u/atychia

I started playing in season 1 on console. Peaked C1 80% before dropping to C3 in season 1.5. I know that’s the most “boosted season” but hey man I think it counts.

After that I kind of stopped playing for a couple of months and came back on pc. My first season playing the game, I hit gm1 two games off c3 but just couldn’t win and it was the last day of the season so I gave up and went to bed.

I’ve just been at gm3 since and can’t climb any higher mainly because I stopped trying to. Once again I try to hit c3, and get to gm1 on my main. I’m not at -29% at gm1 1 loss away from gm2 knowing full and well I won’t be able to get back to gm1.

I ended up playing on my alt which was gm3, and fell to diamond 1, almost diamond 2. I climbed back to gm3 today but by luck. I’ve lost more than 20 games these past 3-4 days and have only won like less than 10. I actually don’t know what to do. I want to hit eternity but I can’t even hit celestial. I have no clue what I’m doing wrong and it pains me. My mental has also been horrible. I’ve begun crap talking my teammates 10x more than usual. Every game I complain and it’s like I lose focus on improving and just keep getting worse. How I went from losing in gm1 to losing in diamond is beyond me.

I don’t know if I should queue on my main or just give it up.
I’ve tried posting vod reviews but nobody in this sub watches them so there’s no point to that.

I’ve been on lexapro for a couple weeks now, but I haven’t really noticed any changes. I started on 5mg for a week then went up to 10. I had a little nausea and it took me a while to arrive at my destination during freaky time. That lasted maybe a couple days to a week before going back to normal. I then started at 15mg for like a month or it was maybe 2-3 weeks before going up to 20.

I didn’t have many side effects, but at the same didn’t really feel like anything was changing. It was hard to gauge if it was working because I spent most of time at home and hadn’t really interacted with anyone. I was maybe slightly more irritable but also sometimes felt unbothered but that was within maybe the first couple days. After that things kind of went back to “normal”.

I know this isn’t some magic pill meant to get rid of anxiety entirely so I just wanted to know about any signs I should look out for that tells me it’s working. Again I’m sure it would be hard to get a general idea of something like this considering it affects people differently.

I mean I’ve noticed my depression is still kind of there. I haven’t cried in weeks, but there’s just that feeling that kind of sits there and it’s so weird. I also still get anxious about many things and have a hard time actually trying to work through them. Like talking to someone on a video game.

A girl added me thinking I was a girl and wanted to duo with me. I got scared and was going to make up an excuse to leave, but she got off instead. I avoided logging into that account for a couple days because I was afraid of playing with her again even though I wanted to. I tried the whole process me and my therapist went through but it was pretty much useless because I still felt too anxious.

Anyway, should I consider switching or just keep it going? It’s also been almost 2 months since I’ve started. If remember correctly, I’ve been taking it since mid-May.

I was looking at some of his games, and in majority of his games, he averages over 10 deaths a game and he still wins. What’s the difference between him running games down and his playstyle?

I guess Im just in a really bad spot. I’ve always struggled with procrastination and focus, but it’s been pretty bad these last couple of days. I told myself that I would change senior year and set a couple goals for myself. I wanted to maintain a 4.0 GPA while at community college, transfer to a top 20 school, learn how to code/create coding projects, learn more math and complete in math/coding competitions. It fell apart almost immediately.

I spent over $500 on math books just to not read them. I haven’t really learned how to code yet despite taking classes. I’ve forgotten pretty much everything since it never went to use. I haven’t been studying much either. Right now, it feels like all I care about is getting good at video games.

I’ve always used video games as a coping mechanism but it became really unhealthy really fast. I’m very competitive and always want to be the best at whatever I touch. Right now I’m playing this game and I want to hit a specific rank. It’s consumed every part of my being and I can’t focus on anything else. I play for hours on end instead of studying even though I know I’m running out of time.

I still have no extracurriculars, lost my 4.0 due to 2 B’s, and haven’t made any progress elsewhere. It’s like I want to but just simply can’t. I have to get good at this game and don’t know what or what I’m trying to prove.

I just want to change. It really, really feels like I don’t want to as if I’m happy the way I am, but deep down I know I’m not so I have to change.

I have a pretty big amount of math books I bought under the assumption that I would read them. I do think they’re good books but I’ve found other, cheaper methods to getting these exact books and don’t think I’ll need them. They’re all relatively new—I mean I’ve had them for a couple of months but most are unopened and in the exact same condition I purchased them in.

I was thinking about seeking them on amazon since I got them from amazon but I’m not sure.

I want to buy an item that I like but I’m not sure if I’ll regret it once I actually receive it. If I do buy it and refund it after already paying around half of my payment plan, will I get my refund in full?

Apologies if this is an obvious or dumb question

I’ve had my scryox for a couple weeks know and I think it’s pretty good. I stumbled upon the beast x mini pro and It’s been calling my name, but I’ve ignored it. I couldn’t find any reason to buy it when I already have a good mouse (at least I think it’s good).

