I made an old post about hating the editing process and making videos... i was wrong
the points i made in my old post were all related to editing, gathering clips from the internet to reuse them, and it took a lot of time due to doing a faceless channel, which made me think i was only doing it for views & attention.
I was wrong, what i hated was myself being incompetent at making a great video, in my videos something has always felt off or wrong, i speak well but it doesn't keep my attention for the whole 5 minute benchmark of the video, i felt bored while watching my own content. until i understood the importance of a lot of things, learned from a specific short film cinematic content creators, i understood so much of what i missed, until i made a great video which gave me an insane high dopamine while i watch it, keep in mind i didn't even post it yet and i felt happy. honestly i feel like today i fell in love what the creative process of making a video feel fun and i felt fun. i no longer care about views(to a certain extent obviously) but my full focus is now on improving the creative process on what i know now.
welcome to my ted talk. lol