u/ak111isdabestttt

when i was about 6, i was a very curious child and did many 'sexual' things with this other girl (it was us rubbing tummies against eachother and roleplaying). Anyways, I remember enjoying the sensation and viewing her as my gf in that roleplay scenario, but i dont remember having feelings for her? Most of the time i considered her to be my bestfriend. Now im scared i liked her, that i imagined myself as a man and her as a woman doing it, and im just scared it means im secretly bi even though i did not like her at all. BUT, i also know these things happened, but i get these 'what if u felt this way' but like ik i did? so, what if im just lying to myself because im so scared of being gay, therefore im in denial? im just so scared i like her or that this means something, because i dont remember thinking that she was my gf outside of roleplay, nor did i enjoy it that much (i often wanted to be the woman). What if this isn't ocd anymore?

I've posted many things here, and seen many things here. But there's this one user PaladinDamian, who offers the most detailed nuanced advice that everyone with this theme needs to hear. Thanks so much PaladinDamian, and I hope that you have peace and joy for the rest of your life !!

I saw a video about a girl talking about 'queer' placements in astrology, and I noticed that I have alot of them. Naturally I spiralled and felt like I was bound to be queer or that i'm secretly kind of lying to myself about not being queer or that I would be queer later on in life. Is astrology accurate for figuring out sexual orientation? I don't know what to do, and i feel like my HOCD itself is just a hoax.

I feel like my life is ending in a way. I feel like I cannot experience any attraction, and I feel like ive been lying to myself my whole life. I've been experiencing more sexual thoughts, where my ocd has been making me spiral about what i did when i was younger (like watching p0rn and focusing on the woman, feeling arousal to women, etc etc). And, I don't know what to do, its becoming worse since I've started to compulsively watch erotic material and started reading comphet to see if I align with any of those emotions. I'm straight, I've been straight, and as of right now I only want a relationship with men, but I've also been questioning if I've actually been attracted to men or if this is just be engaging in heteronormativity. Anyways, I just I can't live my life anymore. Someone out there help me.

I feel like my so-ocd is getting worse and worse. I have officially started compelling myself to look at erotic material, and i got aroused by a n@ked women. Is this official? Am i Bi and out? Honestly, i'm so tired of life and might as well give up trying. So-ocd has singlehandedly ruined everything i've kept dear to me, and im done. I don't know what to do, please help me

hi yall! so im not new to shifting, ive known about it but have never tried it. yesterday i did, and i wanted to talk about my symptoms and i want to know if it is progress.

So the first thing i did was obvi lay down and i started to affirm that i was shifting, and i was in my DR etc etc. But, i felt this internal kind of moving sensation, like my head was like spinning, it felt like my body was transporting, i couldn't see anything except dark. but i knew i was still in my cr cause i could hear sounds and i was like yk awake but with my eyes closed? then at the peak of the motion, i felt this like feeling to open my eyes but i was trying too hard to close it cause i knew i was still here. idk thats just my experience, what do yall think??

I'm a straight girl whos really only ever been attracted to men. i developed so-ocd over a year ago and i find it hard to kind of dispute these thoughts because i had many homo-erotic friendships when i was younger, and struggled with watching lesbian porn. but, i identify as straight because ive somehow only been attracted to men, i only want to be with a man, only want to really have sex with a man, and only have romantic interest in men. But, recently, thoughts of my childhood have been annoying me and now i feel like im secretly bi and that I have to be bi, and that im lying to myself, and what if the OCD is only making it harder for me to admit im bi or gay? I don't know why i was so sexual as a child, and i know i dont want to do any of those things anymore. I seriously need help.