i feel so ashamed and guilty of myself i feel like i disappointed so many people. i just ruined myself completely i feel horrible. i sent nudes and i shouldnt have i feel so awful it feels so gross i have a chemistry test on wednesday and i have studied nothing at all i cant stop this is so so fucking weird i hate this i hate him
i miss calling him everyday. last week we talked for the first time after weeks (cuz of tests lol) and we sexted but im so sad cuz it feels like hes using me js to get off. he told me he isnt the typa person to be horny and js leave but it dure does feel like it. i just want him to call, i dont want anything like this idk why he is doing this to me and playing with my feelings. :(. im so unbelievably sad right now he called me so many pet names
i feel like im in a constant cycle of missing him and absolutely hating him. it feels so so suffocating ive done so much and made so much progress but i still find myself wanting him.