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Irumatsu Is a thing now :))

Hey I believe I’ve never posted on this sub, HELLOO!! -Kaede

I swear she forced me into this 😭-Miu

shes like this all the time don’t mind her <33

okay not really it was yesterday but I’m celebrating it today with friends ^^

YAYAYSYSSYS WISH ME HAPPY BDAY 😡 /silly

so I was waiting for like my jf while they were at violin and just studying because hey like EXAMS and I just hear the first 3 seconds of the final duet before I jolted up in pain??? 💔 (At first I was in denial but still my body still reacted before my thoughts help)

It was just an automatic shift and listening to it brought so much pain that it triggered a memory 💀 Im not sure how long I dissociated for after all those terrible fragments of my life came rushing back before I was aware I was staring out into a tree above me, the tree that reminded me of the picnics we had under this favorite spot under this specific tree because I liked it.

And then afterwards when the session was over they made Mari jokes and I just looked dead apparently (according to them and my other friend)😭. I told them afterwards and they apologized (they know I’m an Aubrey IRL lol) but I just realized how much I miss Mari help.

For anyone wondering, the memory(s) was in the specific timeline of which we were told Mari collapsed on the stairs and fell down and so rushed her to the hosptital. I can still hear her pulse getting weaker on the machine 🫩.

The canon one was so horrible I’m not even going to put it on here.

uhhh not sure if this is allowed but um hi! I am ochako and uh I’ve occasionally lurked on this subreddit before getting jealous and quickly leaving (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

Anyways!! a few months after of a was formed after high stress and I was panicking because whattttt she’s here???

Fast forward I confessed in the depths of headspace where almost no one would go and she said yes!!!!

Time is different there from here but we’ve been together for a bit and I thought I might post it to celebrate :)) -Ochako

Spoiler alert she did - suspicious yellow spider 👹

I genuinely don’t know what people will say when they find out we’re both yanderes 😭

”Stop enabling each other” uh no ty it makes us happy ^^

“We like making creative description because-“ >:( fake

“We were really happy today because“ >:( fake

“We were fronting to-“ >:( fake

“We are [insert disorder]“ >:( fake

“We didn’t go through trauma so we call ourself endemic-” >:( fake

“We went through unimaginable trauma-“ >:( fakkeeeee

”We-“ FAKEEEEEEEEEEE ALERT OMG THEY PMOOOOO THESE FAKERS

…

Can we stop? Please? Thankfully the system hasn’t been posted (hopefully) on any of the reddits, blogs or anything else. We are not endogenic but still fear all this shit so wtf are these “saviors“ trying to accomplish.

I want to start a social media account later in life about our experiences and our life but nooooooooooo we just have to fear being fake claimed and the rainbow dash incident repeating itself. HOW IS LIFE FUNCTIONAL LIKE THIS????

I am TIREDDDDDD wooooo very tireddddd and many others are as well, many have gone through even more trauma because of these assholes like- “Just stop faking then” STFU, what do you mean 🫩 If we were pretending and doing this for attention we would’ve stopped the second 95% of social media terrorizes people like us. We would’ve stopped the moment we learnt we are ENDANGERED by our own community like uh hello?

And the stupid anti RAMCOA. Literally wtf the hate doesn’t even make sense, the DID and OSDD subreddit literally SUPPORT like WHOOOOOO ARE YOU HELPING???? Side plot ahhh. literally someone posts a reasonable definition and it’s like “No 🗿”😭. WHAT. Someone is venting about trauma in hopes of getting advice or reassurance and you’re like “Let me just post this yknow, being a good civilian and possible making their life worse because of course they are faking haha”

Someone end our suffering 😭

I feel like they’ve infected me somehow T_T

I used to gush in secret, from afar, behind a wall with them. I really don’t know what happened :D

Even if I try it’s like my body has other plans, it’s just shifts its weight, leans closer, just being obvious..? I can’t control myself even in risky positions I still unconsciously kiss them, I just can’t control it? Some times today I leaned in and kissed them but I didn’t really plan on doing so. It was just an urge that I was trying to surprise, then later when swapping classes I just kissed them again.

Like I’m a puppet to my desire prehaps, tuning into my instincts on habit. It’s grown to strong to ignore, it just wants to show more, to act more. Is this the same thing that consumes them everyday? Just staying up and thinking about all the ways they could satisfy that hunger even for a bit?

