u/Zealousideal-Dot9458

I have been drawing for years at this point, i certainly have improved a lot in both anatomy and facial expressions. (Still stuggle with hair and sometimes hands but mostly hair is harder). So I just wanted to see how easy or difficult is it to make nsfw art. I never drew naked people before this but I did just draw someone today a while back and that was decent. Oh and I also want to know on how can I start learning to draw from imagination because I don't want to use reference everytime I want to draw

So i did learn the bare minimum basics of languages like c, c# and python but i also have absolutely no idea on how am i going to do this or if it is even possible to do, but i am willing to learn. So frostborn is a online mmo rpg game for mobile that relies HEAVILY on grinding. I dont want to do a location for hours upon hours on end so i want to build a macro script that can use input controls to do a specific location efficiently. I believe no such macro of the game exist already because this game does not have that many players and i didnt find anything like that. I just want to know what i should do and learn to achieve this goal. Thanks to everyone in advance

the feeling i want is a sad but happy memory of a place that a character used to live at.

I just ran out of cd-r and the closest place that i can buy them from is 15 km away, so i am looking for any fan made rom that i can burn into my dvd and play on ps2.

Tldr; me and drunk dad had a fight that escilated and went on for 2 days atleast for now.

Yesterday we just came back from a party. I had absolouty no wish to go there beacuse it would have been loud and way too many people and my anxiety cant handle this and i was right it Was loud and horrable i just sat on a chair near road for most of the day outside and just went in to eat. I did say no for 2 days and he wouldnt just let me be at house.

My dad mainly forced me to go there beacuse i usually never go out of our house or just sit at the family shop whole day.

So yesterday when we came back i was watching a movie at my laptop in my room and dad came in to "invite" me to come to see him watch the movie he was watching (I didnt wanted to go because dad gets loud when ever he is drunk and he was drunk that time). I refused and said i was watching a movie and then he said the same thing twice (should have listened it would be easier to just agree and suffer for a while), then he started getting angry at me and mentioning how similar i am to my biological mother. So my biological mom left me when i was 2 and i was raised by my dad, she left beacuse she was greedy and wanted a ransom for exchange of my custody. I hate my mother and its very painful that someone mentions her to me and its only dad that does this. I shouldnt have gotten angry but its very difficult for me to not get angry when the only thing dad would say is "it was a mistake to have raised you", "you took everything away from me", "you are not at fault its your mothers blood that you speak so similar to her", "i will give you money and you will leave forever and i dont care what happens to you weather you live, die or ruin everything" (this line was said many times) ALL WHILE YELLING, dad never stops yelling when he is angry.

maybe from his perspective he was bored or just thought that he would enjoy my company while he is watching the movie (i would have to force a smile and laugh).

I should not have gotten angry, i got angry and started speaking in the same tone (i will try to change how i speak when angry from now on), and told him that he promised to not mention my biological birthgiver to me again, and that "i am not the same as her", "just say what you wanted to say when you called me", "listen to me" (beacuse he kept yelling shut up and forcing me to just listen). oh and i also said stuff i shouldnt have, that is i mentioned how dad is so similar to my granddad (he took everything of value from dad and all we had was a house, 2 rental properties to sustain ourselves and he took the rest of everything and gave it away to someone random. i seriously dont care about it but he was abusive to dad. He left to foreign when dad and grandma was raising my 2 aunts and were forced to work for survival, he would stop sending money and stoped carring.

The argument got to a point where i couldnt force my tears to stop and he wouldnt stop yelling at me, i accidentally (MY MISTAKE YES I KNOW) throw a bottle at him, (plastic water bottle), it had an end chipped and was sharp and it cut into his left arm, (we didnt notice), then he took the bottle and hit me in the head with it hard (didnt hurt much i recovered quick), and it left a dent.

he said "you should listen to everything i says and just do it" , i mentioned how it is just like an order, (mistake) he took this point and well guilt trip that he raised me and now i am accusing him of giving me orders, and that even if it is an order i should listen regardless and just do what he says. I folishly thought if i mentioned how what he is saying is similar to the stuff my granddad said to him he might recondider his words.

Well we said a lot of stuff and i dont remember much but later it was the same guilt trip and how disapointed he is in me, how i did everthing wrong, i am wasting my life, he should not have ruined his life for me. I bit myslef about 5 times and still have marks (mods i dont think it is against rules because i didnt mention an intent it is a part of what happene, please).

He ofcouse made fun of me and mentioning how my biological bitch would do the same, that she would also yell at him and never admitted that she is wrong, like why do i care and why does it hurt just dont mention her.

He also just picked up his drinking stuff (glass and peanuts), came to my room and just started drinking there, while we were yelling at each other. I then put the med on his injury (me yelled that i attacked him, after raising me and runing his life this is how i repay my debt).

Oh i am trans and i am afraid to talk to a doctor and i need his help for that first time appointment, he ofcouse mentioned that i killed his grandchildren and ruined his future generations. i am sorry i tried for 5 years to not be trans even stated cuttin to not do that to myslef it didnt work.

Today he wouldnt speak to me, i didnt appologise i am sorry i couldnt speak the words.

ANNND rn just a while ago he just packed his stuff and was like "no body loves he here", "you all hate me you all hurt me". He wanted to go to amritsar Golden temple for a few days. He physically cant, last time we went (forcefully i went as well) he nearly fainted and didnt had any consiousness most of the time he kept walking with me so that was easy to get him to our hotel room.

He also mentioned "You are transgender (as an insult), do what you want", i said that its not my fault blame the gods for this i tried not being one it was painful and didnt work. To dad being trans is a sexual issue that can be fixed if i force myself to have sex with a women that we paid money to. i cant bring myself to say yes, i have to force someone else to have sex with me for money and i have to force myself. and that wouldnt even do anything other than just me going through something i dont want. He says that even if it doenst change anything i should still do it beacuse it will make him happy. I WILL NOT why does he not understand me.

He also went suicidal on me saying that he will die and that we (me my lil sis, and step mom) could live easily without him.

It is the alcholol definately he always says this stuff on alcohol.

I am probably in the wrong because this is just my side of the story and even if i tried my best to show his side as well i am sure i didnt and i couldnt because he wont explain how he is feeling and not understanding why did i say no when i say no.