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This goes for men and women. I’m 25 male. I hold myself to this same standard.

If body count didn’t matter then people would have no problem seeing their single mothers or sisters or even daughters get laid every week by a different man. The only people who say it doesn’t matter are people who have high body counts and don’t want to grow from their promiscuous lifestyles.

Anyone who says it doesn’t matter will immediately change their opinion the second they have a daughter and see men taking advantage of her. Sex is a spiritual bond, it gets encoded into your dna, and disturbs your chakra alignments when love and mind aren’t involved. This isn’t to shame people with high body counts but I’m tired of everyone saying only insecure men care. As someone who’s newly Christian, even when I was pagan following third eye beliefs which I still hold close, these things seriously mattered.

95% of men who hook up look down on the women and get a power trip off her and leave, and 95% of women (I may be wrong about this part) are just genuinely clueless that it is going on and just see “attractive dude” and want to experience despite his horribly degrading mindset associated with it.

I have turned down a handful of women who only wanted sex and broke up with my last girlfriend because her attitude towards sex was awful. It was super casual to her and just a fun time so we can “get off” on it. I don’t view it this way as a 25m male. You want to fuck whoever you want fine but don’t shame people who actually value themselves and don’t degrade themselves for other people’s experiences .

I have turned away women just for wanting casual sex. I don’t do casual sex I’m extremely spiritual and don’t want to exchange energy with people who see sex as a “casual experience” when \[to me\] it is a very spiritual bond that never goes away. I told a guy I know I expect the same with a women, and her having 1 or 2 flings at some point wouldn’t be a deal breaker but I told him because of my own standard for sex I would lightly expect the same with a women.

He basically said if a hot guy has flirted with her she’s going to hook up just because he’s attractive and I need to let go of that. I told him that’s disrespectful to approach a women for sex, etc… I think he was offended because he is to me a sleeze who gets what he wants from women then brags about them like trophy’s.

The point; am I shallow for having this spiritual sexual expectation when looking for a women? This is not meant to shame anyone I just hold myself to a standard and don’t break it and would expect the same in my partner. It’s very spiritual to me (not necessarily religious) but it is important to me as I feel it would strongly strengthen our bond.

I’m (25m), I feel like I’m getting old. I never had a real friend in my life. Every friend either stole from me, tried to get with my ex-girlfriend, or would talk shit about me the second someone they deemed popular came around.

More so, all I think about day and night is finding the right girl. Im worried I’ll reach adulthood and loose the opportunity to enjoy my youth with someone.

I have hobbies, I relatively enjoy my job-type. I have no supporting family and my Audhd makes everything straining and every day that passes I’m worried my youth will be gone and I’ll never get to experience the joy of it with someone/people. I have therapists, been to hospitals, overcame suicidal thoughts from over a decade of depression.

I even consider myself fairly attractive, I just honestly can’t imagine being with a beautiful girl that I can connect with in mind, body, and soul, or have any idea where I would meet like-minded friends.

Not sure if I’m looking for advice but I will absolutely take it, I just can’t deal with sitting here feeling like this.

I’m (25m), I feel like I’m getting old. I never had a real friend in my life. Every friend either stole from me, tried to get with my ex-girlfriend, or would talk shit about me the second someone they deemed popular came around.

More so, all I think about day and night is finding the right girl. Im worried I’ll reach adulthood and loose the opportunity to enjoy my youth with someone.

I have hobbies, I relatively enjoy my job-type. I have no supporting family and my Audhd makes everything straining and every day that passes I’m worried my youth will be gone and I’ll never get to experience the joy of it with someone/people. I have therapists, been to hospitals, overcame suicidal thoughts from over a decade of depression.

I even consider myself fairly attractive, I just honestly can’t imagine being with a beautiful girl that I can connect with in mind, body, and soul, or have any idea where I would meet like-minded friends.

Not sure if I’m looking for advice but I will absolutely take it, I just can’t deal with sitting here feeling like this.

To sum this up, people often suck other peoples energy to “boost” their own.

Could one however, choose to only take someone’s negative energy and convert it to light?

Example if someone is being very judgmental, I “vampire” the negative energy from the individual without taking the positive light from within, and convert it to positivity.

Personally; I prefer hyper-stimulation and have even done so while driving on the highway at night blasting music. But that’s just me.

I’m a male 25. Parents kicked me out of the house despite the fact I had a job. (Long story they are not healthy people).

I live in an expensive state and saving for an apartment can take ALONG time.

Do I have a chance at dating?

My mental health is very well, I am also super bohemian/hippie so living in my car doesn’t bother me but I have no friends and for years have been wanting to meet the right girl however I’m scared this will make it harder.

I’m hoping my young age would be beneficial 🤷‍♂️

I HATE working,
I would only do hobbies all day if I could,
I am much more bohemian styled and often times very much reject the “CEO-nature,”
Very anti-establishment not system oriented,
I’m very introverted,
I rely on logic for thought but demand emotional attachment to the thought,
NOT a workaholic,
I align much more with writing than I do math,
The only thing that I find to be true is that I keep 99% of people away from me and select a VERY small few to be trusted.

For reference I was born Jan. 17, don’t know what time.

I don’t mean your innermost conscious, I mean have you yourself spoken to an Angel and gotten verbal responses before?

Not asking anyone to “prove” it’s real I’ll take your response at face value, obviously in 99% of social circles; claiming you talked to an Angel no one would believe you.

Also what did you hear? What was the experience? Etc…

This is an open ended question;

I have done much research on Alister Crowley as well as Babalon and Babylon.

I was wondering if anyone else agrees with me however I strongly disagree with A.C.’s POV.

In my life being both for and opposed to Christianity, Babylon/Babalon for me as well as many others will always represent political corruption and selfish, lustful earthly desires that enact on taking [energy] from another human being for personal pleasure and power.

Personal opinion; any deity such as Babalon (riding a beast) would be more oriented not with loving fruitful/fertility but selfish desire and power, not being Mother Earth but more of Jezebel Spirit (or Lilith) or Asmodeus as opposed to a God/dess like Ishtar, Hekete, Athena, or Osiris.

Just something I disagree with Mr. Crowley on and curious if anyone else shares this view.

Extra information I align much with hermetics/alchemy/with heavy Christian orientation

I understand they are not necessarily I often do my rituals/work under no external influences so I’m not really looking for if it’s ok or not more YOUR specific experience/use while doing them.

For example I have [only] used THC for evocation of higher and lower beings to better communicate and focus towards their meaning.

What about you!? :)

Do you believe people sin and do evil by choice or do they act their ways simply due to ignorance?

I’m a mix of Qaballa-Ist, alchemist, gnostic, hermetic all sort of in one path of learning knowledge. And for years I can’t help but despise people who are asleep. Most people are lustful and selfish. [As I am someone who dresses very bohemian - man and stand out quite a bit] I noticed 90% of people judge unrighteously. My insecurities are unbothered by I often feel like [and this is sort of a joke] Harry Potter walking around in a muggle world and I can’t help but despise the muggles. Anyone else feel this way?