Confession…I despise couples
So this has been an issue for a while now and I’m pretty sure this is because I have unresolved trauma when it comes to being wanted and abandoned—but, I hate couples. I hate seeing them in public, I hate seeing people talk about their gfs/bfs lovingly, I hate when they kiss, I hate when someone else is just happier than me. It’s like every time I see a couple something starts EATING at me.
Especially when they’re being affectionate.
I’ve had a few relationships in the past. They were often short-lived due to tragedy, incompatibility or I simply had to cut someone off for being toxic.
I try to focus on other things, trying to build friendships, my own life and I do, but after a while I just get so tired of being alone. I’m starting to think it isn’t a very healthy reaction to get deathly jealous every time I see a couple who isn’t even bothering me. I don’t wanna feel this way but I have no control over it.