u/StarSpectore

Im in the waiting room at the gendercare hospital. It's my first appointment. Waited a year. Wish me luck bruddas 🙌

I'm on my way from Ostend to Antwerp for a hospital appointment. In the train I realized I forgot my ID. The waiting lists for my appointment was really long so I don't want to miss this out.

I have clear pictures of my ID front and back which I took yesterday, would this be enough for registration? If not what are my options and what is going to happen?

I just sent them an email with the explanation and photos but reponse times are between 1-7 days.

I also don't have Itsme but I'm currently trying to get my hands on a kaartlezer so I can verify my ID through my bank.

What can I do?

Advice is appreciated

I have such a fear of photos that since 13 I actively started skipping class on picture day, not knowing when it would be or even having a place to stay around considering my mom thought I was at school, I stayed outside in the cold whole morning to noon. My last picture day was at 12.

I dont know why, but I felt and feel so ashamed of my face. It's so normal to take selfies or pose for a picture in public now, but Lord knows I would never hav the courage to do such thing.

1. Fear of seeing my own reflection

2. Fear of people staring at me thinking "why tf dis ugly ass dude making pictures with that deformed ass face"

3. My face is to damn ugly for the picture lmao

So recently I got into handhelds. I don't know much about them other than the basics. Today I got myself an odin pro for €105 secondhand, but unused. Only after buying I found out that it had been discontinued by the company. Since I can't seem to find much about it without really digging it brought up some concerns in me. Im wondering if 105 is a good deal or if I paid too much because I can't seem to find any price tags linked to this model.

I would also like to get some in depth feedback about this model from people who own it, and I'd like to see what games you guys have on them and how they run. For context I ordered it yesterday evening so I don't have it yet.

I just sent my mom a message about how I will be cutting her off in the near future. I came out 9 years ago as a trans male. She was in denial. Saying it would be a phase. She asked me to wait with procedures until I'm 18, just to see if I'd grow out of it. I ended up never growing out of it.

Instead I grew up glued to my phone, addicted to being online where I wasnt 'a girl'. Online felt safe, as I could be the male I felt I was. Fast forward, I'm writing this post from the psych ward. In my message I wrote; the reason I'm sitting in this psych ward today is partly because I grew up unable to be loved for who I am.

I have been socially transitioning since 2025 and it was the first time in life I started to feel alive. But my mom...all she did was begging me for more time to adjust claiming every parent would find it hard. I gave you 9 years, to learn to address me as a male. In fact I never behaved like a girl in my life to begin with, so I dont know what the issue is. I never wore dresses or liked pink or whatever. The signs were there since I was 6. What 'daughter' are you gonna miss??

Over a few weeks I will have my first appointment at a gender care hospital, after waiting for so long. I feel free. About to be relieved from a past and body that never felt like me.

I said, I love you mom, I gave you time to adjust but now it's my time to freely be who I am. I'll be there in case of emergencies but once I live alone I'll cut contact with both of you, am sorry

Yes, I know. ”psych ward” is enough to make many believe I’m imagining it.

I’m not. I’m not hospitalized for anything related to psychosis and never had such thing in my life.

So I’m 100% this is real.

For context:

I’m in a unit with 20-30 people. Most of the rooms here consist of rooms for two people and every room has its own bathroom. I however have been moved from a shared room to a room alone a week ago. We’re supposed to be in our rooms by ”11p.m”. From this hour there is also a nightshifte nurse who is supposed to check the rooms a few times throughout the night.

At first, I noticed nothing unusual. But 4 days ago when waking up I started noticing small things like the toilet lid being up, while I always keep it down. I rarely pee, usually two times a day and never at night. So I’m 100% sure that I close the lid every time I go.

This kept happening over the course of 3 days, but this morning I woke up seeing a piece of toilet paper floating in the toilet, confirming that some had used it without flushing. Perhaps to avoid waking me up. I have no history of sleep walking.

Then, I also woke up to find a half opened bag of chips I had stored in my closet the evening before, now barely with anything left in it. I left the bag of chips filled for 1/2 and when I opened my closet I noticed it had reduced and only 1/4 seemed to be left.

All the rooms are connected, so you can easily enter each room with no problem, except for getting caught by the night shift nurse. But maybe it is the night shift nurse.

I feel like im going more crazy than when I came in. What could be a possible explanation to this?