It could be the sleep deprivation talking, but I really am considering going through with buying the mouse just wanted to know if there is any major differences I should know about to see if I should return my scyrox to amazon or test out the beast x mini pro and refund it.

edit: I also play a lot of competitive games and aim train

I need to change my desk because I got a monitor arm with clamps and my current desk has bars underneath it preventing the clamps from locking on firmly.

I’m looking for something with pretty decent space since my arms are pretty long and my mousepad is the wallhack sp-005 and is quite big.

I don’t have an exact estimate on my budget since my dad is buying it and just told me to pick whichever one I like, but I’d rather not go over $300 and even that feels like pushing it. Also nothing can be underneath the desk preventing the clamps from connecting to the desk for my monitor arm.

My nephews PC keeps crashing whenever he plays. He said it was happening when he turned his monitor to 240hz so we turned it down to 120 and the issue persisted. His driver was up to date so I’m not sure what issue is.

I have pictures, but can’t include them so I’ll try to explain them.

The first read as so “The current input timing is not supported by the monitor display.
Please change your input timing to 1920x1080, 60Hz or any other monitor listed timing as per the monitor specifications.”

Again we tried different hertz and the issue persisted. Also it is a 240hz monitor.

The second picture was just the error screen. Said it ran into an error and it was collecting error info then he was allowed to restart. The wording was blurry and not because of the camera but like the monitor itself was blurry. He said the error screen always stopped at 99 or 100. There was also the kernal message at the bottom but it’s very blurry and hard to make out what it says.

How can I fix this?

I swear I always tell myself this, but today, I don’t know feels worse I guess. I realized I was bisexual in middle school. Rejected it and turned to christianity but realized that even after all that praying, I was still bisexual. Separated from religion, but struggle with internal homophobia was stronger than ever.

High school was when I had my first crush on a boy. I had attraction to feminine men but never really had a crush on any dudes in my daily life. He was my friend and we were really close. I thought he liked me as well but I’ll never know. I never told him how I felt. He got a gf and I just have to live with it.

My sister wanted me to spend the weekend at her place and I decided to go. It was the closest I’ve been with her in a while. I’m very distant with my family out of fear of them not being able to accept me. I also really don’t know how to interact with people. I couldn’t help but think to myself about how she might feel if I came out to her. She’s religious, just like my entire family, so naturally I was terrified. I’m sure they would feel someway about it being the only boy in my family. I guess I fear losing my family even though I’m not close with them.

I probably won’t tell them anytime soon. I’m just trying to finish college and I don’t think I’ll end up with a man anyway. I mean to be fair I probably won’t end up with a girlfriend either. I’m not attractive plus I live a very recluse life, and again, my social skills are horrible so there isn’t much hope for me at the moment. It’s pretty sad I know, it’s just something I’ve begun to accept.

I don’t know it just feels weird. If I was straight, I wouldn’t have to worry about any of this you know.

I.G Name: nyan cat
Platform: PC
Game codes:

10428897706 (Game 1)

107314103198 (Game 2)

Heroes: Spiderman

These games were losses and I played horribly. I was kind of tilted after game 1 and queued anyway. I realized I shouldn’t have done that and tried to back put before game 2 but it was too late.

Both games felt impossible. I couldn’t do anything. I did have some drone moments and would like to know what I should change.

Also, if anyone knows the answers to these questions it would be nice.

How do I engage a luna? or how do I engage when they have a luna who keeps freezing me when I fight her or another support?

What do I do when a dps hard focuses me?

I’m having a little trouble with Re4 FG repack. At first it wouldn’t let me download the game even though antivirus was off and so was smart app control. Got it working and tried to play today. I forgot to turn off the antivirus when I clicked on the game and got protected. I tried to make an exception but the file just disappeared. It said “Trojan….(insert forgot the rest)” but I knew it was a false positive.

I don’t want to have uninstall then reinstall the game entirely and I tried to just verify the files similar to steam but I couldn’t find a way to restore it. I’ve checked protection history but nothing shows up there. Will I have to reinstall the game or is there an easier way to go about it?

Also how can I avoid this?

I’m just tired of being bad. I started playing season 1 back on console and hit celestial 1 in season 1.5. I stopped playing shortly after and came back a couple times but played like 3-5 games in season 3. I fully came back during the daredevil season but I was on a different platform. I was trying to learn pc and it was difficult.

189 hours later, I peaked gm1. I should’ve hit celestial but I got lost 3 in a row and just gave up before I deranked. I’ve been stuck in diamond all season 7 and just got gm3.

I really want to hit eternity but I’m not sure what it is I’m missing. I just need to know what I should focus on learning and understanding so I can rank up. I already know about a couple things from overwatch (positioning, ebb and flow, cooldowns), but I only just started playing again after a 1 year break and again on a new platform.

Sorry for the yapping.