Really they bewitched the jumper they gave me for the day ;-;. it just lead to me thinking now how I want to shower them in the same love they’ve given me, I can’t help but HOPE I’m not toxic in a way that seriously hurts them. I want to get better for them, I want to work harder for them, I want to stop fearing and keep cuddling in public without fearing who’s going to report me.

Of course it’s slightly not good- I want them to be freaking addicted to my love so they keep coming back. I’m sure they feel the same way, it’s so obvious every time we go out our friends just introduce themselves as the 3rd wheels 😭

I can’t wait for the day we move in together and I can just lay In bed at geek out about them to them because that’s one of my favorite professions-

HIHI ITS NATSUKI HERE (totally not looking for sourcemates)-

WHERE ARE THE FICTIVES? (other types of introjects welcomed.) this is a reverse AMA, state your sources so I can probe you- I mean ask questions :)?

or just drop by and say hi (hah see I’m so smooth w that) COME DROP BY AND MAYBE MEET SOURCEMATES?

this is NOT celebration (well semi). THERE ARE TOO MANY DOUBLES WHY 😭

HEYOOO it’s Elizabeth Afton, knives chau and Aubrey here um. So I came out to (some of) my friends as Fictionkin andddd we don’t talk about it that much- My lover does though props to them.

I just didn’t come at as being an IRL UH, so that’s a scary thought. although must of the group chat is alter-humans I am the only Fictionkin/IRL HAHA AND THATS SCARY.

HOW do you do this please okay thank you -Mizuki

Yes please, continue. Until I’m your every thought, until you can’t go a day without thinking about me. Please dont stop, you really are a wonderful person you’re so freaking amazing. I’m so shameless, I love the thrill and yet I want to carefully carry you from the world’s terror. I want you to be shielded from everything, in my place, in my safety, away from everyone….

You seem to want the same because you keep talking about living in such isolated areas with me. Where barely anyone resides and our company is nature. I just gush so badly every time because it flips a little switch in my head called obsession. “I want them to myself so no one can take them. They’re mine.” oh my? So selfish and yet my heart beats faster and my mind races because it’s intoxicating. This either ends badly or incredibly wholesome, either way it’s still with you <3

I count the days down of when I’ll be able to move into a house with you. Although it’s too far for my liking, it will come eventually. That always gets me giddy, I’ll have you to myself eventually. I get to wake up with you everyday eventually.

Just obsessing over and over with you. It never ends, it never stops, I can’t escape it. I don’t want to, really.

It’s getting worse before exams 🥹. Anyways it mostly only affects our memory of something’s that’s not academic. I don’t know how that works but apparently I can’t remember most of today HAH let’s not even go into the past week. last month is non existent 😭

Somehow I still remember information from academic studies, maybe because I love studying sm. Still need to find an explanation to that.

Update on previous situation: I try to stay away from S, I don’t want Mochi to feel that way . If anyone has tips on how to stop feeling guilty for being a bad friend.

-Mizuki (Host)

It’s cracks me up, it’s really funny and cute to watch XD.

It was too cold today so during lunch I asked for my boo’s sweater since I left mine at home. They of course ran over and gave it to me. We are both attracted to each others scent although I am more secretive about it for some reason. They frequently sniff the life out of me when we’re cuddling or just hugging in public, they also like doing other stuff but that’s another thing. They really do love kissing me in public in a heavily homophobic country 😂

I think I spent the rest of the day just inhaling the sweater during class and giving it small kisses since I’m sick and don’t want to infect them. I gave it back and this mf INHALES ts like it’s cocaine 😭,like I’m just watching them and they‘re smiling at me while practically stuffing their face in it. I tell them I’m sick and they literally do not care 💔, they just hug me anyways and kiss me goodbye but I pushed them off (hopefully just light enough) because someone has to prevent the infection😔.

I know they’ve said in the past that they wanted my clothing as well which I’m more than happy to give 😌. They’ve also said that me being in their clothing affirms that I belong to them 😛

anyways I love them :D I really love them, I’m so fucking in love. Im thinking about just requesting of their sweater daily just so I can carry a piece of them around with me for 9 hours. I think I’ll do that, yes happiness is good 😌