u/ThatOneTransGinger

Hii im like totally knew here however I totally feel like i should say ive been out for 6 years as mtf and almost 1.5 years on hrt but I have been socially transitioning to the point i pass with ease however I judt had this guy checking me out while I was at the store and he was kinda following me at first and now im sitting in my car thinking that was creepy. Like this guy was hard-core staring at me and when i looked at him all he said was hi and how he liked my shorts. Like im sitting here like why are some people so creepy. Like i know I pass but like it was the first time I went out of my apartment in shorts on without my roommate there as well. Like im happy to be passing but not by a creepy guy like that.

So me and my roommate (just moved into his apartment) went to the pool and I wore this really cute bikini which I was terrified to wear cause I was worried things were gonna fall out of place but I went tanning mainly and got really sun burnt. (Totally worth it) but i guess i got told today that there was a guy at the pool who was like hard-core checking me out and its like the most euphoric feeling every that someone thought I was that good looking to actually wanna look at. After yesterday it was so worth the sun burn.

So me and my roommate (just moved into his apartment) went to the pool and I wore this really cute bikini which I was terrified to wear cause I was worried things were gonna fall out of place but I went tanning mainly and got really sun burnt. (Totally worth it) but i guess i got told today that there was a guy at the pool who was like hard-core checking me out and its like the most euphoric feeling every that someone thought I was that good looking to actually wanna look at. After yesterday it was so worth the sun burn.

Ive been with my gf for about 2 months and her birthday was a couple days ago so I got her a couple gifts and had a hangout/date planned for a picnic at a park near our houses which isn't too far from her. I texted her super excited this morning asking if she's excited for today and if she has a time she wants to go out. Unfortunately she's been ghosting me all day and this isnt the first time she's done this or worse. I mean truthfully before her and i started dating she had this very rude/honesty thing of calling me fat then saying right after it how she doesn't mind it. I guess im trying to figure out what I should do since im at a lost for words and its making it really difficult to keep a conversation going with her. Any help would be appreciated.

So update on the whole thing my ex now just broke up with me.

So, I guess to start this off I'm Hope 21 (MTF). I'm gonna start from the beginning of the story from when I was 7. At the age of 7 I made myself a promise to transition to a woman after seeing an Ad on adult swim. so I promised that I would transition. later on I didn't remember that promise and years later at the age of 10 I started having weird feelings about my body and I didn't like how my voice sounded years later more after pushing that feeling down in middle school the prime of acne to happen I found out I didn't really fit with the men I was hanging around with and I didn't really like how both my body and voice did sound.

That's when I started to do a lot of research on what I was feeling ending of that year was when I found out I was transgender. Of course I clearly the pattern is I pushed that down as well and I tried really hard to ignore the feeling of pain and hatred for myself. I did have a therapist in middle school and we found out that I was actually way more depressed then the other kids that were at my age. We did get me to try certain tasks like playing games and talking about how I felt. I did stop going to my therapist when I was in 8th grade and that's when one of my teachers started to get concern and found one of my papers about how I felt which she kept me after class and asked me about it and I kept pushing it off and saying it wasn't mine (even though I did sign it) and how it was nothing important.

Then after that High school started I was a shut out and I didn't talk to people at all and just kept myself busy and doing research on how I felt. At this point I was 16 I came out to my parents on January 6th. That conversation didn't really go well and went to a point of my parents calling me a freak and a monster for how I feel and they almost (Yes almost) disowned me for how I have told them how I felt. I got told that I'm normal for hating my body which was like whatever, but I didn't really care too much on that point. When I came out my family and they didn't accept me for being trans I came out to my friends in school who didn't really accept me and I went from popular in sophomore to being one of my most hated kids there.

I kept pushing forward with how I felt to a point where I hid it all over again and kept living as a guy for years after that and went on to graduate as a guy (not my best point and definitely wanted a different name on my diploma). We will skip a couple years on this since most of after school was working and slowly coming out as trans more and more. At this point I finally told my best friend who afterwards became someone that was more like a brother to me. He didn't really care about me being transgender and the only question he asked was "Does this mean we won't be able to play video games anymore?" That question made me laugh more then I wanted to admit and I told him that I would still play video games with him and all that. He agreed to it and said that he's cool with be being trans and doesn't really care how I see myself because to me I'm still his best friend.

20 years old at this point and on June 4th 2025 I started HRT on Plume (totally recommend). two months later of hiding the fact I'm on HRT to my family I turned 21. at this point it was a little obvious of there being stuff on my chest and my family didn't mention it to me which I'm thankful for. I went out with them to have like one drink and that was it. (here's what hurts me the most) we went to a bar called Top Hat and at this point I noticed a friend of my parents was trans and it's very obvious this girl is trans and it took my like 1-2 hours of talking to her to finally ask her if she is cause she said I could ask any question no matter how silly it is. So my silly question I asked her in private was if she was transgender. She said she is and asked me if I'm considering going on HRT. I got way to embarrassed and said that I have no idea what she means and said it was kind of obvious and pointed at my chest. She mentioned how she wasn't going to say a word because of respect for me.

