u/Simulationth3ry

I’ve never thrown up before from my ibs. But it seems like it’s acting up with my acid reflux at the same time. Lately my acid reflux has been bad and has me nauseous but not thrown up. Lately I’ve been constipated and bloated a bit (pretty sure I have ibs-m) and I have this cycle where I go from not being able to go to the bathroom, bloating etc followed by bad cramps and pooping and diarrhea until my asshole burns. Anyways so that happened this morning. I ate and then had to go to the bathroom with urgency. Came back. Took one bite of yogurt, felt like I was gonna throw up, ran into the bathroom and did. I keep having bad cramps with diarrhea 🫩 I can’t tell if it’s just a bad ibs flare with acid reflux or a stomach bug

I’ve never thrown up before from my ibs. But it seems like it’s acting up with my acid reflux at the same time. Lately my acid reflux has been bad and has me nauseous but not thrown up. Lately I’ve been constipated and bloated a bit (pretty sure I have ibs-m) and I have this cycle where I go from not being able to go to the bathroom, bloating etc followed by bad cramps and pooping and diarrhea until my asshole burns. Anyways so that happened this morning. I ate and then had to go to the bathroom with urgency. Came back. Took one bite of yogurt, felt like I was gonna throw up, ran into the bathroom and did. I keep having bad cramps with diarrhea 🫩 I can’t tell if it’s just a bad ibs flare with acid reflux or a stomach bug

I’ve been taking oxide for awhile and only recently learned about the bad GI effects which I definitely have😅 I’ve heard good things about Glycinate but I’m unsure. My purpose for taking magnesium is for migraines. I also have other conditions like POTS and I’ve heard magnesium can be iffy with that sometimes so maybe it’s better to not at all but I just can’t with the oxide anymore. I deal with fatigue and brain fog as well and have rough time staying asleep and I’ve heard some forms keep people up which I don’t need

This might be the worst migraine I’ve ever had in my life it’s actually excruciating. I felt nauseous for so long and finally ended up throwing up a good number of hours into it. I forgot that throwing up hurts lol goddamn it I hate it here

And other sentences that don’t make sense if you don’t deal with this shit. I want to have so many tests done and seriously try to figure out everything wrong with me but because of my highly suspected MECFS I can’t. Before I even suspected I had it I was doing so many appointments just to end up invalidated and crashed and not actually receive proper help. It’s extremely frustrating. Medical care is so inaccessible if you’re bedbound. It makes me want to give up entirely.

My boyfriend wants to propose to me coming up soon and I want advice on how to make it as MECFS friendly as possible. I’m moderate-severe and I know that whatever I do will probably cause PEM to some degree, but I want to minimize it as much as possible.

I want the proposal to be at a beach. Not too far from my house so I won’t have to be in the car for awhile. The plan I had in my head was do it at night so it’ll be just us and quick and no pressure to linger leave etc. He wants to do a whole thing for me and that’s where I’m worried because I don’t know how much I can tolerate. He is aware of my mecfs and that I need to lay down often, so he said he would incorporate that into the proposal.

He doesn’t want to spoil anything but all I know is he’s planning something that involves photographers (he says they know that I’m chronically ill so they wouldn’t take that many pictures) but also that he would book a slot for whatever it is ??? Maybe for the setup itself???? Idk for two hours and that’s awhile to be out. So I just want yalls input on what you think. I’m not sure if it would be too much and if laying down is incorporated it might be okay but idk! Just want some feedback 🙂 thank you

Time and time again people try to steer my partner away from me because of my chronic illnesses. They treat me like a burden and like he shouldn’t be with me because I can’t do stuff like a normal boyfriend could. It’s so fucking disheartening. He has never made me feel like too much for being sick. But the people around him have. At times like this I struggle to see the point. My entire life (for mental health reasons) I’ve also felt like I don’t deserve love. And now it’s because I’m sick which isn’t my fucking fault. We deserve relationships too and I’m so sick of people who aren’t in my relationship giving input just because THEY personally couldn’t handle a disabled partner. Stop projecting and leave me alone.

It feels like my heart is breaking every time. I wish more than anything we could just be together all of the time. I don’t want to ever have to part again. It’s not fair. At times like this I hate every couple who doesn’t know this pain. They take so much for granted. The time goes by so quickly each time. I’m never ready and always want it to be longer. I hate being apart. The day leading up and the day he leaves is excruciating. With each hour that passes you knowing it’s one hour closer to them leaving. The last hug. Watching them walk away and waiting for them to come back. Knowing they’re in the airport in your city and they’re still close and could come back just like they never left. Looking at photos and crying and wishing you come jump back into the memories and stay there forever.

I just want that dang cat🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

My anxiety and ocd has been really bad lately so I’ve been trying to play phone games to keep myself off socials. So far I’ve played drop the cat, I love hue, and magic recipe. Drop the cat is cute but way too stressful (has a timer) so it defeats the purpose of staying calm. I love hue is okay but gets old after awhile. Magic recipe is my favorite so far. I’m open to anything you think fits for calming, soothing, cute, etc.

I feel like I’m in a horrific state of limbo