u/Sadredheadgirl

For several days now, I've been taking a lot of alprazolam and propranolol (for the palpitations), and drinking alcohol every evening after work, just to feel numb and survive. But I can't go on like this and nothing calms me down. I got dumped, again, and I feel like this was one breakup too many and that I've been made to feel inferior to other girls/exs (knowing that I am genuinely in the worst period of my life, nothing else positive had happened for months ; it's honestly a miracle I'm still alive). How can I go on living with this feeling that's crushing my heart...

Salut salut, est-ce qu'il y a des gens ici qui savent où je pourrais récupérer des cartons (gratuitement, pour cause de pauvreté 😩​) ? De toutes tailles, c'est pour un déménagement... et j'ai BEAUCOUP de livres. De préférence pas trop loin de la Robertsau parce que j'ai pas de voiture. Merci de votre aide la team

Sorry if this question has already been asked, but what do you think of the line "It wasn't my idea, the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside, but without them I'd die" in Fingertips? I'm wondering which medication she's referring to and if she's still on that treatment. I know she had already posted a picture of herself with pills in her mouth on Instagram around the same time. I've heard of lithium, but I don't think she has a bipolar disorder

Please soothe my soul 😔

Please give me advice, I need to numb myself right now to stay alive

Do you think that leaving a su*cide note for loved ones can "help," or should one not explain their actions?

I've heard several stories where the family regrets not knowing why the person killed themselves. What do you think about that? (I'm just wondering, I don't encourage anyone to do it!)

Désolée pour la question morbide mais je me demandais comment le chat réagit à la mort de son/sa propriétaire dans le sens où il est physiquement à proximité. Par exemple si quelqu'un fait une crise cardiaque et qu'il est seul dans sa maison avec son chat pendant 2-3j, est-ce que ce dernier reste près du corps, se cache dans une autre pièce...? J'avais déjà lu un cas avec le chien mais on sait comment sont les chats, plus indépendants 😄

I have a feeling I'm going to die this year.

I'm sincerely certain I'm going to die this year, most likely before the end of summer. I've been depressed and battling BPD for 10 years, and for about 3 years I've literally been in survival mode. Now, every day is a victory, but also a day that brings me closer to death. Life, God, or whatever is pushing me towards su*c*de: I'm losing my apartment, my friends, my boyfriend, my cat is dying, part of my family doesn't want to speak to me anymore, I have several chronic illnesses, I have money problems, and even my bike was stolen. It's as if I've exhausted all my resources, and despite my great mental strength, I feel like I'm reaching the end of my life. It's a strange feeling

Do you sometimes beg God, Life (or whatever you believe in) to suddenly kill you? It's horrible to say, but sometimes I even want to hire someone to kill me because I'm not sure I could do it myself

I can no longer stand living with BPD and depression for over 10 years. I can't keep friends and all my boyfriends end up leaving me because of it. I'm 28, I work, I have treatment and I have been in therapy for years. But I can fight anymore, living is a nightmare

I've felt so frustrated and constantly sad for years, but these past few weeks it's become unbearable (I have borderline personality disorder, chronic and severe depression, and anxiety). I think about su*cide from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. I take two antidepressants and a mood stabilizer for my mental health issues, but for the past few days I've started taking Xanax again (at a high dose) to numb myself. It's the only thing that dulls the emotions and the feeling of emptiness, or alcohol, but I try to avoid drinking every day... I just need to feel calm