u/PuzzleheadedSir4382

Hey all. I got a baby beardie about a month ago. I’m having an issue finding quality crickets. The local bait shop sells crickets but they are so crappy. Even with crickets cubes in the carrier they die that night. Trying to avoid a daily trip to the bait store, are there any feeders you guys find online to purchase? He isn’t that interested in his greens yet but I got my last one to eat salads with her pollen on them so I have that on the way. Also, is there other greens you guys use besides collard/mustard?

I’ve always been insecure. Well actually I cheated on my first bf when I was 16 then that guy cheated on me. I’m 37 now (f) and my thought process never changed. I’ve cheated since then tho, love never ment anything to me. My parents marriage was shit and love wasn’t a thing. I never believed someone could love me nor did I truly love anyone. I just wanted what they had in their pockets. For context I was addicted to drugs thru my teens and 20s. Picked up 9 years clean and sober yesterday tho 🤭. I’ve done ALOT of work in this area and have been married to my husband for 5 years, together for 9. I ALWAYS accused him of cheating. I never found cold hard evidence and was left feeling dumb for years. But I was convinced!!! He was going to hurt me and leave me. Our first year was hell, tears, fights then pregnancy 😂. Fast forward 3 kids later (I already had 1 when we met and hubby raised him) here we sit. He did step out and had a 1 night stand with some whore from work and the guilt led him to admit it to me. He suggested Counceling and we got to the core of it, we have been building from there. After he cheated it was weird. Like I had feelings like “whewww we got that out of the way!” I can’t explain it or why but things are better now than they were before 🤷🏻‍♀️ we’re 2 years out from him cheating aaaaaaaand here we sit. I’ve always switched accusations out whole relationship. It’s either he’s on drugs or he’s cheating. Same deal, a few months ago I caught him buying adderall from a co worker which I COULD HAVE CARED LESS!!!! idk why he felt the need to hide it? I’ve always told him i didn’t care if he wanted to do that. For context, he was also on drugs in his past. He smoked weed like a chimney but everyone in my family does. It dosnt bother me, that’s the one thing I will NEVER do again. Opiates were my problem. Anywho fast forward again, I’m on a stimulant medicine for my ADHD now and I just started it 4 days ago. He told me before I started that it was going to make me more crazy and I would constantly accuse him of stupid shit 😒. The past 2 mornings my morning meds have been gone out of my pill case before I even take them. Yesterday I just took the next days (today) and convinced myself he diddnt steal them. He decided not to get on adderall btw. Today I forgot I did that and when I saw that this mornings was empty I lost it. Sat him down and tried to get him to confess, accused him of stealing it. He got super pissed and did the whole “I told ya so” thing then went fishing. I feel like a turd and I hate fighting. Is it the meds? Is he right? DOES HE DESERVE TO BE ACCUSED!?!?? like are we forgetting what tf happened!!!! Idk in therapy he learned how to deal with accusations but I also learned how to deal with insecurities sooooo it’s like who’s in the wrong ya know?

Forgot to say what actually happened to the meds. I was taking the wrong day the whole time. I counted them and all is there, I’m just a dumbass 🙄

I’ll have 9 years clean on Saturday 😜 I recently got a job at the post office after 10 years of stay at home mom life. It was brought to my attention that my focus is causing some issues for me at work. I’ve always had adhd just always delt with it in my own way 🤷🏻‍♀️ I decided to make an appointment with my PCP to discuss medication options for me. He’s aware of my recovery and has been my dr the whole time I have been clean. Im not comfortable with Adderall nor was he. The non stimulant options I’m not a fan of because of side effects. I’m Bi polar 1 as well so I take a mood stabilizer and an antidepressant. We decided on Vyvance. Today is day 1 and i definitely feel something. Not like a high but like a stillness? Idk how to describe it lol. My thoughts are quieter and not so fast. There is just always guilt involved with taking narcotics in recovery.

For context: a drug is a drug 😂 but opiate pain pills were my DOC. Xanax as well.

I hope I can post this because I have no one else that understands what I feel. Me and my husband have been together for 10 years and married for 5 (Mayby 6) 🤣. This luteal phase has been a deep dark inner war for me though. I went back to work 3 months ago after 9 years of stay at home mom life. He is very supportive and said he would help with day to day stuff because I would be at work. He is great helping with the kids. He has taken off work multiple times for sick kids, events etc. my house is a disaster. I can’t keep up with everything. The man has never touched a dish in the 9 years we have been together. Won’t touch the laundry, won’t grocery shop, won’t pick up the house. It’s worrisome this luteal phase tho because I don’t want to be intimate. Usually during luteal I want to have sex. I don’t want to at all. Like at all, I don’t even really want to talk to him. It’s scaring me. It’s gone from like a thought to a feeling of that makes sence. I can’t talk to him without an argument and I just don’t have it in me. I’m 36, is my sex drive going away? Or is my relationship failing? I feel lost 😔 any support would be helpful

I’ve been considering one of the two but worried about any mood complications due to PMDD. Any experience with either? Is one better than the other for PMDD?

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