People suck
The more I put myself out there the more I want to shut back down. Every interaction is meaningless, except the bad ones and those are the only ones you will remember.
I remember the guys in the big popular group from school, I used to idolize that stuff until I got to observe it closer. Every time someone was absent they'd gossip about them on a level that a group of middle aged drama queens might envy.
Is there anything genuine that isn't a family tie or goes all the way back to your childhood? Should I have secured my social and economic life in kindergarten to be okay today?