Getting worse..? Or better?

So recently i have stopped cutting as much as i used to which is great, but the smallest things have started triggering me. This morning i turned the water heater on to take a shower but it was freezing cold after i waited 15 minutes and i crashed out so bad i started just absolutley beating the shit out of myself with the shower head?? like i dont understand why i had such a visceral reaction. this has been happening so much recently- maybe the wifi will be down for a while, or maybe the crowd is too loaud, the lights are too bright, i just get so annoyed and start tweaking and digging my nails so deep into my skin it leaves marks for hours, and scratches that make people ask if i have a pet. So i dont know if this is worse or better- ive not been cutting much at all, but ive been having horrible reactions to the absolute smallest things

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 16 hours ago

Help with my animatic :)

So im making a life series winners animatic with the song soldier poet king!! i was really suprised when i looked it up and saw that no one had done it already. so since there are 6 winners- grain,scott,pearl,martyn,scar,joel- and theres 3 main parts, "soldier" "poet" and "king" i need to put 2 people in each category.
so far i put joel and pearl in soldier, scar and scott in poet and grain and martyn in king. Im open to changing it with reasoning! also gimme some ideas of what scenes i can add in there :)

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 8 days ago

My personal ranking!

Saw some people doing this so i thought I'd do it too! This is in order from best to worst. (The order the players in count as well- so i believe that scott is the best.)

Obviously this is just my opinion and im curious to hear what your rankings are! Also, this may be inaccurate as there are a few players i havent seen much of (BigB, Etho, Tango, etc)

Oh and- my main POV is joel, but i have seen Gems, Jimmys, Pearls, Martyns, Lizzies, Grians, Scotts and Rens.

I will provide my reasoning for each of them if you want- and i ranked them based of overall skill. (This inculdes PVP skills, overall series rankings, Plot relavence and charisma.)

edit: just to avoid misinterpretations, by "charisma" i meant how well they are able to ally with people! for example, while i have ranked skizz at C, his charisma is amazing- he is always able to motivate his allies :) And another example- Joel (despite being in S, lmao, and my favorite) dosent have as good charisma. he almost always makes sworn enemies and holds grudges, which leads to his downfall alot of the time.)

u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 11 days ago

Just started AOT with my parents and they clocked SO MUCH.

I Finished AOT after the final part was released, idk how many years its been- but i recently convinced my mom and her bf to watch it with me! we watched 3 episodes and they clocked the story SO FAST. First off, they guessed that armin was the narrator. secondly, you guys know the little flashback eren has of his dad trying to inject him with the titan fluid? THEY GUESSED THAT IT MADE EREN A TITAN?? When they saw that scene, they went "Will that injection his father gave him make him a titan?" THATS SUCH A CRAZY THING TO CLOCK OMG.

And they were also sus of reiner and beeotoroelfor because in one scene tehy asked armin and eren "how did you get the courage to join the scouts if you've seen them straight up?" and my mom was like "these two guys are suspicious because they asked that- didnt they also see titans?" (because in one of beeotoroelfor's fake flashbacks, he claims to have opend his window to a titan)
Its so crazy how much they just.. guessed??

they also guessed mikasas backstory because when she, eren and hannes were running from the titans, she gets a flashback to her parents death, and my mom guessed that when she was smaller her parents died and erens family took her in.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 19 days ago

Whos the best perspective for Past Life?

I usually watch joels perspective which is always nice, fun and chaotic as hes always upto some weird stuff. I have also watched all the winners POVS in their respective seasons, except past life- because ive already seem martyns POV in limited, i wanted to try someone elses. I still would like someone who ranked relativley high, had great moments, and was somewhat involved/allied/teamed up with joel cuz i just love the guy

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 23 days ago

Bad boys bad boys watchu gonna do?!

All ive been drawing recently is just life series ngl and limited life was my fav season and i love bad boys so HERE WE AREEE

u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 28 days ago
▲ 294 r/LifeSeriesSMP+1 crossposts

LIFE SERIES PEOPLES IN MY STYLE!!!

I gave the winners crowns! i gave joel and scott a sparkle to signify that they won the specials as well, gave martyn two sparkles to signify that he won two full seasons, and cleo got a mini crown because she only won a special! Whos your favorite? I think mine has to be grian :D I also tried my best to make them interact with someone, i think they all make sense but i couldnt think of anything for tango and mumbo so i just made them look at eachother lol. I also gave joel a wedding ring because i love jizzie <3 AND ALSO BOAT BOYS!!

u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 29 days ago
▲ 102 r/DDLC

Drew Natsuri chatting about manga and novels during club time :p

Suprisingly didnt take me that much time but the lighting was difficult. I had fun drawing them tho :D

u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 1 month ago

Zombie stage fanart!

I sort of feel really bad for portraying Mizi in such a sexual way, but i wanted to show how mizi really isnt aware of whats going on and will do anything to please the fans who fetishize her and sua, while sua is just happy to be with mizi. I also feel like i drew her boobs weird but oh well

u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 1 month ago
▲ 61 r/DDLC

What jobs and college majors would the Dokis have?

If the dokis were to go to college and get a job, what majors and jobs would they have?? this seems like a fun question!!
here are my opinions!

Monika: journalism fits her for some reason? i feel like she wouldnt go into politics because in the game she said she didnt like debate club because of its politics.

Yuri: English literature degree, an author. only acceptable answer. maybe a librarian as a side gig too... i can also see her as an editor or critic for books rather than an author too.

Syori: I feel like she would take something she finds fun in college like creative writing or liberal arts, and kinda struggle to find a job later and work as a waiter, and then finding a (kinda) stable income thru vlogs and social media!

