u/SleepDecent2948

so I’m gonna start off with I don't cheat. I have an anxious attachment style and I will become literally obsessed with my partner’s. to the point I’ll adopt their personality and style. then when things are over idk who I am and I’m just a Frankenstein mixture of all of my exes personalities. my partner will literally become my whole life. it’s unhealthy and often times I don't even realize I’m doing it.

i’m also obsessed with Michael Jackson. I do this similarly with him, just not in the same way because I don’t actually know him. I’m also talking to this guy and it’s getting really serious, like passionately making out and talking constantly serious. I’m worried i’ll repeat the same cycle. so I’ve been attaching myself to MJ in order to not suck this man of all his joy and life.

it’s like a cheat code. if I’m sucking the blood from the neck of someone else, I’ll be too full to suck his. metaphorically speaking anyways. so far it’s working, I think about this guy normally, I’ll still be flustered and giddy or whatever but now I have room to retreat if I want to. he knows I’m obsessed with MJ too, he even feeds into it by sending me reels daily and whatnot. he’s starting to learn about him too, we‘ll spit facts at each other like a “who knows him better” competition.

idk why he does that, I find it cute. when he mentioned MJ early on i was lil a STOP YOU LIKE HIM? and he admitted he only knew like 3 songs. so he’s clearly learning about him recently. but I feel so normal now, like I can give this guy just enough and take just enough, without the crazy. I‘m planning on keeping my ED and BPD on the down low until it gets to a point where it’s worth mentioning. I don’t want to scare him off, but I just cracked the code. Dating MJ in my head and dating this guy IRL

It’s a girl but it’s a mrs kipling situation so I still call him, him. But he’s big and greedy, he NEVER rejects food. but recently he’s been flat out refusing to eat. he’s around 6ish years old and almost entirely blind. my dad took him to an amphibian specialist last year who said he looks like it’s just old age causing the blindness, so I don’t know if that’s a reason he‘s not eating or if it’s just a sign of something else going on in his body.
But the way I feed him is I gently tap on the glass so he‘s aware, wiggle my finger in the water, and drop it in front of his face. recently I’ve tried just holding it right in front of his mouth but he just ”looks” at it then moves away.

he looks fine, he has his color, he’s plump, and responsive. But he hasnt eaten in like 9 days even though I still give him food. I put a little shell in his tank with some pellets snd I’ve been replacing them every other day just in case he decides to munch when he changes his mind or something.

but I’m starting to get concerned. He’s been pretty slow too. The tank is fine, water is good, everything seems to be normal besides him not eating and being slow. My parents think it’s just his time but who knows. Opinions?

just wanted to air my mind. I’ve never met a guy who just accepts the fact that I like to be asked before receiving affection. I’m impressed.

i genuinely loath physical touch but I don’t mind it from him

I wonder what they do with all the time they saved typing “ts”

so my little sister was getting a sleep study and my mom didn’t want me home alone. I visit my sister (21) often, we generally hang out a lot. so she offered to have me sleep over for a night. after that, she asked if I just wanted to stay all week. I said sure, we do this a lot anyways. but she recently got a puppy. the most misbehaved, loud, stinky, demon of a dog.

when she asked me to stay all week I was under the impression we were gonna just hang out and what not. NOPE. she said “I need you to watch my dog while I’m at work and clean the house. zae will give you $20 for cleaning” (thats the first time they’ve paid me to clean) okay, fine. but this dog pisses me off TO THE BONE. so i’m cleaning and doing dishes while she’s at work. it’s loud, i cant hear the dog very well.

so i turn the corner to check on her, MY COKE CAN IS ON THE FLOOR, SODA IS ON THE TABLE ALL OVER IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS, AND SHES FUCKING DRINKING IT. so I put her in the cage and clean up. she’s barking non stop per usual. it’s genuinely hurting my ears. so after that I call my sister to let her know she made a mess and I’m drying the papers. when she goes “she’s just a baby she doesn’t know” ok cool, just telling you she’s being bad. so she says “take her out of the cage and put her on the leash” i do so, she escapes it not once, not twice, but 4 TIMES. so I put her back in the cage, my sister comes home and she’s all mad because I put her back.

now i’m doing her a favor watching this brat, she’s not even thanking me OR paying me. And EVERY morning since I’ve been here she leaves for work at 6, fine right? But she wakes ME up to feed the dog and take her potty at 6. Why can’t she do it? Who knows. But last night she asked how my day was, i said it was bad. She asked why and I listed that the dog chews everything, bites, barks and screams non stop, drank my soda, her fur is piss stained and she keeps trying to lay on me, she runs between my legs when I walk, and more.

so she goes “well she’s just puppy you have to do this and that and whatever” and I go “I know what to do but she’s still pissing me off”. Then she goes “well I’m telling you how to-“ and I go “I know. But you asked how my day was and I said it was bad and you asked why so I’m telling you. I know how to handle a dog” then she goes “you shouldn’t get pets when you move out of moms” and I said “I have 2. And I’ll do what I want thank you”

then she goes to bed all pissy like it’s not my fault your dog is the most annoying, mischievous animal i have ever had the misfortune of watching. And I’m a cat/dog sitter and trainer, I KNOW animals. I’m never watching this dog ever again. But this morning she woke me up again to watch it and she’s at therapy right now. But my mom called me and said “whats going on F wants you to come home. She says you’re pissing her off” EXCUSE ME??? IM PISSING HER OFF?? IVE BEEN WATCHING THIS FUCK ASS DOG FOR A WEEK WITH ZERO PATIENCE LEFT IM NIT BEING PAID AND I DONT EVEN GET A THANK YOU AND IM PISSING YOU OFF??????? FUCK YOU

i’m deadass ghosting this bitch every fuck8ng time I come over I clean her dirty ass house and now Shes using me as a free dog sitter for this dog that I genuinely hate. now I NEVER raise my voice at an animal. but when I tell you I’ve yelled at this dog at least 50 times I’m so fucking serious. I can’t do this

