u/aghredd22

TL;DR: Has anyone taken FMLA in between diagnostic tests and surgery? I’m having some seriously dark thoughts here.

I had a SPEC-CT and all it showed was inconclusive streaking likely because my neck is so large they could not get through the tissue. I’m not scared of surgery, I’m scared of feeling like I do now for the rest of my existence.

Next I have an Ultrasound and a DEXA scan. I also have a Renal Artery Duplex scan scheduled.

The blood work is showing my kidneys are functioning pretty normal other than a 2071 Creatnine 24 Hour Urine test.

But….I’m starting to freak out here. I AM EXHAUSTED all the time. I’m sleeping up to 16 hours on the weekend and missing tons of work because ….I just can’ function. I fel asleep at a traffic light, at my desk, I fell down the steps at work when my legs just gave out.

I have massive concentration issues. My muscles are so weak I can’t pick my 7 year old up. I feel like every joint is breaking in my body I’m irritable, I’m depressed. My blood pressure is out of control, and I think I’m in the verge of having a mental break.

I’m a very large person at 400lbs so I’ve dealt with aches and pains and tiredness but this is a whole other level. I almost passed out walking across the parking lot at Walmart today.

I’m not in the greatest job position of my life and notched it up to my bad boss and depression, but the last 8 weeks I feel VERY different.

I don’t know if this is related to the high PTH or if I’m just broken.

I feel like if I don’t take some significant time off here I’m either going to lose my job or just quit.

But I’ve never done anything like that in my 26 years of working.

Has anyone taken FMLA or short term disability with symptoms like this related to PHPT?

What do I do if this ain’t PHOT or if they don’t find any nodules or ai can’t have surgery???

My PTH has been:

May 5, 2026
252U/LHigh

Mar 20, 2026
230U/LHigh

Feb 19, 2026
158U/LHigh

Feb 3, 2026
171U/LHigh

Aug 14, 2025
167U/LHigh

Apr 23, 2025
166U/LHigh

Nov 22, 2024
180U/LHigh

Aug 29, 2024
146U/LHigh

Aug 12, 2024
153U/LHigh

Aug 6, 2024
158U/LHigh

I honestly never knew growing up that working would be so shitty. Having people micromanage you. Have backstabbing coworkers. Working your ass off just to be abused and eventually irrelevant.

It’s like the saying in the Dark Knight: You either die (leave) the hero or live (stay) long enough to become the villain.

Why is it so hard to have to fight for fair pay? That we have to fight for working to live and not living to work? We have to run as fast as we can in the hamster wheel or be shamed?

Some of us get all this education that people all around us and online just shit on.

Damn I hate work.

Have an S1 but this just popped up a mile down the road. Thoughts?

I have an S1 I just bought but this just came up today. Thoughts?

Hello,

I am currently on multiple medications for anxiety, depression, high blood pressure, diabetes, weight loss, arthritis, fatigue, and calcium and potassium deficiencies. I also have an ongoing chronic disease that causes progressive bone loss (osteoporosis/osteopenia), kidney stones, fatigue, joint/muscle aches, and neurocognitive issues like "brain fog" and may be a contributor to my severe depression.  Surgical intervention may be warranted, but I must undergo testing to see if it could cure the chronic issue.

The combination of these conditions and mymedications, as well as long term sleep apnea and diagnosed shift work disorder, are causing chronic insomnia, excessive sleepiness, anxiety, depression, and irritability during the day.

I have been on a 3:2 schedule (3 days in office; 3 days remote) for the past year. I am having difficulty getting to work on time during the 3 days in office.  This is significant as my boss has been flexible with my arrival and
departure times, allowing me significant leeway in these areas up until this point.

I am also having difficulty completing tasks in office throughout the day because of the excessive sleepiness, aches and pains, irritability, and anxiety. Furthermore, my blood pressure is lower on the days I am remote with over 6 months of self-testing verification, compared to my days in office. 

