im starting brock soon im just wondering do I absolutely need to bring a laptop into my classes? Can i just use a notebook instead? I have a laptop at home but I dont feel comfortable bringing it to school because its super old ans cannot be brought anywhere without risk of it breaking plus the battery dies in like 30 minutes.
Im going to a event that i usually go to with my best friend T but i want to invite my friend S. I was going to tell S im going with my best friend -
“ btw its just me and my bestie T who are going but youre totally welcome to bring a friend along too! like O if she would like to join us:) “
O is my friend too so is it rude to invite her through S? Should i just invite O personally myself like how i invited S?
idk if this is cringe, but i genuinely have nobody to talk to about this and it affects my mental health to the point where i cant think about anything else
basically ive never been in a relationship with a girl or even had any romantic interaction with a girl in my whole life. (im 19) now this wouldn’t really be a problem if i didn’t develop feelings for girls so easily, and crush to the point where i cant get over people
every single girl who ive ever crushed on has either been crushing on a man at the same time, or later got with a man.
I also notice that whenever it try to manifest a girl that i really like, she gets into a relationship like a month later. I dont want to be overly superstitious or anything but that genuinely makes me so mad and i cant seem to find anyone with the same problem as me. Its like im manifesting their relationship with someone else or my manifestations are somehow backfiring on me i cant explain it but its so annoying
And the fact that it takes me soo long to get over people makes it so much worse
its also not for my lack of trying, i go out of my way to talk to the person im crushing on, try to get to know them better, and imo its always pretty obvious i have a crush on them. (Some) Other people who have similar problems to me dont even try to get the attention of their crush but i always try, it just feels like my efforts are being wasted. (they arent all tho cuz i do make some good friends out of it but still)
its also not cause im unattractive, i consider myself pretty and i get compliments by both men and women but only men have been romantically interested in me. ive been approached by men my whole life, which genuinely sucks so bad cuz im not interested im men at ALL. Like why cant women be interested in me like men are i just dont get it. as far as i know, a girl has never been into me like that forget about the ones i like.
I crush on a new girl every single year and every single year i have to force myself to get over the crush cause i realize i have no chance. sometimes i consider being with a man just so i can experience a relationship, but i would never actually do that cause that would be lying to both myself and my partner.
the worst part isnt me being single forever though, its the fact that every person i like likes someone else. Thats what hurts me the most.
sorry this is so long, i just really needed to get this off my mind.