u/Tea-paw

19F Idk why I am posting this, I guess I might just want to know if anyone else have experienced this. I work with seafaring, I work down in the engine department and I really have a interest for it.

I went to school, I studied and graduated with okay grades.

I have been on a couple ships and have now just started working on this one.

From school, I learnt what everything did, but I never really understood how everything was connected and worked. I have now sat for three hours researching Lubeoil systems and so much makes sense !! I truly found a passion that I havent felt in so long.

I want to learn how the system works here onboard, I have so many questions but I am afraid of making a fool out of myself.. I probably should already know everything I have sat and reed about but I want to understand !

Every ship is different and I want to take my time to understand, but I am scared to ask questions.

I am a women (19F) who works in a male dominated workspace and I always feel like I am not good enough.

I accidentally mixed up two types of pumps while I was explaining to my chief that I was cleaning up oil by one and he looked so disappointed. He took of his glasses and told me to go back out and check what pump I was working on.

I knew that I said wrong and was so embarssed that I went and checked. Now atleast I know the correct name for that pump lol.

But I always feel like no matter how much I work with something or study it, I always get it wrong.

I also have the problem of not being that strong, sure I am stronger than my girl friends but that is still not enough. Having to walk up to my crewmates and ask for help is so annoying and I hate myself for it.

I hate that I really like my job, I cant see myself working with something else because I truly find joy in working with heavy machinery.

Hello, I am 19F and have gained about 5kgs since getting with my boyfriend, I want to lose about 10 - 15.

I have been in a calorie deficit before, I have tried fasting before, I have starved myself before. I work out on the sea and is gone every two weeks and home the other two.

When I am out working I usually just work, call home and talk to my boyfriend for a while and then go sleep. It helped me lose weight since I would be active all day and then just sleep. Then I quit and was jobless for 4 months and gained weight. (I am soon going back to work at a new company)

Now, the problem I am facing is that I never really feel full after eating. I have tried making meal preps and lots of "healthy meals" but every portion seems so small so I always end up eating another portion or eating other stuff.

I love vegetables, I can eat almost everything.

Have anyone else had this problem? It feels like I need to be stuffed to be satisfied even though it sometimes hurt.

Is it a deeper underlying issue? Any response help.

Hello, I am 19F and have gained about 5kgs since getting with my boyfriend, I want to lose about 10 - 15.

I have been in a calorie deficit before, I have tried fasting before, I have starved myself before. I work out on the sea and is gone every two weeks and home the other two.

When I am out working I usually just work, call home and talk to my boyfriend for a while and then go sleep. It helped me lose weight since I would be active all day and then just sleep. Then I quit and was jobless for 4 months and gained weight. (I am soon going back to work at a new company)

Now, the problem I am facing is that I never really feel full after eating. I have tried making meal preps and lots of "healthy meals" but every portion seems so small so I always end up eating another portion or eating other stuff.

I love vegetables, I can eat almost everything.

Have anyone else had this problem? It feels like I need to be stuffed to be satisfied even though it sometimes hurt.

Is it a deeper underlying issue? Any response help.

I had a episode after not pulling for maybe a year and I swear to god there is hair everywhere, how do you guys clean and get rid of it all??

Relapsed 2 days ago.

Had a episode while my boyfriend was at work and I was home. I couldnt stop thinking about how much I hate myself, how my boyfriend will cheat on me, how ugly I am etc.

I have gained weight since me and my bf got togheter.

My past relationships cheated and would watch porn of women that didnt look like me at all.

I have trust issues from my mommy issues.

I have a lot of fucking issues and I dont know how to move on and work on it. I have tried therapy but it never seems to go anywhere.

I am 19F and I am not sure whats happening right now.

I dont have any motivation, I just want to lay in bed and rot all day, I care so much about the people around me that I am constantly sad.

I am falling back to bad habits, I have gained weight and have started to lose my self esteem. I just moved and have barely touched my stuff so there are just boxes everywhere.

I am super stressed about work, I quit my job a couple months ago and have found a new place. I am nervous that I will fuck it up.

I am a wreck right now and I dont know what to do..

How do I find the motivation to fix everything?