On my remote days I find that I am able to adjust my wake-up time and also take small naps throughout the day and complete my work early and with no errors. I believe some portion of driving contributes to this as well as I am able to use my concentration upon immediately waking up for work tasks and not driving. I am able to do more work, function more efficiently, complete all tasks, and prepare for upcoming tasks better.

However, I was told recently we would be coming back to full time in office as of July 1. Furthermore, the expectation is that all employees report to work no later than 8:30 a.m. and leave no earlier than 5:00 p.m.

I do not think I will be able to continue working full time in office with my long term symptoms and medications under these conditions.

Would it be reasonable to ask for the continuation of my 3:2 schedule and flexibility with arrival and departure times under these conditions?

I was thinking of asking for an ADA accommodation for this situation.  What is your advice and/or experience with this?

If clarification on anything is needed I can address it.  

I am at a Virginia State Agency if that is relevant.

Hello,

I am currently on multiple medications for anxiety, depression, high blood pressure, diabetes, weight loss, arthritis, fatigue, and calcium and potassium deficiencies. I also have an ongoing chronic disease that causes progressive bone loss (osteoporosis/osteopenia), kidney stones, fatigue, joint/muscle aches, and neurocognitive issues like "brain fog" and may be a contributor to my severe depression.  Surgical intervention may be warranted, but I must undergo testing to see if it could cure the chronic issue.

The combination of these conditions and mymedications, as well as long term sleep apnea and diagnosed shift work disorder, are causing chronic insomnia, excessive sleepiness, anxiety, depression, and irritability during the day.

I have been on a 3:2 schedule (3 days in office; 3 days remote) for the past year. I am having difficulty getting to work on time during the 3 days in office.  This is significant as my boss has been flexible with my arrival and
departure times, allowing me significant leeway in these areas up until this point.

I am also having difficulty completing tasks in office throughout the day because of the excessive sleepiness, aches and pains, irritability, and anxiety. Furthermore, my blood pressure is lower on the days I am remote with over 6 months of self-testing verification, compared to my days in office. 

On my remote days I find that I am able to adjust my wake-up time and also take small naps throughout the day and complete my work early and with no errors. I believe some portion of driving contributes to this as well as I am able to use my concentration upon immediately waking up for work tasks and not driving. I am able to do more work, function more efficiently, complete all tasks, and prepare for upcoming tasks better.

However, I was told recently we would be coming back to full time in office as of July 1. Furthermore, the expectation is that all employees report to work no later than 8:30 a.m. and leave no earlier than 5:00 p.m.

I do not think I will be able to continue working full time in office with my long term symptoms and medications under these conditions.

Would it be reasonable to ask for the continuation of my 3:2 schedule and flexibility with arrival and departure times under these conditions?

I was thinking of asking for an ADA accommodation for this situation.  What is your advice and/or experience with this?

If clarification on anything is needed I can address it.  

I am at a Virginia State Agency if that is relevant.

Hello,

I am currently on multiple medications for anxiety, depression, high blood pressure, diabetes, weight loss, arthritis, fatigue, and calcium and potassium deficiencies. I also have an ongoing chronic disease that causes progressive bone loss (osteoporosis/osteopenia), kidney stones, fatigue, joint/muscle aches, and neurocognitive issues like "brain fog" and may be a contributor to my severe depression.  Surgical intervention may be warranted, but I must undergo testing to see if it could cure the chronic issue.

The combination of these conditions and mymedications, as well as long term sleep apnea and diagnosed shift work disorder, are causing chronic insomnia, excessive sleepiness, anxiety, depression, and irritability during the day.

I have been on a 3:2 schedule (3 days in office; 3 days remote) for the past year. I am having difficulty getting to work on time during the 3 days in office.  This is significant as my boss has been flexible with my arrival and
departure times, allowing me significant leeway in these areas up until this point.

I am also having difficulty completing tasks in office throughout the day because of the excessive sleepiness, aches and pains, irritability, and anxiety. Furthermore, my blood pressure is lower on the days I am remote with over 6 months of self-testing verification, compared to my days in office. 

