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Idk if this makes sense but I often feel like people just get the wrong end of the stick regarding what I’m saying/where I’m coming from and tend to assume the worst but then if I over explain it just doesn’t scone across well either..::

And I just keep trying to pick myself up and then feeling and and I don’t want to keep doing this. It’s exhausting. I don’t want to keep picking myself up over and over. This is draining. I feel empty and sad and this is just the most exhausting cycle.

Hey all, I’m currently trying to come out of a pretty gnarly depressy episode and trying to get back into my niches/interests has not been the easiest as the internet moved hard and fast.

Today (for example), Reddit gave me an ad of Mikayla Nogueria with her Sephora ad about being cancelled (and I was thoroughly confused as I hadn’t really heard much about her since fake ads/sponsored content with that false mascara ad being the pinnacle of that mess along with something about faking her accent), and although I’m not sure why she’s being cancelled again (something about her hair? Idk there were a few cropped comments on the ad), but I did see some stuff about her divorce (something about her divorce, her new man, the overlap, her own man sucking (and being obsessed with Ancient Rome in a term I can’t remember right now but it reminded me of gooning because it started with a g but I know that’s not the right word), being MAGA, something about filters?) and a couple of other things.

I tried to do a Gypsy Rose Blanchard deep dive to catch up about new info since her release (and with the news of her BD passing) so I feel thoroughly overwhelmed with trying to unpack MN.

If anyone can please type up a TLDR or recommend some good videos to watch that are well researched/have good info (and won’t involve me watching twenty 1h videos), that would be super helpful. TIA! X

Hi all. Not my first post.

I’m tired.

I have a neurological disorder. Not much support. I dissociate more than I’m present. The last few years of my life have been barely surviving. Attempts at relationships, work, accessing healthcare, reconnecting with family… all of it have just fallen by the wayside.
I’ve essentially become a shut in. I have no faith that anything will get better. Never being able to access any sort of care and a lack of support has gotten to me. I can’t even engage with anyone without wondering when it’s going to fall to pieces. I have panic attacks almost every time I try to leave the house and it’s so hard to concentrate unless I’m dissociating. Medical weed and alcohol are the only ways I don’t feel pain or depressed but they up my anxiety. Without them I just space out in bed. Exhausted. Everything just feeling painful and exhausting and I’m so tired.
The last near decade of my life has been barely surviving and I can’t face another 10 years of being ignored and essentially becoming a shut in. I barely sleep (well) due to my pain. Everything is exhausting. This is torture and I have no real quality of life.

I have Swiss and French passports if that helps.
I want to know if anyone has known of anyone who’s applied for assisted suicide or knows of someone who managed to go through with it I’d love any insight or tips.

I’m tired.

I don’t want to fight anymore. I just want to rest and I want to do so with dignity.

I’m not I’m my 20’s but I’m young enough that I could face decades of this lack of quality of life that it’s unbearable.

I don’t want someone to talk me out of this. This isn’t something I’m considering lightly. The last two years have cemented my decision.

I just want to know what kind of paperwork I’m awaiting.

I’m at an impasse. I was diagnosed with FND almost six years ago. I have been given barely any support as there’s no damage to my brain so up until recently it was seen as a mental health and not a physical health issue.

I have been dissociating to get through the day. Stuck in an impossible situation I don’t want to be in with little to no help and no way forward or out. Stuck on benefits, unable to work… it’s been incredibly hard.

I don’t want to go to A+E and be poked and prodded and sent back and have assessments with years long wait times and no help or answers.
I don’t know what to do or where to go. I’m only 30. I’ve been just trying to get through each day as it comes but I’ve been doing that for years. I’m barely surviving, almost nobody my age understands the pain and the isolation and difficulties connecting, especially without a job (and god do I miss working).
I’m stuck on benefits. I don’t really have much family either.

