u/This-Experience-4735

Where do I even begin?

Crazy lady on the train screaming at me "I'm not stealing anything!" and trying to attack me for casually moving my bag to the side. Long story.

Uncle trying to S.A. me and enter my workplace.

Some Filipino dude believing he was entitled to have me upon first introduction via my Narcissistic grandmother and stalked me at work.

Women belting out internet based psychology and threat scanning because of some shallow no nuance having info she read online. Also people ready to attack be in preemptive defense.

Women who wore beautiful clothing and upon first compliment they quickly became offended that I was even talking to them in the first place and proceeded to verbally berate me in public.

More a-holes on the train. Rodeo enthusiast on the train who accused me of being a "buckle bunny" after being in awe of their fashion and physically attack me believing I was some lewd ass.

2 Japanese women who I had been walking behind in a hurry tried to "defend" themselves from me when I didn't do shit.

The list goes on and that decade was filled with distrustful hypervigilante and hostile people who believe they are acting in the name of defense

What else do you wanna know?

I am currently 34 and suffered 2 decades of a turbulent life. Life was being screamed at, being treated as a freak before realizing I had ADHD at 27, grew up in a cult And an abusive childhood.

Yu-Gi-Oh? It's one of the things that got me by. Many times I would imagine my adventures with my own OC or a crossovers that probably would never happen and fanfiction.

I wish I could be more poetic about this, but my creative thinking plummeted as of right now.

All I had was my imagination

I have to put the NSFW button for this post cuz of some monitors

Let's be real.

We've all been there.

Crying in public, breaking down hoping someone wouldn't just abandon us, being told we're weak for begging someone to just...understand.

Then we're told this

"Have some self respect!"

That line is just....useless.

It has become a throwaway line like "look on the bright side" and "don't let it bother you."

A cliché.

Self Respect in my terms in not tolerating bullshit and knowing you deserve better. Not bleeding after someone decides to metaphorically crush your very hopes and need for connection and act like you're a pro at handling not falling apart, cuz that shit takes years to build like the damn emotional Olympics training.

Stop weaponizing self respect cliche to degrade others.

How do I validate these memories? I've heard of false memories and I want to be certain these events and encounters did happen.

Met awful ranchers as a teenager

I went on a field trip and gave them the worst impression due to my lack of ranch etiquette because nobody told us anything about how to behave around animals.

Met another vicious rancher in a pet store trying to defend a nasty ass old woman who bitched at me for my over the top awe of a bovine a rancher rode into the pet store. I old her don't be a bitch.

Encountered obnoxious horse riders at Walmart

I complimented their horse in awe but they just snapped at me in a nasty ass manner as they rode in like entitled ass wipes.

Had a tenant who was a toxic witch

She stayed in my grandma's home temporarily. I asked her if she can teach me witchcraft but she bitched that is something she can't teach me because I am not ready and If I wanted to I should read the bible (psalms). I didn't understand it at the time due to very little information . One time I vexed her because of something and she threatened to curse me.

Is it something my mind completely made up due to media absorption? I want to know that this is real

Honestly when I became a young adult I thought that this way I could flourish. I was strangled in my own autonomy.

How many women or young girls know what sexual harassment is in the 2010s and 2020s? Who has seen it happen? Which has perpetuated it? Who has known women who had no knowledge of sexual Education or harassment?

Share your thoughts and stories and insight as to why there is no Education regarding this topic.

I petitioned to St Expedite for money. Is it possible I can also try the Master Money ritual as an additional magical resource?

Has anyone heard of the Hantavirus on board a cruise ship lately? So far people are working to keep it contained.

If it does spread but is controlled, how would you personally handle this? Everyone gonna start cleaning?

I lived through the 2010s as a young adult and would often ride the train or transit.

As i did this, certain type of people I've encountered created tremendous inconvenience for my life and peaceful mode of transportation.

The "I'm not stealing anything" people. I.N.S.A People.

Let me Explain.

Sometime in 2015 or 2016, before 2020, I would be riding transit. Some random passenger would be there or just getting in the train car and I would just move my bag to my lap or to my side. This random person, mostly a woman would start screaming.

"I'm not gonna steal anything!! Why did you do that!?" Leading to an absurd altercation which I am too lazy and would probably pained to describe.

What is the phenomenon behind this behavior?

I would like discuss it intellectually.

I do recall my experiences from years ago but names and faces are blurry. I want to remember so I cam confront them

Some years ago at age 27 I was on Instagram and found this super attractive girl who had just turned 19. No i was not attracted to her but it made me envious. She was a model and had a boyfriend who was 11 years her senior and seemed to have everything I didn't from a car to plenty of money from her job.

I don't mind the boyfriend but physical attractiveness struck a nerve in me because I was nowhere near her level of beauty. I did everything within my mental fortitude to intellectualize my emotions and transmute it into creativity.

I know beautiful women can't help but be beautiful and magnetic, but I just don't want to look like a hater for being uncomfortable around or near a good looking woman or person.

How the hell do I deal with this level of discomfort should I ever meet one within my proximity?!

First of all, I am Filipino and have written 1 short story on wattpad based on my experience as a Filipino and wish to expand on it. My main protagonist is Filipino but speaks in a different manner, half formal half informal to parents who wish would rather hear "Yes Po" "No Po" and is also sarcastic.

Ex:

Aunt Gloria: So do you have a boyfriend?

MC: For sale? Nah, but for free is in the local McDonald's.

Ex 2:

Mother: Do you want to live a good life or a bad life?

MC: Good question. Are you Intellectualizing for once?

What other traits about Filipino parents can I write about that I can have my MC try to judo flip or humor?

What other things can I expand on?

Picture this. You have powers, they're insane and awesome or a special ability. You find there are other people like you, but it makes you feel massive discomfort because you don't know how to feel amongst them.

Or....you just hate being around new people.

There were moments I did want to tell about my situation but my mental process was so ficking slow I couldn't even form a speech. Various times I could but that was usually in less than tense moments where I could discuss things with neutral people.

What are some traits that toxic ranchers or farmers possess so we can identify and avoid them?

What are the perspectives, attitudes, and practices of those in Europe in ranching compared to the U.S?