It's been a difficult road for me even in my small conservative town. I stopped being shy about being trans a little less then a year into it. I started dressing more girly and stopped caring what people would think of me. My work wasn't very happy about me coming out as trans. We agreed to keep my deadname for work for now so I don't get more harassment then I already get at my job. My job does call me by Hope for the most part and everyone at my job is aware of me being trans and I haven't heard of any complaints which is a great thing for me. I haven't voice trained yet and truthfully I don't get a lot of time to myself so voice training is something that is going to have to wait for now. But truthfully it does make me smile how many people assume I'm a woman until they hear my voice which is like whatever, but I smile when they do gender me correctly. I don't really correct people for misgendering me cause well I don't pass as much as I'd like, but then again I've been told that I could totally pass with some voice training. I can't really complain to much about good I look since I have an amazing Gf (MTF) she is also in college which is way cooler then me and I've been super supportive of her and I even bought her a new dress which is also her fist one she's own. Anyways this is a post to talk about Yes truthfully being trans has it's ups and downs, but if you keep pushing it's going to be worth it in the end and at least for me I can tell I've been way happier. This is yes to share my experience as a trans woman but as well is to mention that we all have our battles we are fighting and to not give up on the fight no matter how bad it may seem.

HRT has saved my life a lot more then I want to admit. I did suffer from Acute Alopecia which did cause me to lose a lot of hair by the age of 18 but now I'm thriving as a trans woman and happier then ever. If you are looking for a sign to start you're transition then let this be you're sign to start. Take the jump and start it if you either socially transitioning or starting medical transition you should totally take the jump and live your life how you want to and not how other people want you to.

I know this is a lot to read and I am sorry but I think that we all need a little more motivation to keep pushing forward. You deserve to be happy no matter what you're going through. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read this and know my story. Also again for all the writing I do like to write a lot.

So, I guess to start this off I'm Hope 21 (MTF). I'm gonna start from the beginning of the story from when I was 7. At the age of 7 I made myself a promise to transition to a woman after seeing an Ad on adult swim. so I promised that I would transition. later on I didn't remember that promise and years later at the age of 10 I started having weird feelings about my body and I didn't like how my voice sounded years later more after pushing that feeling down in middle school the prime of acne to happen I found out I didn't really fit with the men I was hanging around with and I didn't really like how both my body and voice did sound.

That's when I started to do a lot of research on what I was feeling ending of that year was when I found out I was transgender. Of course I clearly the pattern is I pushed that down as well and I tried really hard to ignore the feeling of pain and hatred for myself. I did have a therapist in middle school and we found out that I was actually way more depressed then the other kids that were at my age. We did get me to try certain tasks like playing games and talking about how I felt. I did stop going to my therapist when I was in 8th grade and that's when one of my teachers started to get concern and found one of my papers about how I felt which she kept me after class and asked me about it and I kept pushing it off and saying it wasn't mine (even though I did sign it) and how it was nothing important.

Then after that High school started I was a shut out and I didn't talk to people at all and just kept myself busy and doing research on how I felt. At this point I was 16 I came out to my parents on January 6th. That conversation didn't really go well and went to a point of my parents calling me a freak and a monster for how I feel and they almost (Yes almost) disowned me for how I have told them how I felt. I got told that I'm normal for hating my body which was like whatever, but I didn't really care too much on that point. When I came out my family and they didn't accept me for being trans I came out to my friends in school who didn't really accept me and I went from popular in sophomore to being one of my most hated kids there.

I kept pushing forward with how I felt to a point where I hid it all over again and kept living as a guy for years after that and went on to graduate as a guy (not my best point and definitely wanted a different name on my diploma). We will skip a couple years on this since most of after school was working and slowly coming out as trans more and more. At this point I finally told my best friend who afterwards became someone that was more like a brother to me. He didn't really care about me being transgender and the only question he asked was "Does this mean we won't be able to play video games anymore?" That question made me laugh more then I wanted to admit and I told him that I would still play video games with him and all that. He agreed to it and said that he's cool with be being trans and doesn't really care how I see myself because to me I'm still his best friend.

20 years old at this point and on June 4th 2025 I started HRT on Plume (totally recommend). two months later of hiding the fact I'm on HRT to my family I turned 21. at this point it was a little obvious of there being stuff on my chest and my family didn't mention it to me which I'm thankful for. I went out with them to have like one drink and that was it. (here's what hurts me the most) we went to a bar called Top Hat and at this point I noticed a friend of my parents was trans and it's very obvious this girl is trans and it took my like 1-2 hours of talking to her to finally ask her if she is cause she said I could ask any question no matter how silly it is. So my silly question I asked her in private was if she was transgender. She said she is and asked me if I'm considering going on HRT. I got way to embarrassed and said that I have no idea what she means and said it was kind of obvious and pointed at my chest. She mentioned how she wasn't going to say a word because of respect for me.

