u/Rare-Imagination1018

Ive taken prozac for a week now im scared if it has any effects the dr gave this to me cause of my stress also im kinda sensitive to voice now i feel diff like not in the moment i become thirsty than hungry

I live in iran i failed the entrance college exam Strict parent they think every and all money is in education and they want me to study another year for the next exam im 19 i had this big dream of becoming a global rapper for 4 years now i dont know what to do man im stuck
They never believed me they think im fucked while ive always studied and high graded in high school but im tired i feel like a doll thats controlled i feel like dying i think im delula and brain fucked cause of being diff

Just curious

Like it takes me long to realize what my partner felt in a moment
I think i always dont know how to act in public never speak loud just silent and rock face have hard time with social anxiety
I have trouble regulating myself when there is too much stress
I can feel the small changes in person’s behavior but dont know what it is
Low empathy for close ones most of tge time in the room no connection have interest in making music and rap
From young ages i was great in math and recognizing pattern of number
I dont know much of emotions like i dont know if im mad or sad or anything till its like burst
I daydreamed when i was younger now i talk with myself alone and walk around the house
I think i have problem with recognizing jokes of the students when they are making fun of me or like its a complement
Yeah

Like it takes me long to realize what my partner felt in a moment
I think i always dont know how to act in public never speak loud just silent and rock face have hard time with social anxiety
I have trouble regulating myself when there is too much stress
I can feel the small changes in person’s behavior but dont know what it is
Low empathy for close ones most of tge time in the room no connection have interest in making music and rap
From young ages i was great in math and recognizing pattern of number
I dont know much of emotions like i dont know if im mad or sad or anything till its like burst
I daydreamed when i was younger now i talk with myself alone and walk around the house
I think i have problem with recognizing jokes of the students when they are making fun of me or like its a complement
Yeah

18 male and my gf 18 female she told me she had bpd shi I didn’t believe her suddenly i feel nothing is enoughhh like whatever i do the other she gone start fight over why yo didn’t text me much in a day and i told her i need space for my exam but yet she keep comin back arguing she said she care anout little stuff but back then everygod damn day we had lots fight she come lovebombing then next day she mad i didntcall
Acting chilldish like bi you aint got no life
Man im tired im emotionally drained my first relationship and im thinking this aint no love she wont feel none if i cut her off my line and im feeling shit like

She told me she may have bpd and all that we had lotta fun but risky in public and I didn’t wanted to go that far in public but still we had so many fights in 5 months one time i didnt answer her call and answer her text and she broke up with me
She have talk with her last situationships
And i told her to cut them off but the day after we went no contact she actually go out with one of em to ask them what to do about our relationship witch was weird for me but anyway im not sure she aint got no real family support around she drinks
At first she was childish and let her emotions control her
Now she said she changed doesnt get overwhelmed when i dont answer her for four hours or call we just sometimes go out
I think i also have some aspd
Do you guys think we can work through this or it will drain