
u/Winter_Appearance432

My GP finally prescribed me ritalin
There is still hope
I'm still not sure whether i want to do medicine or CS
My mom wants me to medicinemaxx since she thinks i will be a NEET moneycel chud if I do computer science but I don't know yet if I want to do medicine, even though i did the HPAT already. Is it true that computer science is guaranteed unemployment right now and will it get worse by the time I graduate?
Last week did
Monday 0hrs
Tuesday 0hrs
Wednesday 20mins
Thursday 0hrs
Friday 0hrs
Saturday 0hrs
Sunday 0hrs
Overall 20 minutes
Is this enough for over 600 or should I start doing a bit more??
Yet another day wasted. I could've spent the day studying but lied in bed all day doing nothing but scrolling my phone. I am incapable of doing it. Same thing every single day. Hoping that something would change. But nothing ever changes. Every day is the same. The meds were never going to help. I have given up a long time ago. No ambition, no will, no strength to change. Months upon months of wasted time and regret. Why do I keep hoping that something is going to help?
I have a strongly held belief that I will be miserable and a failure for the rest of my life. I am 18 struggling with "depression" but I know that there is no help and that I have no right to complain. I am too weak to live. I do not have enough will to change.