I have 3 medications for depression, sertraline, mirt, and guanfacine. I’ve been only taking mirt cuz I’m too lazy to take the others, but my mom keeps getting me refills.

so i pop a mirt before bed cuz it’s mostly for sleep, i cant sleep without it right? well turns out I’ve been taking the sertraline instead of the mirt on accident for the past week. and I’ve been sleeping just fine.

before the med i would go days with no sleep, but I guess I don’t need it anymore? idk. when I know I don’t take it, it cant sleep. but when I think I’m taking it, I do. weird.

however, I noticed that I’ve been unusually joyful this week. maybe I should keep taking sertraline. I mean I can actually tolerate my siblings now!

I got him in a pair almost 6 years ago, already grown. they were in a hallmark card store and they looked super unhealthy. they were in the smallest tank it was ridiculous and the water was so nasty. I had never owned frogs before so I bought them on impulse. I didn’t expect them to live so long, and one didn’t. but Beef is stubborn and healthy now, i just know his time is near.

i don’t want to give money to that place I got them from as they clearly don’t care about the frogs. but at the same time I know those frogs need a good home. should I buy from them again or go somewhere ethical? I feel like going somewhere else doesn't help the frogs in that place though. but at the same time if I do buy them, they’ll restock. idk I’m conflicted

so thats a metaphor, I don't even have a dick. but I’m homeschooled, I’m also a senior. I set my alarm to 10AM every day, but my mom will spam text me then eventually come to my room and tell me to wake up. I keep telling her I have my own alarm but she says “I don’t trust it”. (Yet she thinks her way of waking me up is reliable??)

last night I lost my phone downstairs, everyone was sleeping so I let it go. its not like anybody will call it. well this morning I overslept an hour because I didn’t have my phone. my mom stormed into my room and said “THIS IS WHY YOU’RE FAILING” (the lowest grade i have is a B 🫩). then she goes “i woke you up like 5 times!” I said “um no you didn’t because I’d obviously be awake if you did”

then she goes “I texted you!” so I said “texting somebody will not wake them up, thats common sense” (now I know I was giving attitude but bro called me a failure when I’m actually graduating and she never did 💀). so she says “you always sleep in” and I said “no I sleep until 10. YOU want me to wake up at 6 when I’m homeschooled. it’s not like I’m gonna be late for class. get off my dick”

i’m doing really well in school by the way, so it’s not like it’s the end of the world if I sleep till 10. But she didn’t respond, she just looked pissed and walked away. She’s so dramatic it’s exhausting. she‘s so full of it I can’t help but sass back. For example yesterday she ordered Red Robin’s, I got a salad and I asked for no meat. When I got it there was bacon bits. I’m vegetarian. when she got mad they fucked up her order i said “yeah they but bacon bits on mine too” and she looks at me like it’s my fault

then she says “you didn’t say no bacon” um “I said no meat”. “BE SPECIFIC NEXT TIME” GANG LAST TIME I CHECKED BACON IS MEAT??? JUST APOLOGIZE FOR FORGETTING IDK?

or when she came home yesterday while I was babysitting and doing school, she kept YAPPING. She didn’t take the hint when I was very obviously ignoring her and typing but slightly nodding as she spoke. But when she was done she said “whats wrong?” I said “I’m working” and she makes that 🙄 face and goes “well SORRRY”. Bitch it’s not my fault you’re not self aware, i don’t come up to you when you’re working and yap for 5 minutes

I’ve been on remeron for about 2 years and I sweat so easily. specifically when I’m sleeping, I’ll wake up drenched in sweat and I have to shower immediately. it’s really annoying, I never used to sweat this much. Is there a way to help it?

my sister and I take turns washing dishes. every load we switch. my sister‘s dad has 50/50 custody so she’s only here every other week. so i do dishes more than her, since when she’s gone theres only me doing them.

yesterday my mom said “someone needs to do them dishes” I said “i did them yesterday” and my mom goes “well you barely did any” WHAT DO YOU MEAN??? I FILLED THE WHOLE DISH WASHER. so when I made that point and said A should do them, my mom scoffed and said “Vicky just do them”. even my sister was annoyed at her.

she then accused me of just restarting the dishwasher with already clean dishes in it. she never even cleans herself, we clean HER mess. is anybody else’s parents this unreasonable?? makes me want to rip my hair out. Maybe she could do the dishes for once instead of leaving entire bowls of food in the sink not even bothering to empty them.

now the episode itself isn’t bad, however I think it wasn’t the best idea to have the plot be going to your teachers house for a sleepover. in the real world thats extremely inappropriate and young children watch this show, I can’t help but think this is a very bad example and it normalizes such things.

imagine a teacher asked a student or a group of them to spend the night at their house alone for a grade? and for the child to think it’s normal because they saw it on a tv show? I may be reading too much into it but I just watched the episode today and it leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

I know realistically a parent would say no to their child doing such things, but imagine the kid just says no and doesn’t think anything of it, and thus doesn’t mention it to anybody? And that teacher gets away with that weird request? Idk I think they should have went about the episode in a different way, for example staying in character during the school day, AT school.

if you’re above the age of 10 and you use the wrong ”yours” ”theirs” etc. or if you write or say mine like “mines” gtfo. I especially hate it when people try to treat others like they’re dumb while simultaneously using the wrong yours/theirs

like it’s not funny anymore you just ruined the comment. but I do chuckle when someone has like 300 likes and does it