Like I’ve been having dark thoughts because I can’t imagine another 30 years of this painful and empty survival mode. I’m barely living. I’ve tried everything I can and if it was just me I would have gotten myself out of this situation. But I also don’t want to deal with the NHS who’ve done nothing but screw me over and ignore me. I’m also terrified of being sectioned in case they don’t like what I have to say (I’ve been threatened with it in the past when I didn’t like a doctor of mine and I did a bit of inpatient for depression).

Has anyone been where I have? What did you do?

Hey. So. Idk what to do with myself or where to post. It’s been 5/6 years since my diagnosis and I’m so tired. This disease has taken most of my 20’s, the NHS being unhelpful has not helped. I have lost my joie de vivre my happiness most of my support system (people only want to support for so long) and I’m so tired.

Anything outside of lying in bed fills me with an anxiety sweat and I’m so tired and so burnt out and I’m not suicidal but I just don’t want to do anything anymore. It all feels hopeless and pointless and I know I’m burnt out and I just need to keep going but it’s been years of telling myself to keep going that something good is coming over the horizon and it just feels daft.

Idk how to motivate myself. How to want to do anything because I don’t. I’m not going to hurt myself and I’m not a danger to myself or others but if I didn’t wake up tomorrow I wouldn’t be mad at it and I just don’t know what to do because all the usual advice is keep going and do one step after the other but it’s been years of keeping my chin up and just trying to get through the next moment.

I’m only 30 and I have been in survival mode for the last 5/6 years. I don’t live. I survive. And barely that.

Has anyone ever gotten to this point? Help.

Hi all! I’ve noticed an issue with my Facebook notifications where I’m not receiving any notifications if someone interacts with my posts/comments (mainly when they’re on my page, I get most of the ones from groups) and my notifications are just of other people and interactions.

It’s starting to spill over to my IG as well where I’m not always getting notifications (like with people following me and interacting) and I can’t find the source.

There’s nothing in my notifications centre and no restrictions on my account. It’s been going on for months with no change. Is anyone able to help me out?

Hi everyone!

I am currently living in London and I’m in a pickle. I desperately want to get a drivers license but being unable to work due to my disability I can’t afford the lessons which is why I was so excited to hear about the notability scheme… only to be quickly dissuaded.

When I spoke to them they said I first have to apply for and be approved for a car. Yet in order to be approved for a car, I need to have a driver’s license.
I live alone. Most of my friends (and all of my family) do not live in the UK. I don’t really have anyone else to help me sign for a car (not to mention if I managed to convince a neighbour when I spoke to motability they said they had a massive backlog, which means that even if I did find a way I’d be paying for a car I can’t use for a year whilst I try to get a license whose test I may not pass on the first round due to the backlog with motability and general issues with trying to get a drivers license in the UK as a whole).

Has anyone else been in a similar situation? What did you do?

Edit: I want to get a license. The issue is I can’t afford it. I can’t apply for the Motability grant until I apply for an am approved for a car. To be approved for a car, I need a license or someone who can sign for me (and I have neither). I’m asking if anyone has been in a similar position and can give me advice about how to navigate this impasse.

Hi everyone! I was wondering whether anyone had tried freezing and donating their eggs in London?
I can see that different clinics have a variety of programmes and costs and I’m not sure where to go.

I live alone. I don’t go out much. I’ve been struggling with other life stuff and health stuff. I’m pretty lonely and I’ve been struggling.
I’ve been trying therapy. It’s been hard to find a good match. I don’t think my current therapist is a good fit. I need to find someone else. But that’s so much effort.
My flat is a mess.
I just don’t know what to do with myself.
I don’t want to go outside. I don’t want to do anything. I wish I could fall asleep and not wake up and when I am thinking my mind is anxious and scattered and sad and it’s hard to dissect from the self loathing and the negative feedback loop.
When I don’t think things get scattered. It’s hard.

The only thing I want to do is lie in bed. iPad on. Random mobile game. Or just zoning out with a show and staring that the wall.

I’ve tried to help myself for so many years but now I’m not sure if I even want to try to get better because I have tried and I’m just… here? No change? Just empty? Still?

Like what’s the point? How am I supposed to get anything done when I don’t want to do anything at all?