u/Round_Charity5748

Hi everyone I hope y'all are having a good one. I have level 1 autism and I've tried university before and it was too stressful and confusing. I struggle to cope with things I don't understand beforehand I'd like your help with pre-exposure by letting me know in advance what to expect and extra tips are always welcome.

For starters, the apps? Are the SelfStudy or Self help apps useful at some point or are they there just for the grades?

The strikes. When forced to into one (have been before), what are the go-to hacks for safety when things escalate for safety, will I be at risk of being arrested if I was forced into it, and are there ways to avoid it in advance?

The few guys. There are some guys who used to go around in the women's dorms at night checking if any of the doors are open, some harrassing for my number when they block off my exit. Most guys are okay. It's just that there's those who are a literal danger. We don't talk about these things at home. Are there ways to navigate these things?

Classes. Where do people find them? There used to be a room label on the lesson notice and instead there'd be an empty room or another class when I went. The actual class was in another building and by then, the lessons were almost over.

People. There's clubs, people trying to be friends, activities, events, navigating the new area, it's really overwhelming on top of being in a new space. When navigating the space, are there people or groups that are beneficial to be around or is it optional at the same level for everyone depending on one's personality? I struggle with prioritization in this case.

Thank you for your time and for reading this.

I recently got diagnosed with alexithymia. I've struggled with it for a while. I've been learning the basics of reading facial expressions, emotions, psychology and a bit of sociology and that's only gotten me to the point where I can sort of understand interactions without context from time to time.

A lot of the times, I'm faking feelings in animated ways and it's exhausting. It doesn't even work because often, people tell me something, I reply with a response that misses what they're trying to say. People get frustrated, bored or confused and leave after enough time. No matter how much I keep trying to learn, reflect, balance translating my internal experience while reading theirs, it keeps ending up in frustration from either me or them. I'll admit, even I struggle to bond long term because I can't tell how close I am and how to express my feelings without it being too much or too distant and when it's right, I don't understand what I did or why.

I'm not sure if this is a compatibility issue or something to look into to work on further.

Bamboo grows fast and in a single day on almost anything. It's too hard to eat and there would be too few humans to control it. Would it take over ecosystems in every country until it became the new number one species? Especially since pandas are basically alive due to humans and would most likely go extinct as well.

I get anxious and that affects our friendship. I once said something hurtful out of the blue and it has affected our friendship. I can see the pattern growing again and I've been trying to change. I'm struggling to cope and I want to leave before it affects them too much again.

I have been trying to cope but I've noticed that lately I talk to them to feel better, instead of talking to them to connect. I also find myself waiting for their reply and it's starting to affect my life. I want to leave for the sake of my mental energy and for the respect of my friend because I don't want to use them to feel better about myself. I also don't want to run away from them and ice them out of this choice. I've been trying to cope with this and I'm not sure if the friendship can work. They're an amazing friend and I'm not sure what to do. Do I talk to them about what I'm going through, just end it, keep being friends but from a distance... I don’t know.

I struggle with small talk with people I don't know. My main strategy so far is to either let them be the first to initiate or an outside factor becomes a topic I feel comfortable initiating in. Usually it's very quiet until they break the silence or we're both silent. I can talk with older people but I struggle with my peers. What are could be some ways I can improve? Just to break the ice.

I struggle with small talk with people I don't know. My main strategy so far is to either let them be the first to initiate or an outside factor becomes a topic I feel comfortable initiating in. Usually it's very quiet until they break the silence or we're both silent. I can talk with older people but I struggle with my peers. What are could be some ways I can improve? Just to break the ice.

Dale >!got Sophia killed!<. Had he done his job of being the lookout instead of going into Andrea's business, things would've been different and he would've >!seen the heard on time on the highway because he was on the roof at the time. There were highway guardrails and the horde was on the road, not surrounded by trees or anything to cover from bird's eye view. He should've seen them ahead and early enough to warn the group, especially since Andrea could see up to the end of the farm when she shot Daryl!<

I'm in college for a separate subject. I've been learning data analysis and programming on the side. Do I have potential to apply for internships or learnerships at the moment.

Skills:

- I'm beginner/intermediate in Python. I can solve basic problems in python and know how to clean data in Pandas.

- I've created visuals with data on Excel and Power BI, I don't know DAX yet but I know how to use Excel functions

- I lack a bit of experience using GIT but I get the gist

- I'm reviewing my math and working on learning the more advanced scopes for working better with code

- I've made a few projects in Excel, Python, PostgreSQL and one in Power BI

This is just to get this off my mind. My friends and family don't know about this. It happened a few years ago. It took me a while to cope. I used to get vivid flashback but lately they've been less intense. Sometimes it happens with only one sense at a time but most of the time it's just one image. I think about it less often now. Sometimes it comes back strong and it might be the source of the random panic attacks mixed with regular stress. It's weird how a flashback can last a second or an entire day. The worst one was when everything escalated it and luckily I was alone so no one could see, but it kept looping over and over until I finally had an anxiety attack at the end of the day and I was too numb to think and too tired to do anything. I won't say what happened, I can't even vent properly about this. It's complicated. I've been getting comfortable in my skin again but there's still the distance. Some simple things just take more energy than they used to. Memories comes in waves every now and again and I can't accept it but I have to force myself to come to terms with it somehow. Sometimes even touching my body can be difficult and take me back. Luckily I don't show an outward reaction and I can function mid panic attack so no one can tell. I'm obviously going to get therapy. I'm just busy lately and I want to take this off my mind somehow because I've been going back more frequently lately.

I am teaching myself data analysis and I've been learning a lot and have made a lot of projects and progress. I'm still a beginner but I'm proud of myself and with the way I'm going, especially while struggling mentally, and without college due to complex reasons (still trying to fix them though and juggling all this with the spare time). I'm also getting my act together and planning and preparing for the future. I schedule my own therapy, budget for my study materials, prepare a schedule to keep up with my responsibilities. I'm happy with my progress with all that I have now and hope that there could be others to celebrate with me.

I'm not sure if this is the right place to post. Is it internalised misogyny if I struggle with my gender. As in disagreeing with it, yet feeling the urge to prove my femininity? For example, I'm not into some norms like dresses yet sometimes it feels like I need to wear them to feel "woman" enough or exercise my femininity. It's like the same way when a man can easily be stripped of their status of being seen as a man, except this time as a woman. Like if I don't act in some ways, I might be forgotten. If a man is downgraded, they have a status to fall under, but women tend to be forgotten and excluded when they don't meet some criteria. I don't like a lot of expectations that come from my gender but I do them sometimes because of fear of exclusion or being a target. Are there any studies, books or advice on understanding or coping with this? I'm cis, I just don't feel comfortable with some things because they usually come from either competing with other women or trying to attract men or being submissive. I'm not interested in all of them, I just want to be myself without being seen as less than for doing so. This doesn't apply to everything related to being female, just the norm of where I am.