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I am writing this on the way to school so don't mind any mistakes as I'm rushing.

I'm Naga and I'm a 17 M bisexual. I hate myself. If I come out everyone will hate me. My parents, siblings, relatives and friends are all openly homophobic. The Naga society in general is queer tolerant but I know what they all think behind closed doors and on media. I don't want all those fake empathy. I am not the type of person who you'd suspect as queer as I generally come off straight and I have dated and crushed on girls too but that's rare as most of the time I am just into guys like 90% of the time. I am also a religiously practicing followers of Christ but my fellow "Christians" won't accept me because it's a sin to love someone and though as much as hate and criticism I might get online for being queer and being told I can't be Christian because I'm queer, I will still continue to follow Yeshua as my Lord and Savior.

I really wonder how people can be so inconsiderate that they can't put themselves in other's shoes to realise or understand what one goes through because I don't want to be gay trust me I don't but the power is not upto me that I will just turn straight. Oh how easy would life have been if I were straight and "normal".

I am starting to think that since I'm going to die anyways why not make it quicker and see if I'll go to him or be out to suffer in hell or maybe none of that actually exists. Why go through this hell lot of life on Earth when I can just fasten the process and actually find out the answer. But I don't know I'm a coward so I doubt I'll be able to do it.

Sorry for the yap. I just needed to let it all out.

Bye I'll be back in 5 hours ~ :3

People talk about how Arunachalis bootlick Mainland Indians. However, a specific surname... Not even the whole tribe but one particular surname from that tribe. Bodo BASUMATARY. They are always the ones in comments sections on youtube, Instagram or anywhere. These people will be ready to hate on Tribals and support mainland Indian ideologies. I never see other Bodo surnames like Narzary etc doing that. Its always the Basumatarys.