On my remote days I find that I am able to adjust my wake-up time and also take small naps throughout the day and complete my work early and with no errors. I believe some portion of driving contributes to this as well as I am able to use my concentration upon immediately waking up for work tasks and not driving. I am able to do more work, function more efficiently, complete all tasks, and prepare for upcoming tasks better.

However, I was told recently we would be coming back to full time in office as of July 1. Furthermore, the expectation is that all employees report to work no later than 8:30 a.m. and leave no earlier than 5:00 p.m.

I do not think I will be able to continue working full time in office with my long term symptoms and medications under these conditions.

Would it be reasonable to ask for the continuation of my 3:2 schedule and flexibility with arrival and departure times under these conditions?

I was thinking of asking for an ADA accommodation for this situation.  What is your advice and/or experience with this?

If clarification on anything is needed I can address it.  

ETA: I am at a Virginia State Agency if that is relevant.

Also not sure why I'm being downvoted as this is a significant issue in my life and I do not know where to turn.

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

.

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?

I need to leave my job. But I don’t know if I’ll ever find another job. I don’t know if the market will actually ever recover OR if the market is even realistically worth navigating any longer.

But I am at the end of my rope here. I’m stuck in a well drowning with no rope and all I see around me is doom and gloom about what the job market is and how it’s going to get worse.

My job is two days remote now but back to full time in office with a terrible manager beginning in June. Not a terrible person per se, but a horrendous leader/manager/boss. A never ceasing micromanaging “I hate to wait; everything is urgent!” visionless, treadmill running, rat cage living, hamster wheel berating idiot. She’s the fourth one alive had in 8 years.

I’m a male in a female dominated industry and I’m looked down upon every day for being a man.

I’m at a public university. I’m tired of pushing paper for absolutely no purpose and seeing complete idiots making 5x more than me because they have a Ph.D. but are lazy bums. I’m tired of the politics. I’m tired of being undervalued. I’m tired of being the fixer. I’m tired of being expected to just ‘get it done’ when it’s not even my work anymore because I wasn’t doing it fast enough for idiot manager so I was forced to go down a rung. I’m tired of seeing unqualified people jump me in pay and title. I’m tired of the “we need an outsider” for this role and no rhyme or reason why a BA supersedes three graduate degrees on my applications; why a “fresh perspective” supersedes my 15+ years of experience.

I’m being given a 2% raise for the third year in a row. I have worked in HR and business operations for 12 years here and another 4 in HR in a private company. I’m woefully underpaid to the point that adjusted for inflation I make something around $35,000 in 1999 dollars.

I have applied to over 700 jobs, many I don’t even want, just to get out.

I hate my job because it is never ending. I’m on the verge of some very serious mental health issues as I’ve begun ruminating a lot about how to get out of….it all. I guess I’m not on the verge because for two years now all I think about is quitting.

But I’m also just tired. I’m exhausted with it all. I don’t have the energy to look or play this game any longer. I just….want to quit.

I’m on meds I’ve been in therapy, I have a good life….outside of thinking about quitting my miserable meaningless job. I hate what my job and career are and have become. I’m doing nothing meaningful. Nothing enjoyable. Nothing worth a damn. I’m just a damn sheep.

But:…I don’t see any out here to another career. I don’t see anything better and I see many jobs that are much worse.

I’m not an engineer or a tech bro or a mathematician or an accountant. But m a strategy guy who sees shit and diverts to kiss icebergs, but that means fuck all.

I’m lost, I’m frustrated, I’m worried, I’m angry, I’m over educated, I’m underpaid. I have too much experience at the university; not enough experience for private business. My expectations are too much to demand work life balance but I don’t achieve it now because I’m miserable all the time.

But is this an inevitable end to this? Is it over?

I mean, I need some advice here. I’ve prayed, I’ve complained, I’ve asked for guidance. I’ve asked for raises. I’ve sought new work. I’ve walked around asking for signs. I’ve dreamed about just leaving. I’ve thought about how peacefully the end will be.

But I’m done. I’m just….done.

What do the hell do I do?