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I've publicly identified as a guy practically my entire life, starting in elementary school, even though I knew I was a girl, through my tears, of course. Every time someone confessed their feelings, I felt so disgusted I wanted to puke. I wish I could be perceived as a guy, but it didn't help. On the one hand, I experience the usual friendly attraction to guys and romantic attraction to girls, and what's so interesting about that? I don't understand whether they need my company, yours, or anything else forced upon them, but I can accept the fact that I'm a woman (not entirely). I want to say upfront that I'm transphobic. Changing your hormones and removing some organs doesn't make you a member of the opposite sex. I don't care what anyone thinks about it. I don't understand whether I need to get rid of transphobia, change my gender, get rid of misogyny (which is essentially just a fear of what awaits me as a woman), or what. I don't understand.

So I am suffering from SO OCD for more than 2 years. I am homosexual women, for my whole life before OCD I've experienced every kind of attraction to women only, but after one thing I've started to question myself and it was straight porn video, I felt aroused and masturbated well, but after that I've started to question myself if I am actually attracted to men. I know that the answer is no, but since then I question myself everytime I see a man, I hear anything about straight relationships and etc, everything related. I remember I had some kind of curiosity about male anatomy and when I was a kid but as well I had for women anatomia (plus attraction to this one). At some point I've started to experience groinal responses of any intensity and this what is confusing me as fuck, I don't know what to do. I know that I don't want to have anything romantic and/or sexual with men but after years of OCD it's starting to look like my orientation has been changed. Thoughts about male genitalias or relationship with them don't look that disgusting and terrible like it used to, but I think my brain is just exhausted and that's why. Anyway, if someone had something like that, please, give your advices, it's terrible and I can't do live that anymore, it's insufferable

So I am suffering from SO OCD for more than 2 years. I am homosexual women, for my whole life before OCD I've experienced every kind of attraction to women only, but after one thing I've started to question myself and it was straight porn video, I felt aroused and masturbated well, but after that I've started to question myself if I am actually attracted to men. I know that the answer is no, but since then I question myself everytime I see a man, I hear anything about straight relationships and etc, everything related. I remember I had some kind of curiosity about male anatomy and when I was a kid but as well I had for women anatomia (plus attraction to this one). At some point I've started to experience groinal responses of any intensity and this what is confusing me as fuck, I don't know what to do. I know that I don't want to have anything romantic and/or sexual with men but after years of OCD it's starting to look like my orientation has been changed. Thoughts about male genitalias or relationship with them don't look that disgusting and terrible like it used to, but I think my brain is just exhausted and that's why. Anyway, if someone had something like that, please, give your advices, it's terrible and I can't do live that anymore, it's insufferable

So I'm a homosexual woman, I've felt attraction to only women since my early childhood, I've felt sexual and romantic attraction. But once I've just started to just casually asking myself "what if I'm just pretending and not actually a lesbian?", " What if it all is fake?", it never was the same. When I see an objectively attractive man I'm starting to ask myself if im attracted to him and get the obvious response, I keep asking myself. Even though I know I'm absolutely homosexual, thoughts about being attracted to men just don't stop appearing in my head and I also get a groinal response. I don't want to be with men and I don't feel any genuine attraction to them, every thought of being intimate with men just makes me extremely anxious and want to throw up, it doesn't feel right to my nature, it's not what I really want. I know I'm not attracted to them but I can't stop asking myself stupid questions. When I notice an objectively attractive man I can tell he is handsome and etc as any human being can, but then I start to ask myself "does it means I'm attracted to him, is it a sexual attraction?" Who has sexual ocd can understand me. The more I'm asking myself and checking if I get any reaction, the more thoughts I get and much stronger groinal response become, even though these thoughts are absolutely terrifying and going against my nature. Anyway, I want to ask how to deal with it and how to stop these thoughts because this shit is terrifying and disgusting to me. I want an advice from someone who had a sexual ocd or thought they had a sexual ocd. How to deal with it? Am I really bisexual or is it just an OCD?

So I'm a homosexual woman, I've felt attraction to only women since my early childhood, I've felt sexual and romantic attraction. But once I've just started to just casually asking myself "what if I'm just pretending and not actually a lesbian?", " What if it all is fake?", it never was the same. When I see an objectively attractive man I'm starting to ask myself if im attracted to him and get the obvious response, I keep asking myself. Even though I know I'm absolutely homosexual, thoughts about being attracted to men just don't stop appearing in my head and I also get a groinal response. I don't want to be with men and I don't feel any genuine attraction to them, every thought of being intimate with men just makes me extremely anxious and want to throw up, it doesn't feel right to my nature, it's not what I really want. I know I'm not attracted to them but I can't stop asking myself stupid questions. When I notice an objectively attractive man I can tell he is handsome and etc as any human being can, but then I start to ask myself "does it means I'm attracted to him, is it a sexual attraction?" Who has sexual ocd can understand me. The more I'm asking myself and checking if I get any reaction, the more thoughts I get and much stronger groinal response become, even though these thoughts are absolutely terrifying and going against my nature. Anyway, I want to ask how to deal with it and how to stop these thoughts because this shit is terrifying and disgusting to me. I want an advice from someone who had a sexual ocd or thought they had a sexual ocd. How to deal with it? Am I really bisexual or is it just an OCD?

So I'm a homosexual woman, I've felt attraction to only women since my early childhood, I've felt sexual and romantic attraction. But once I've just started to just casually asking myself "what if I'm just pretending and not actually a lesbian?", " What if it all is fake?", it never was the same. When I see an objectively attractive man I'm starting to ask myself if im attracted to him and get the obvious response, I keep asking myself. Even though I know I'm absolutely homosexual, thoughts about being attracted to men just don't stop appearing in my head and I also get a groinal response. I don't want to be with men and I don't feel any genuine attraction to them, every thought of being intimate with men just makes me extremely anxious and want to throw up, it doesn't feel right to my nature, it's not what I really want. I know I'm not attracted to them but I can't stop asking myself stupid questions. When I notice an objectively attractive man I can tell he is handsome and etc as any human being can, but then I start to ask myself "does it means I'm attracted to him, is it a sexual attraction?" Who has sexual ocd can understand me. The more I'm asking myself and checking if I get any reaction, the more thoughts I get and much stronger groinal response become, even though these thoughts are absolutely terrifying and going against my nature. Anyway, I want to ask how to deal with it and how to stop these thoughts because this shit is terrifying and disgusting to me. I want an advice from someone who had a sexual ocd or thought they had a sexual ocd. How to deal with it? Am I really bisexual or is it just an OCD?

So I'm a homosexual woman, I've felt attraction to only women since my early childhood, I've felt sexual and romantic attraction. But once I've just started to just casually asking myself "what if I'm just pretending and not actually a lesbian?", " What if it all is fake?". Even though I know I'm absolutely homosexual, thoughts about being attracted to men just don't stop appearing in my head. I don't want to be with men and I don't feel any genuine attraction to them, every thought of being intimate with men just makes me extremely anxious and want to throw up really, it doesn't feel right to my nature, it's not what I really want. I know I'm not attracted to them but I can't stop asking myself stupid questions. When I notice an objectively attractive man I can tell he is handsome and etc as any human being can, but then I start to ask myself "does it means I'm attracted to him, is it a sexual attraction?" Who has sexual ocd can understand me. The more I'm asking myself and checking if I get any reaction, the more thoughts I get and much stronger groinal response become, even though these thoughts are absolutely terrifying and going against my nature. Anyway, I want to ask how to deal with it and how to stop these thoughts because this shit is terrifying and disgusting to me. I want an advice from someone who had a sexual ocd

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