u/Super_Brilliant_1893

I had some unoleasant experiences, which people treated me shitty and show grunted faces when they look at me. I dont want to tell the whole story of this because it kinda long and depressive to be honest.

I am just locked in my head, repeating all the bad experiences i had, i feel like i am in a loop of this.

I have important exams that i should be studying to, i have to lock in, but i just cant.

How to cheer yourself up and try to forget about all the bad things that happened to you?

Also if someone now a mental professional healthcare that i can contact anonymously and is free, please tell me about it.

Hello guys,

I am looking for research opportunities in IM in cardiology or Pediatrics.

I have research experiences, worked on SRMA, and an expert in data analysis.

Please comment or DM if you have something available.

I had some unoleasant experiences, which people treated me shitty and show grunted faces when they look at me. I dont want to tell the whole story of this because it kinda long and depressive to be honest.

I am just locked in my head, repeating all the bad experiences i had, i feel like i am in a loop of this.

I have important exams that i should be studying to, i have to lock in, but i just cant.

How to cheer yourself up and try to forget about all the bad things that happened to you?

Also if someone now a mental professional healthcare that i can contact anonymously and is free, please tell me about it.

I’m in a really difficult place right now and I don’t know how to move forward.

During college, I went through years of feeling excluded and rejected. I was mocked by people I considered my friends, and I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. Instead, I became quieter and started isolating myself.

Over time, I felt like people saw me negatively. I felt judged, unwanted, and like I didn’t belong. I stopped engaging in social activities, didn’t attend gatherings, didn’t build many connections, and focused mostly on surviving and getting through my studies.

I did graduate, but instead of feeling relieved, I feel stuck. It has been around 6 months since graduation and I still feel trapped in those memories. My mind keeps replaying painful moments from college, especially moments where I felt humiliated, rejected, or like people were looking down on me.

The hardest part is seeing other people from my class moving forward, building friendships, careers, and lives, while I feel like I missed an important part of growing up. I feel like I lost years where I should have been developing confidence, social skills, hobbies, and my personality.

Even some of the people who hurt me are doing well now, and I struggle with resentment because it feels like they moved on while I’m still carrying the impact of what happened.

I don’t want to hate people. I don’t want revenge. I just want to feel normal again. I want to be able to focus on my future, study properly, make connections, and feel comfortable being myself.

My biggest struggle now is that I cannot stop thinking about the past. My brain keeps replaying those memories, and it affects my ability to focus, study, and move forward.

Another thing that scares me is going back to the same community where many of these experiences happened. It is a close society where people know each other and talk about each other, and I may have to return there again. I’m afraid of facing the same people or feeling judged again.

I also struggle with something else: sometimes even strangers seem to react negatively toward me. Sometimes I feel like people look at me with dislike, laugh at me, or don’t want to interact with me. Whether it is because of my past experiences, my appearance, my body language, or something else, it hurts deeply.

For people who have experienced rejection, bullying, loneliness, or feeling like they are disliked:

How do you react when someone laughs at you, ignores you, or seems to dislike you?

How do you stop taking it personally and continue living your life?

How do you rebuild yourself after years of feeling unwanted?

How do you return to a place where you feel people have already judged you?

I’m looking for advice from people who have been through something similar and learned how to move forward.

I’m in a really difficult place right now and I don’t know how to move forward.

During college, I went through years of feeling excluded and rejected. I was mocked by people I considered my friends, and I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. Instead, I became quieter and started isolating myself.

Over time, I felt like people saw me negatively. I felt judged, unwanted, and like I didn’t belong. I stopped engaging in social activities, didn’t attend gatherings, didn’t build many connections, and focused mostly on surviving and getting through my studies.

I did graduate, but instead of feeling relieved, I feel stuck. It has been around 6 months since graduation and I still feel trapped in those memories. My mind keeps replaying painful moments from college, especially moments where I felt humiliated, rejected, or like people were looking down on me.

The hardest part is seeing other people from my class moving forward, building friendships, careers, and lives, while I feel like I missed an important part of growing up. I feel like I lost years where I should have been developing confidence, social skills, hobbies, and my personality.

Even some of the people who hurt me are doing well now, and I struggle with resentment because it feels like they moved on while I’m still carrying the impact of what happened.

I don’t want to hate people. I don’t want revenge. I just want to feel normal again. I want to be able to focus on my future, study properly, make connections, and feel comfortable being myself.

My biggest struggle now is that I cannot stop thinking about the past. My brain keeps replaying those memories, and it affects my ability to focus, study, and move forward.

Another thing that scares me is going back to the same community where many of these experiences happened. It is a close society where people know each other and talk about each other, and I may have to return there again. I’m afraid of facing the same people or feeling judged again.

I also struggle with something else: sometimes even strangers seem to react negatively toward me. Sometimes I feel like people look at me with dislike, laugh at me, or don’t want to interact with me. Whether it is because of my past experiences, my appearance, my body language, or something else, it hurts deeply.

For people who have experienced rejection, bullying, loneliness, or feeling like they are disliked:

How do you react when someone laughs at you, ignores you, or seems to dislike you?

How do you stop taking it personally and continue living your life?

How do you rebuild yourself after years of feeling unwanted?

