u/Sure-Cauliflower-916

Heyaa !! okay so I mean I don't actually take this stuff seriously and just love to do it all for funsies c:, but honestly I'm genuinely curious now because I've been typed as like 4 different personality types- ENFP, ENTP, ESTP, and ESFP.

Like I relate to E(N)FP partly because I DO like thinking about my future and planning future possibilities cause it's fun to do, though I'd say for the most part like in everyday life I much rather just live in the moment. I've always been a very adventurous and thrill-seeking person and I just need to get out and experience the outside world as much as possible.

I do love talking and exploring all kindsa theories like an ENTP, but I wouldn't really consider myself much of a "debater", I feel I'm more like just a person who loves to have fun for the hell of it, and I definitely resonate more with the "performer/entertainer" label for ESFP than the ENTP "debater", I'm just a drama queen LOL !

ESTP is where I'm kinda most conflicted. I relate to both ESTP and ESFP kinda, however the one part that makes me more unsure is that people say that ESFPs always try to avoid conflict​ and are too nice to hurt people's feelings, which is NOT me at all. Yes, I AM a very empathetic person and am one of the most emotionally receptive people I know, though I do NOT back down when there's a conflict, I WILL state my facts and put someone on their place when it's deserved LMAO.

So I dunno!! What would you ESFP peeps say?? X/

I love my mom, I am grateful for everything she's done for me to raise me, but god sometimes I can't fucking stand her when we get into arguments.

We just had an argument and she was talking about how "I rarely ever do/get anything for myself!!" and she was yelling at me because she said when she goes grocery shopping that it's "all about you guys" (me and my brother) and I'm just like "Wtf are you talking about?? Who says??" because oh she lets me and my brother get like 6 things we want from the store.

But my whole point is that I don't understand what the hell she means by "It's all about us", like as if we're these spoiled kids who badger her to get us things, because we're not. Hell, it's very rare when I ever ask for anything​. The only times I actually ask for something is for my birthday and for Christmas, and even on those those days I ask for like- 3 things maximum.

And I don't understand why she constantly complains about how she never gets herself anything (Which I know damn well is fucking bullshit, she's always ordering herself shit on Amazon), like okay then do it?? Nobody's telling you you can't do anything for yourself?? And it's not like we're broke either and can't afford anything, I know very well she can afford to get herself things (Hence the Amazon orders lmao).

What gets me too is how she holds that against me by saying "I'm always having to focus on you guys!!". I get it, she wants the best for her kids and works hard to do it, but it's the fact that she's holding that against me like as if that's my fault. It's not my fucking fault I need to eat, it's not my fault I need to clean myself, sleep, have clothes, etc. I'm so fucking sorry for having human needs.

I'm 16F and super extroverted and it fucking sucks. We're in a very digital age and everybody anymore's either introverted or has social anxiety (or both), and it feels like a pain in the ass just to try to socialize with anyone my age.

My parents never allowed me to have any social media besides Youtube, Pinterest, art sites, this (the sub won't allow me to mention it directly Lol), and I never really played video games growing up either, so I'm not as addicted to the internet/online as other people my age, who doomscroll on Tiktok and play video games like 24/7.

And because I'm not as addicted to the internet, I'm always trying to go out and do something. But sometimes I'm kinda forced to stay inside because I'm always alone with nobody to spend time with.

I try to ignore it and just continue doing my thing, even if it's lonely, but it really gets sad and empty just talking to nothing but the air all day.

I hate being a teenager in this digital age. I can't stand how my generation can't go 3 seconds in a face-to-face interaction without being on the verge of a panic attack. I don't care what anyone says, It's actually fucking pathetic, and I really hope it changes soon.

*Sigh*. There's my garbage rant/vent. Bye. I guess.

I feel like being an extrovert but always being forced to be isolated is a huge contributer to my depression and lack of energy or motivation.

I notice that whenever I go to hang out with my friends, or to even just go outside to do something fun, my energy comes striking back almost immediately, and my mood uplifts 10x more.

But then when I spend time alone, even for just one day, I feel very.. empty, lonely, and get depressed really easily. I can't stand being alone and doing nothing, I feel like I HAVE to have constant stimulation to be happy or satisfied.

But lately, for months now, I've just been basically forced to be all alone and isolated, and the only people I ever talk to really are my mom and brother, who I don't even talk to that much either.