It's been a difficult road for me even in my small conservative town. I stopped being shy about being trans a little less then a year into it. I started dressing more girly and stopped caring what people would think of me. My work wasn't very happy about me coming out as trans. We agreed to keep my deadname for work for now so I don't get more harassment then I already get at my job. My job does call me by Hope for the most part and everyone at my job is aware of me being trans and I haven't heard of any complaints which is a great thing for me. I haven't voice trained yet and truthfully I don't get a lot of time to myself so voice training is something that is going to have to wait for now. But truthfully it does make me smile how many people assume I'm a woman until they hear my voice which is like whatever, but I smile when they do gender me correctly. I don't really correct people for misgendering me cause well I don't pass as much as I'd like, but then again I've been told that I could totally pass with some voice training. I can't really complain to much about good I look since I have an amazing Gf (MTF) she is also in college which is way cooler then me and I've been super supportive of her and I even bought her a new dress which is also her fist one she's own. Anyways this is a post to talk about Yes truthfully being trans has it's ups and downs, but if you keep pushing it's going to be worth it in the end and at least for me I can tell I've been way happier. This is yes to share my experience as a trans woman but as well is to mention that we all have our battles we are fighting and to not give up on the fight no matter how bad it may seem.

HRT has saved my life a lot more then I want to admit. I did suffer from Acute Alopecia which did cause me to lose a lot of hair by the age of 18 but now I'm thriving as a trans woman and happier then ever. If you are looking for a sign to start you're transition then let this be you're sign to start. Take the jump and start it if you either socially transitioning or starting medical transition you should totally take the jump and live your life how you want to and not how other people want you to.

I know this is a lot to read and I am sorry but I think that we all need a little more motivation to keep pushing forward. You deserve to be happy no matter what you're going through. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read this and know my story. Also again for all the writing I do like to write a lot.

Okay so just to start this is totally me going to rant about this movie because i have fallen in love with the character/person Lilie Elbe. I guess im gonna jump right into it. I started watching the movie the danish girl and seeing these things I've noticed that ive done some of the same stuff. I love the movie for it talking about Lilie Elbe who is amazing (R.I.P) but truthfully I can't stop smiling while watching it. Like I know different times of course but some of this stuff that Lilie Elbe went through reminds me of my middle/high-school years and its just so interesting like now I want to get better at makeup I wanna start painting, I wanna wear dresses instead of skinny jeans looking like im Punk Rock. I also feel like im losing my mind on this stuff and more I just wish they there was that pill that any person can take to change into the opposite gender. Like ugh how cool would it be if a trans woman gave birth to a baby and said heck yea I did that and started to flip off all the doctors. That's judt me loves.

I cant call this a warning or not because what we talked about was my life. Okay so let's break it down and make it simple for us tonight. Im Hope i cane out at the age of 16 to a family who weren't supportive at all five years later i started hrt June 4th 2025 now im 1+ year on and I love it. Okay caught up for the most part. Ao today i was minding my own business in this little conservative town I live in. So everyone knows me as my deadname and although I don't like it at all I work with it for now because I prefer not to start an argument at my work about politics. So today of all days these two guys walk in and they look way to young to buy some 21+ stuff. So both guys and I started chatting and out of the blue this smaller tanner guy with a thick beard asks me what my pronouns are. Of course I'm stunned it threw me off because a republican asking for pronouns felt like a unicorn in a field. Anyways so it'll them im a trans woman. So short guy genders me correctly and tall guy stays quiet but they were curious of my trans story so I told it made it short and sweet telling them when I came out what i dealt with in high school and all that. But they were happy to see me happy with who I am and with me happy. Idk truthfully I thought I'd share that not all Republicans are. Thanks loves 💜💜💜

This is more of a question but what are some recommended tucking equipment like I own a couple pair of cheap gaffs I got off of temu. And they are comfortableish I feel like it's about time for me to get a gaff that I can wear everyday or even every night without having to worry about being in some pain.

Update: I did buy some unclockable gaffs just super excited for them to come in and I guess the ones I got are the everyday wearable ones that have a grippy silicone in it to keep everything intact

So im in the hospital like right now. Everyone is fine and my dad had a couple seizures. But I was in the ER with him and the nurse (btw she's awesome) he kept calling me a girl and also kept saying how jealous she is of my hair. My family being annoying kept trying to correct her to telling her im a guy since they aren't super supportive of me being MTF. But her and I got talking and im not voice trained in any way at all truthfully. She kept calling me ma'am and I kept smiling and all that and although I am freaking out because my moron of a dad is in the hospital. I cant stop smiling because of being called a girl.

