u/SuperRutabaga6518

i am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. got my associates. started uni after transferring, commuting every day. last fall was rough i was working 50 hour weeks on a 223 schedule doing two classes. spring time i started working remotely. but this summer i started getting really sick again. these flare ups have been a mystery but it’s been so bad i can’t do any of my work or concentrate on anything, retain information because of the pain. i already had to take an I/IF for two classes. I’ve been in college since 2022. and really am starting to become resentful 1) about being sick 2) about not dedicating more time when i was younger to learning more. now i feel so behind and my illness set me back even more. i’m debating dropping out if my midterms come back and it turns out i did shit, and working/saving money and moving in for a bit with my friend at USC los angeles (off campus) as a reset and to figure out what i need to do.

alright basically last week my urgent care doc made me go for imaging to the ER cause he was worried the symptoms i presented with pointed to my kidneys. i didn’t know they were gonna fucking admit me and have me on an iv and everything which whatever i’ve had small intestinal attacks before that have landed me in the ER so im used to it.

Anyways there was NO point in sedating me mind you it’s not like my pain was super bad i just wanted the stupid fucking ct scan done. there for 8 hours. post painful pelvic swab i’ve ever had done.

then they give me droperidol before my CT scan. oh my god. i wanted to jump out of my skin. it’s been just over a week and im still traumatized thinking about it. my pain has gotten substantially worse and ive been feeling mentally like shit on top of physically. now i don’t know if it’s moreso due to whatever mystery condition. but i’m not dismissing the fact that i do truly believe i am allergic to that medication and had them list it as such. the hospital was fucking useless. i had to tell my pcp to put it on my record. what a joke. sharp pains i’m getting to this day all over even sometimes in my bad knee and it wants to give out. like someone is driving an ice pick through it.

So I go to urgent care yesterday evening first because I believe I have blood in my urine accompanied by lower right back pain for weeks and the doctor made me go to ER for imaging. This is like my 3rd CT I’ve ever had which scares me bc the amount of radiation for someone my age.

My mother shows up and we’re waiting for hours. I finally get a room. They do a pap smear and never has a pap hurt that bad. I’m usually good with needles but idk why I was so overstimulated by the IV and blood tests along with having my new Invisalign in, it was all just freaking me out. They give me I believe midazolam. It was horrible. I feel totally out of control and so uncomfortable and want to rip my skin off as I’m fighting staying awake. But I couldn’t fall asleep. As soon as the nurses leave I start sobbing to my mom just saying over and over how I just wanted to go home.

So I try to sleep and could not. My legs feel so restless. They finally get me to the CT. Contrast felt more intense than what I remember. Then we wait another like hour and a half for results and another half hour before being discharged.

We get home at 3 am and my heart would not stop racing I thought I was going to die. Didn’t fall asleep until 5 woke up around 9 but felt better and slept until 12. When I woke up then I had a fast heart rate again. I still have anxiety and a general pit in my stomach feeling along with restlessness and nonstop moving my limbs mostly legs. I’m just frustrated and need to vent. I’ve never been so uncomfortable during/after an ER visit before.

**I came across a old telecom circuit by Ericsson specs: TvFU1130007 R6 Pcb Card Rofu 131 0007/2, R8A**

**I’m an EE student and have dabbled in FPGAs but there’s not much I can do with this as is, to my knowledge. It’s not like running texas instruments fpgas, finding the drivers etc. So I’m wondering where to start studying more about this board and ideas on how to repurpose it? Don’t know much about telecom.**

I came across a old telecom circuit by Ericsson specs: TvFU1130007 R6 Pcb Card Rofu 131 0007/2, R8A

I’m an EE student and have dabbled in FPGAs but there’s not much I can do with this as is, to my knowledge. It’s not like running texas instruments fpgas, finding the drivers etc. So I’m wondering where to start studying more about this board and ideas on how to repurpose it? Don’t know much about telecom.

22f genetic disorder that causes shit health and likely causing mysterious immune system flareups that happen every few months. always starts with back pain, then nausea and pain all over abdomen, localized in different areas, vomiting, fatigue, and causes me to just be really depressed and low energy for weeks. and i mean several weeks. i’ve had chest pain and tightness for weeks. cardiac markers normal. all this and i was admitted to the er right after episode peaked and then i get broken up with days later. while trying to juggle working still while ill and two summer classes. i genuinely just am at a loss and sometimes feel like taking my own life. i can’t live my life being mentally physically in pain. it’s not a life worth living. and i know so many people have it much worse. but i feel as if even medical professionals don’t take me seriously because i don’t appear as if im in pain. i try and stay positive but its just so hard and im sick of trying.

