likes it. Is she just.. odd? Or is there like some actual science behind it. Does anyone else have an oddball who insists on having their noses squished?
I’m bored, so give me a reason to be angry. Your worst stories, hit me with them.
I’m going to past everyday until I no longer have the urge to bite them.
Hi guys! Im very bored and would like to meet someone new. Short-term, long-term, anything is fine.
A little bit about me..
Im a sophomore in high school, I have lots of animals, Im in band and I play the clarinet and saxophone, and I do some sports! I play volleyball, I run track, I play tennis, and Im in cheer!
The only problem is the bays separation anxiety is horrible. Because she isn’t ridable I plan on ponying her eventually when Luna (palomino) is more confident when we’re out and about.
Stupid question I know. Just go up and say what I need to say. But if I’m being honest, he’s fucking terrifying and he’s so busy and stressed/irritated all the time.
I recently got my school issued clarinet but its broken. I need to go and tell him as I’ve been struggling to get any good sound out the whole week of band camp. I feel like every time I go up to him to ask a question or anything he just acts like its an inconvenience.
I know he doesn’t like me, I can tell by the way he talks to me and the looks he gives me, but I feel like I should be able to go up to him and talk to him without being scared he’s going to get unnecessarily grumpy.
So… like.. what do i say??? When do I go up to him? Please don’t tell me Im overthinking because I already know that.
It just feels like they’re so against me. They say they aren’t. Of course they say that, that is literally their job. Just like you could say their job is to build their child’s confidence up by saying they’re pretty or smart or whatever. It just feels like no matter what I do, even when I win an award at school and get a $1500 scholarship for being an overall good person; responsible, respectful, supportive, and diligent.. it was all about my siblings. They didn’t even go to the award ceremony or congratulate me.. they were all at my little brother’s baseball game. I didn’t even expect everyone to go. Just like.. one person being there for me would have made me happy.
Ive been going to public school my whole life, but my 4 other siblings have had the privilege to go to a really fancy private school. Which isn’t too big of a deal, I wouldn’t have wanted to go there, but its the fact that they didn’t even ask if I wanted to. They are always more willing to spend money on my siblings than on me. My sisters have a different swimsuit for every day of the month. My brothers have a new expensive lego set whenever they want. The DOGS get customized collars. My brothers get expensive clothes.
I get clothes from Goodwill. Which is fine, nothing wrong with goodwill. But they don’t have to get $5 clothes from Goodwill. They get new shit.
Now, my little brother is going to the high school with me due to the many opportunities he’ll be getting by going. Which is fine, I dont really mind that. Him going to the high school is not the problem. Its the fact that they FOUGHT to get him enrolled as a sophomore, my grade, and they have put him into all the honors and AP classes I am in, down to the same class periods, despite him not even being remotely close to ready for that. He doesn’t even know what the fucking periodic table is. He failed pre algebra but they expect him to pass algebra 2. He’s in AP English with me.. He’s never even written a full essay.
They have so much faith in him. They quite literally fought so he could get pushed up a grade. They always fight for my siblings. They’re always there for them emotionally. “Oh I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have yelled at you like that!” An actual quote from my mother after yelling at my sister for sitting on the other sisters neck. They dont even enforce the same rules they do for me. I am so jealous. I envy them. Ive always been the one that gets blamed for everything thats wrong. And then they wonder why Im so angry all the time.
Speaking of sisters!! Im more of a mom to them than her. I raised them starting from the time I was 8. I changed their diapers, fed them in the middle of the night, laid them down to sleep, held them when they cried, bathed them, I discipline them. Why am I parenting them?! I didn’t push them out!
They took my little siblings out of school FOR A WEEK when our great aunt died, but I wasn’t even informed she was dead til a month later. And its not because I didn’t ask. I asked about her everyday. Im not being dramatic like they say I am. But they make me feel so crazy. Im not the crazy one. But according to them, I am ALWAYS the problem. I yell too much, I’m too emotional, too sensitive, dumb, Im mean. I just fucking cant.
They can look me in the face and say I am a horrible person. And they have. Constantly.
I wouldn’t call it abuse. And I know others have it worse, I know Im lucky in some ways, it just gets to me sometimes because like.. I know something isnt right but I feel as if Im the only one who notices it or maybe Im just the only one brave enough to say something.
It just feels like they’re so against me. They say they aren’t. Of course they say that, that is literally their job. Just like you could say their job is to build their child’s confidence up by saying they’re pretty or smart or whatever. It just feels like no matter what I do, even when I win an award at school and get a $1500 scholarship for being an overall good person; responsible, respectful, supportive, and diligent.. it was all about my siblings. They didn’t even go to the award ceremony or congratulate me.. they were all at my little brother’s baseball game. I didn’t even expect everyone to go. Just like.. one person being there for me would have made me happy.
Ive been going to public school my whole life, but my 4 other siblings have had the privilege to go to a really fancy private school. Which isn’t too big of a deal, I wouldn’t have wanted to go there, but its the fact that they didn’t even ask if I wanted to. They are always more willing to spend money on my siblings than on me. My sisters have a different swimsuit for every day of the month. My brothers have a new expensive lego set whenever they want. The DOGS get customized collars. My brothers get expensive clothes.
I get clothes from Goodwill. Which is fine, nothing wrong with goodwill. But they don’t have to get $5 clothes from Goodwill. They get new shit.
Now, my little brother is going to the high school with me due to the many opportunities he’ll be getting by going. Which is fine, I dont really mind that. Him going to the high school is not the problem. Its the fact that they FOUGHT to get him enrolled as a sophomore, my grade, and they have put him into all the honors and AP classes I am in, down to the same class periods, despite him not even being remotely close to ready for that. He doesn’t even know what the fucking periodic table is. He failed pre algebra but they expect him to pass algebra 2. He’s in AP English with me.. He’s never even written a full essay.
They have so much faith in him. They quite literally fought so he could get pushed up a grade. They always fight for my siblings. They’re always there for them emotionally. “Oh I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have yelled at you like that!” An actual quote from my mother after yelling at my sister for sitting on the other sisters neck. They dont even enforce the same rules they do for me. I am so jealous. I envy them. Ive always been the one that gets blamed for everything thats wrong. And then they wonder why Im so angry all the time.
Speaking of sisters!! Im more of a mom to them than her. I raised them starting from the time I was 8. I changed their diapers, fed them in the middle of the night, laid them down to sleep, held them when they cried, bathed them, I discipline them. Why am I parenting them?! I didn’t push them out!
They took my little siblings out of school FOR A WEEK when our great aunt died, but I wasn’t even informed she was dead til a month later. And its not because I didn’t ask. I asked about her everyday. Im not being dramatic like they say I am. But they make me feel so crazy. Im not the crazy one. But according to them, I am ALWAYS the problem. I yell too much, I’m too emotional, too sensitive, dumb, Im mean. I just fucking cant.
They can look me in the face and say I am a horrible person. And they have. Constantly.
I wouldn’t call it abuse. And I know others have it worse, I know Im lucky in some ways, it just gets to me sometimes.
So check my profile for the explanation or here’s a link https://www.reddit.com/r/Periods/s/g9e85njCgz but um.. ig heres a better picture.
Wtf is happening? It’s alot more nasty when it’s not covered in blood.
So I didnt have a period for 6 months.. and then I got it and it was really light. It lasted around 12 days. 2-3 weeks later I start spotting and then I start lightly bleeding.. brown shit, I’m thinking whatever. That was a week ago and my discharge is like.. light pink and there’s stuff in what which I assume is just like the uterine tissue or whatever.
I guess my question is, what the hell is wrong with me.