Getting worse..? Or better?
So recently i have stopped cutting as much as i used to which is great, but the smallest things have started triggering me. This morning i turned the water heater on to take a shower but it was freezing cold after i waited 15 minutes and i crashed out so bad i started just absolutley beating the shit out of myself with the shower head?? like i dont understand why i had such a visceral reaction. this has been happening so much recently- maybe the wifi will be down for a while, or maybe the crowd is too loaud, the lights are too bright, i just get so annoyed and start tweaking and digging my nails so deep into my skin it leaves marks for hours, and scratches that make people ask if i have a pet. So i dont know if this is worse or better- ive not been cutting much at all, but ive been having horrible reactions to the absolute smallest things