u/Virtual-Cress-8740

For the past 9 months I’ve been feeling kind of off , disconnected from the world, more recently I have lost the will to feel , when I’m with people it’s always like background noise and I’m not really there anymore. I used to be so keen with meeting up with my friends , I stopped making the first effort and now I barely have a social life. I don’t even know how my time is spent if I’m being honest , time just passes and I’m just there. I have a very demanding job which I think explains most of what I’m saying , but I wasn’t like this before that. Maybe I need change ? If so I don’t feel like it’s in my hands? I’ve also been a very highly anxious person and I feel that reduced recently but it turned into something worse.
I unfortunately don’t like myself very much.

I wouldn’t say I’m a huge fan of survivor but I’m slowly starting to get deeply into it. I loved starting survivor with themed groups , it’s definitely a nice way to just start a season. Beauty vs Braun vs brain definitely was one of my favorite seasons.
With the new seasons I feel like majority of the players are fans and it changes the game. I hope they can get more “random” players to help switch things up.

Context : a collaboration opportunity, they knew I was available and continue to look for other options

So is there anything there to suggest the decision is final ?

My chow is 5 years old now , he was fairly calm as a child but how he is very aloof attacking his sister chow and us commonly.
We decided to sterilize him as many people claim it will calm him down.
Will it help or is he too old ?