My professor gave many students an incomplete for this course as many of us did not have the time to meet his expectations for how much time this course ate up. You may be thinking this is on behalf of the student. But wait.

Long story short: This professor has had MANYYY students complain about this course and its expectations (moreso his and his grading method) to the dean over several years. They won't do anything about this. But its required for engineering students.

Expectations: Matlab and Excel assignments (you think oh not too bad right?) HOWEVER, you are expected to resubmit each assignment, I'm not even kidding, at least 5 or 6 times to achieve a decent score. There are 8 matlab assignments and 8 excel assignments. I follow all of his comments after each grading. I go back to the assignment and look at the expectations. I don't know what else he wants from me. I am not the first, nor will i be the last to air my grievances about this.

Example: because my gridlines weren't thick enough to his liking and he wanted a variable renamed. A 5/20. On my fifth attempt. He said he is grading this one more time. I'm going to lose my shit on him and send him a very pissed off email. Also battling potential hyperthyroidism right now so I am exhausted and so fucking over this!

basically boyfriends college had a festival thing a couple months ago before the semester ended. i drove two hours the night before and stayed over. had fun with him and his friends the night before, but in the morning people were drinking at the apartments in the am before the festival and i joined hanging out but didnt really drink cause i had to drive. i wasn’t having a good time and went home. (people were drunk at 11 am and he and his friends were on acid and coke i was stone cold sober and everyone at his college except for a few people are so fucking annoyingly pretentious and were lowkey rude to me so i wanted to leave asap)

he and his friends later that night (im home at this point) meet a girl 19f they befriended but she was so drunk they had to help her walk back to her dorm like half way. she gave my boyfriend fucking xanax. i was pissed cause already i don’t like her character and that just set me off but i didn’t blow up on my boyfriend cause like what can i do about that?

anyways following week he gets back he tells me about the xanax and if i’d be okay with him and his friend taking it (even if i was there) and i said absolutely not. i can’t lie i kinda indirectly attacked the girl when we were on the phone talking about the party, saying she has no survival instincts etc but i got so pissed at this point i told him it’s retarded and that’s why. mind you my boyfriend has always gotten straight As and has a perfect gpa practically. it’s just 1) i think xanax recreationally is retarded. 2) i don’t trust the girl he got it from

the other day i asked out of curiosity what he did with them and he said he took them like last month. i expressed to him today when we had a talk i was upset he didn’t tell me because i feel like my opinion didn’t matter regardless so there was no point in asking me. and i don’t trust people who do pills esp if they give them away. he understood my point and said he wouldn’t again.

here’s the part that pisses me off. he was explaining his reasoning and i asked if he was disappointed i said no and he says he thinks that was part of it so he decided to do it anyways. BUT he also says it’s not from a stranger and someone he considers a friend. deep down im still irked by him saying that and wish i spoke up earlier because SHE IS NOT YOUR FRIEND YOU DO NOT KNOW HER! like oh my god you met her one night and that was it. nor do i WANT them to be friends.

my question is should i bring it up again? and is it worth expressing to him i don’t want him to be friends with her when he goes back this upcoming semester? (it’s a super small college…)

Guys I actually suck so hard at differential equations and need the absolute best resources. I'm kind of on a time crunch and stressed too (i love adhd). I feel like no matter what I cannot wrap my brain around diff eq and my professor chooses to choose the oddest functions and NOTHING is in terms of x and/or y which makes it a bitch we're using f and t for everything. help.

long story short he has two friends from
college who are dating and are visiting him tomorrow driving 1:45 ish hours to see him. the plan is staying over cause the long drive. they want to all do acid and hang out during the day. i’ve known his friends have had threesomes with other people (not my boyfriend but one of his other college friends) but what i DIDNT know is two times they did it while he stayed over said friends house one time and quite frankly i find that disgusting. out of all the nights you have a guest over? ew. anyways i expressed to him i want to trust them but i don’t know them well (met them like twice and hung out) and he understood but was like well they have to stay over. so idk im trying to not freak out about tomorrow but what do you think? i don’t want to break up over this and his friends don’t tell other people about their sex life/threesomes so bf said don’t bring it up to them out of anyone. but i don’t know if it’s something i can get past especially since he’s going back to campus (a few hour drive) in the fall with them and i don’t trust people who have threesomes/open rs stuff even as friends.