How do you return to a place where you feel people have already judged you?

I’m looking for advice from people who have been through something similar and learned how to move forward.

I’m in a really difficult place right now and I don’t know how to move forward.

During college, I went through years of feeling excluded and rejected. I was mocked by people I considered my friends, and I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. Instead, I became quieter and started isolating myself.

Over time, I felt like people saw me negatively. I felt judged, unwanted, and like I didn’t belong. I stopped engaging in social activities, didn’t attend gatherings, didn’t build many connections, and focused mostly on surviving and getting through my studies.

I did graduate, but instead of feeling relieved, I feel stuck. It has been around 6 months since graduation and I still feel trapped in those memories. My mind keeps replaying painful moments from college, especially moments where I felt humiliated, rejected, or like people were looking down on me.

The hardest part is seeing other people from my class moving forward, building friendships, careers, and lives, while I feel like I missed an important part of growing up. I feel like I lost years where I should have been developing confidence, social skills, hobbies, and my personality.

Even some of the people who hurt me are doing well now, and I struggle with resentment because it feels like they moved on while I’m still carrying the impact of what happened.

I don’t want to hate people. I don’t want revenge. I just want to feel normal again. I want to be able to focus on my future, study properly, make connections, and feel comfortable being myself.

My biggest struggle now is that I cannot stop thinking about the past. My brain keeps replaying those memories, and it affects my ability to focus, study, and move forward.

Another thing that scares me is going back to the same community where many of these experiences happened. It is a close society where people know each other and talk about each other, and I may have to return there again. I’m afraid of facing the same people or feeling judged again.

I also struggle with something else: sometimes even strangers seem to react negatively toward me. Sometimes I feel like people look at me with dislike, laugh at me, or don’t want to interact with me. Whether it is because of my past experiences, my appearance, my body language, or something else, it hurts deeply.

For people who have experienced rejection, bullying, loneliness, or feeling like they are disliked:

How do you react when someone laughs at you, ignores you, or seems to dislike you?

How do you stop taking it personally and continue living your life?

How do you rebuild yourself after years of feeling unwanted?

How do you return to a place where you feel people have already judged you?

I’m looking for advice from people who have been through something similar and learned how to move forward.

I’m in a really difficult place right now and I don’t know how to move forward.

During college, I went through years of feeling excluded and rejected. I was mocked by people I considered my friends, and I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. Instead, I became quieter and started isolating myself.

Over time, I felt like people saw me negatively. I felt judged, unwanted, and like I didn’t belong. I stopped engaging in social activities, didn’t attend gatherings, didn’t build many connections, and focused mostly on surviving and getting through my studies.

I did graduate, but instead of feeling relieved, I feel stuck. It has been around 6 months since graduation and I still feel trapped in those memories. My mind keeps replaying painful moments from college, especially moments where I felt humiliated, rejected, or like people were looking down on me.

The hardest part is seeing other people from my class moving forward, building friendships, careers, and lives, while I feel like I missed an important part of growing up. I feel like I lost years where I should have been developing confidence, social skills, hobbies, and my personality.

Even some of the people who hurt me are doing well now, and I struggle with resentment because it feels like they moved on while I’m still carrying the impact of what happened.

I don’t want to hate people. I don’t want revenge. I just want to feel normal again. I want to be able to focus on my future, study properly, make connections, and feel comfortable being myself.

My biggest struggle now is that I cannot stop thinking about the past. My brain keeps replaying those memories, and it affects my ability to focus, study, and move forward.

Another thing that scares me is going back to the same community where many of these experiences happened. It is a close society where people know each other and talk about each other, and I may have to return there again. I’m afraid of facing the same people or feeling judged again.

I also struggle with something else: sometimes even strangers seem to react negatively toward me. Sometimes I feel like people look at me with dislike, laugh at me, or don’t want to interact with me. Whether it is because of my past experiences, my appearance, my body language, or something else, it hurts deeply.

For people who have experienced rejection, bullying, loneliness, or feeling like they are disliked:

How do you react when someone laughs at you, ignores you, or seems to dislike you?

How do you stop taking it personally and continue living your life?

How do you rebuild yourself after years of feeling unwanted?

How do you return to a place where you feel people have already judged you?

I’m looking for advice from people who have been through something similar and learned how to move forward.

I have begun studying for step 1 from first aid and b&b videos, and trying to solve uworld. I hava completes three systems but dont remember much really😅.

I am looking for study partners that are in the same position, so we can encourage each other and hold each other accountable.

I think we can create a group in discord.

So i have just graduated from med school, and now i am in my prep for step 1, with interest in applying for internal medicine or pediatrics.

So regarding my medical journey, if i have been honest i didnt engage in any extracurricular activities during my med school, as i just focused on my studies.

But i have published one research and now have 5 under review, including a SRMA, all in top journals, and in all i was the first author. Also i am currently working on two more studies.

So basically i want to ask if i have a chance in matching and if my CV is strong enough, since i kinda regret that i spent all my college years just studying and didnt really get exposure or make good connections.

I am kinda in stress right now and it affect my prep for step 1, so any information would be great.

Please, if you have any advice tell me, you dont have to be kind😅, just tell me the truth, so i can start working on it and on my CV.