I rarely ever see my friends, and they rarely ever even talk or reach out to me, and I feel like I'm always the only one actually trying. But the few friends who actually do reach out to me, they always either live too far away or have other shit on their plate to deal with that restricts us from ever spending time with each other.

I really hate being an extrovert. It really is not as easy as everyone else thinks it is. I'm envious of introverts because they can be all alone for like months straight and it wouldn't affect them at all. Meanwhile I go just one day without going out or socializing with anyone and I feel like I could die of boredom.

I have very strong Italian and Mexican heritage, but for some reason my mom always tries to deny my Mexican lineage and it's weird to me. My mom is very White, while my dad and his side of the family are very Latino, and I overall grew up around a lot of Latino/Hispanic culture and people for my whole life with him.

However my mom still tries to deny it and anytime we talk about it, she always says "You're probably only like 2% Mexican!!" and I'm like umm okay?? I don't wanna accuse her of bad things, as she is my mom, but I feel like it's kinda racist. She always tries pushing it on me that I'm fully white- when I'm not. I'm mixed, there's a difference. Yes, I may have lighter skin, but that doesnt automatically erase all of my ancestral ties and history.

And to be honest, she does do some slightly racist things- like whenever someone has an accent she always makes fun of them and mockingly mimics them, and I think it's just gross. I'm proud of being mixed and am proud of my lineage, and it really irritates me how she constantly belittles it and treats it like a joke. I dunno though, thats just how I feel- rant over Lolz.

I have strong Italian and Mexican heritage, but for some reason my mom always tries to deny my Mexican lineage and it's weird to me. My mom is very White, while my dad and his side of the famiy are very Hispanic, and I overall grew up around a lot of Hispanic culture/people for my whole life with him.

However my mom still tries to deny it and anytime we talk about it, she always says "You're probably only like 2% Mexican!!" and I'm like umm okay?? I don't wanna accuse her of bad things, as she is my mom, but I feel like it's kinda racist. She always tries pushing it on me that I'm fully white- when I'm not. I'm mixed, there's a difference. Yes, I may have lighter skin, but that doesnt automatically erase all of my ancestral ties and history.

And to be honest, she does do some slightly racist things- like whenever someone has an accent she always makes fun of them and mockingly mimics them, and I think it's just gross. I'm proud of being mixed and am proud of my lineage, and it really irritates me how she constantly belittles it and treats it like a joke. I dunno though, thats just how I feel- rant over Lolz.

Just a fun lil thing I wanna do cause I've seen other people do it, n' I'm really curious what people actually assume and think about me first based on my astrology chary alone.

I'm a Cancer sun

Libra moon

Leo ASC

Cancer Mercury

Leo Venus

Leo Mars

Pisces Jupiter

Virgo Saturn

Pisces Uranus

Aquarius Neptune

Sag Pluto

:)

So I plan on changing my name legally when I'm able to because I absolutely hate my name and just wanna get rid of it already, for a number of reasons like trauma associations, I don't feel like I align with it at all, and I just hate the look and sound of it. And I feel like I am very very 100% sure of what I wanna change my name to.

However though I've heard that it changes, or at least adds on to your numerology chart and could either be strengthen or weakened.

Like my life path number is 11 and my expression's 11, soul urge 5, personality 6, maturity 22, hidden passion 1, subconscious self 8, rational thought 7, and planes of expression- physical plane 1, mental 7, emotional 33, and intuitive 6.

Honestly I feel like my birth numerology chart, especially my 11, 22 and 7 energies, has​ made me be sooo prone to overthinking, being extremely intense, and having standards for myself that are ridiculously unrealistic that I go into anxious spirals in my head over for no reason that make these "special" numbers feel like nothing but a burden to me, and I hate it sooo much. T_T

So my new name that I wanna change to would make me an expression 8, soul urge 9, personality 8, maturity 1, hidden passion 5, subconscious 8, rational thought 4, physical plane 6, mental 3, emotional 33 (which is really interesting how that didn't change and stayed the same), and intuitive 11.

I'm super curious how these new energies would affect my life if I were to change my name to that, if it would be better or worse. Looking at it though, the new name numbers look super grounding and wayyyy less intense and chaotic than my birth numerology, which is exactly what I want. I'm not an expert though, so if somebody could tell me from their perspective who is good at this stuff I would appreciate. :]