Natsuki: I think her dad might force her to take some boring shit like economics in college, but she'd secretly drop out and use her saved up money for culinary school and run her own small bakery in the future. I dont see her becoming a mangaka tbh for some reason.

MC: chud basement dweller

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 1 month ago
▲ 14 r/sglgbt

Where can i get a binder physically :(

Im enby, or genderqueer or SOMETHING idk but i get really dysphoric abt my chest, and im not out to anyone at all including family. I also cant order anything home or use online payments because of that, so is there anywhere i can buy a binder physically with cash? I was thinking about telling my parents that its for a cosplay but they might say no because its expensive.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago
▲ 1 r/RenPy

my character isnt showing up :(

Im a beginner on renpy and i was trying to make my character say sm stuff, but when i run the game it just shows the placeholder shadow thing.

https://preview.redd.it/ayizyxd6h0bh1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=858243d510f68385406b1f0d71f76c39024ebb92

https://preview.redd.it/3dj5xgn7h0bh1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=4dfd8702be88f16bbbd515d9de2fc963811bf219

lint even says "Rosha casual" isnt an image, but the code says "rosha casual" *not capitalised) and the file name is rosha casual.png not sure whats going wrong wahhh but the backround worked fine :(

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago

Where did the character design headcanons originate from?

As someone who got into hermitcraft in late s10 from the life series and smallishbeans + is really into fanart, ive seen so much art of the hermits with specific traits. And i've really been wondering where these design HC's came from. I often see grian being drawn with wings, which i know has to do with some s6 stuff + watcher lore, but some other things i havent seem anyone explain that im curious about:

-Gem often gets drawn as some sort of deer/centaur/antlered creature, why is that? since her skin is just a regular human
-Docs skin is a creeper and i see so many fanarts of him as some sort of big ram/goat thing
-Zedaph too, i think its a sheep or something?
-Etho with the wolf/fox ears. this one isnt as common as the others but i see it alot too
-Impulse being an imp is just wordplay of his name lmao?
-Ive seen ppl explain that skizz being an angel is to contrast impulse, but why skizz specifically?

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago

I lowkey see things after i cut

Does anybody else have this thing? i dont harm super often, maybe like twice a week, but for the following 1-2 days after i cut i start sort of seeing weird things. Im not saying like full on hallucinations but like, i see something in the corner of my eye but its not there or i keep hearing noises that are not there. After my doorbell rings, i keep hearing the ringing sound for minutes after it stops. Idk if this is just like a mental thing or im making it up??? It dosent happen if i dont cut.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago
▲ 7 r/vndevs

please help!! last minute VN!!

So for some damn reason, i chose to make a VISUAL NOVEL for a school project of mine. So by the end of my summer break (august 6th) I HAVE TO HAVE A FULLY READY WORKING VISUAL NOVEL. It is going to be very short, just 2 hours, featuring 3 endings. Now, i probably should have just made the plot something i would find personally fun like a murder mystery or romance or something but i foolishly decided to make it about the ENVIRONMENT. By the way, I have absolutely 0 experience making VNS, and have only played a handful. (Just the most popular ones - DDLC, danganrompa, slay the princess and the sort.) I dont know where to begin and i downloaded renpy but have no clue how to work it or if its even a good option for a beginner. I also have like 0 percent of a story planned, so i'd greatly appreciate any help in story writing and actually making the VN. Im doing everything by myself by the way.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago
▲ 1 r/RenPy

please help!! last minute VN!!

So for some damn reason, i chose to make a VISUAL NOVEL for a school project of mine. So by the end of my summer break (august 6th) I HAVE TO HAVE A FULLY READY WORKING VISUAL NOVEL. It is going to be very short, just 2 hours, featuring 3 endings. Now, i probably should have just made the plot something i would find personally fun like a murder mystery or romance or something but i foolishly decided to make it about the ENVIRONMENT. By the way, I have absolutely 0 experience making VNS, and have only played a handful. (Just the most popular ones - DDLC, danganrompa, slay the princess and the sort.) I dont know where to begin and i downloaded renpy but have no clue how to work it or if its even a good option for a beginner. I also have like 0 percent of a story planned, so i'd greatly appreciate any help in story writing and actually making the VN. Im doing everything by myself by the way.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 2 months ago

Cosplayers, where do u guys buy your costumes ?

To all the cosplayers of singapore - where do yall find good quality wigs + costumes? I understand online shopping is an option but its my first time buying a cosplay (i have always handmade them) so im afraid if i buy online the quality might not be good, so is there any physical stores (not for costumes ofc but for wigs atleast)?

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 3 months ago

Man I think my friends found out.

It was really hot today and i took off my jacket ( i totally forogt i had cut my shoulders) and i litteraly exposed like 3-4 of my dermis cuts, and im so sure my friends saw. I heard one of them saying smth like "Isnt that *something something* on [my names]?" and another replied "yeah i saw it the other day." and i could just be ovverreacting since they didnt say anything and i didnt hear them clearly, im juts afraid theyll talk to me about it or something. I dont wanna seem attention seeking, i dont WANT ATTENTION at all.

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 3 months ago

IMH/ Inpatient mental ward experiences?

I just wanted to ask if anybody here has been to the IMH or just generally an inpatient psych ward. Im curious to know, what even is the cirteria (if there is one) to be admitted? I understand as an adult you can admit yourself, but what about a minor? Any stories or restrictions in the ward? Do you have to have a diagnosis or doctor refferal to be able to stay there or is it really just your current mental state?

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u/ProcessImmediate6781 — 3 months ago