Okay so Hey yall I just wanted to say that yes im on hrt which has been amazing only 1 year and 2 weeks on right now. But I today was weird so I was getting ready to get a foundation that doesn't even match my skin tone which im kinda upset about cause im a red head and finding a foundation for my Skin tone feels like its next to impossible. Anyways before all that happened I was in the bathroom getting my hair wet to try and make my hair look curly and after I got done. I have been standing there for like two minutes with my hair down in a turtle neck bodysuit and skinny black jeans looking at myself and I hardly recognized myself to the point and stepped away from the mirror then stepped back in front of it to see myself and I just want to say thatr. That moment is the reason why ive stayed on hrt I love how I look today.

Its been 1 whole year

So about the time im writing this its June 3rd. My 1 year mark is June 4th. I want to say thank you to all of you who has helped me through the bad times. As well as the worse times. While still trying to understand myself and love my body.

Couple things I have noticed for changes is A. My hips are way bigger then they were before I started E. My voice cracks have come back however for good reasons this time. Just today I did check my E and T levels and I have noticed that its higher and lower then last time. My boobs are way bigger then I thought they would be and im super happy about it. Ive even been more open about myself being trans.

Going back to talking about my Estrogen levels. When I got the results back today I noticed that my estrogen levels are above 230 which is amazing. My Testosterone levels are below 100 which again amazing. I just cant wait till there higher in the next 3 months. Then I can shove it in my parents face telling them thag I am the woman I've always wanted to be.

Okay the sad truth about my parents in case you are new to my rants. My parents and christian conservatives who believe there own morals are more important then there kids life. However they have been more open about me being trans and dressing more feminine which is cool. But I live in a family that isn't okay with me being transgender thats including my extended family. The only people who are okag with me being transgender in my extended family is my aunt and uncle who by the way are also christian.

Now we get to the better parts I promise yall. About 15ish years ago I made a promise to myself that I would transition to be a girl. I never already thought it would happen and truthfully it still feels like a dream. Going back and looking at my past ive noticed there was hints of me being transgender that I didnt even notice. Back in elementary school I had more girl friends then guy friends. Middle school I didnt like my face or my voice which barely passed middle school because I refused to do any assignment that had to do with me listening to my own voice. High school was when I cane out as trans but the signs were so obvious. Like a guy who is muscular (not by much truthfully) who didnt play sports. Who didnt like go to the gym. Who liked wearing tight fitting jeans and see through shirts. Truthfully I thought in high school I was Gay truthfully I did. But I did dig deep and understood that I am transgender. Now im bisexuality as well but im super happy. I have an amazing girlfriend who is transgender as well. Also a couple amazing friends who support me for being me.

Honestly if you want my honest opinion about taking the jump and starting hrt. From me being one year on. Truthfully take the jump yes its gonna feel weird in the beginning and you might not notice anything quickly. But remember this starting hrt is a second puberty it has to take its time. You cant rush perfection. I cant emphasize how much hrt has saved me truthfully if you want to know where I get mine please ask me im very open about it. Okay thats all for you guys today. Loves yall and stay smart and safe out on the streets. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

💜Hope💜

Hi so good to be back truthfully. I took time away to understand what I wanted and to understand myself and my family. So this happened like the past two days. Six years ago I came out to my family as trans and they weren't very okay with it. However six years later I can tell their more comfortable i started painting my nails a straight blue look in front of my family and I was assuming I was go. A get into an argument like I do every month. But their was no argument. So my parents go into a fight two nights ago that got to a point of my mom saying that my father hates me for being trans (it's not true in the slightest) he just wants me to be smart and safe. So we had a talk about it yesterday morning and he confronted me and told me that he doesn't hate me for being trans he just wants to be smart and safe which is super euphoric for me. As well as I went to work with no hoodie just a t-shirt on that shows my chest a lot and is very obvious that I have a bigger chest. Nothing was said which is thank god and they both told me that want me to be happy which is amazing for me. So literally all day I've been wearing this pair of leggings that I find super comfortable. Drive outside of the house with them on and no one said anything about it and I cant stop thinking its a trap. I love being on high alert (joking). However yeah this feels super weird that im having this big of a euphoric feeling but I dont know what I can expect.

Genuine question for the queen's real quick. This is gonna sound stupid but if you have had the surgery what was the experience and the payment like cause im wanting to get the surgeries starting with FFS and Voice feminization surgery but im still trying to figure some stuff out about it so I understand as much as I can for it. Do you have to lay upfront before the surgery? Are you able to lay for it after the surgery? Do they let you pay in payments since I dont have any insurance that even covers my gender affirming surgery. Im asking because those are the first ones I wanna get when I get my own apartment and have the PTO saved up from my work.