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I really don’t want any judgement or to be pushed away here.

So I was very spiritual and I’ve had the gift my whole life, on and off, but last year I started seeing 😈’s and really graphic/scary visions and it totally put me off. I pretty much binned all my spiritual stuff and tried to shut all my abilities off. It happened when I was falling asleep and it’s the only time I’ve ever truly been scared. It’s never happened at all until then, before that it was pleasant experiences. It happened about 5 times. Different ones though. If you have any insight I’d really appreciate it. What I saw was horrifying. What I saw the first time was this thing with black skin, a proper mangled mouth with blood dripping from it and a burned face. It sort of flashed on and off like a light switch when it showed itself to me, it’s the only way I can describe it. Then it honestly looked like it was standing in the back of a church up a height. Then the second time it was one with red skin, horns and it was angry but this was more like a still photo than a vision. And then a one with black skin and a snake tongue just sticking out with a menacing look. And just very scary visions. Then there was this grey thing on all fours, I saw it coming through a door or walked in and then went on all fours and and it sort of leaped and came right up to me and I opened my eyes because it was so creepy.

Those visions only happened when I was starting to fall asleep. It totally put me off so I just stepped back from it all, it’s never happened at all in the entirety of my life until then. I’ve spoken to people about it who are sort of spiritual but they think I’m just imagining things hence why I thought I’d ask here.

I think it’s been my own doing at the time I was into witchcraft and tarot and crystals pretty heavily from being about 16. But I’ve had those other abilities my whole life. I was still meditating and getting nice stuff but then it did turn sinister. I also had bought spell oils which seemed fairly innocent but it was from a witch who at the time I didn’t know, worked with succubus spirits. I also worshipped Greek/Norse Gods at the time specifically Hekate and Freya. At the time I was really going through a lot mentally as well, as my auntie who passed away recently, it was when she had first been diagnosed with cancer and also my partner of 6 years pretty much, cheated on me all in the same week. I also had a vision of a poppet ( you know used in witchcraft) and saw somebody doing spells but I knew it wasn’t my working. So I thought maybe I was just operating at a low vibration. Which made me think something had been put on me. After I had those visions I left it all behind and threw it all out and actually for the first time ever I prayed and read the bible. And like I say since then I have been put off and I turned to Jesus. And since then I’ve avoided anything remotely relating to spiritual stuff.

The other night it happened again but this time I saw something with a gold crown on its head with long hair. It only happens now and again and it’s only when I’m falling asleep. It isn’t mental health issues as what I saw I couldn’t have made up if that makes sense. It was so scary. I’ve also been since told my a medium that it was demons I was seeing but they gave me no more advice.

I’d appreciate any help here . How can I stop this and how can I protect myself from ever seeing them again. I didn’t intentionally do demon work and I feel like they’ve been sent to me . Thank you.

I know it seems like I just ramble on my posts but it’s really getting to me.

I posted my first TikTok of me and I’ve had my exes girlfriend on a fake page already she accidentally liked my post and blocked me seconds after. It’s so obviously her because why block me. I think she is trying to mock me as she has a very similar profile photo to me too. It seems like she genuinely must stalk me from a fake page and when looking has accidentally liked my post and blocked me right away. But it’s really getting a bit much regardless of who it is. It was 0 following, 0 followers and 0 posts likes reposts etc. I shouldn’t have to shy away or feel nervous being on social media. I also can’t prove anything. Obviously I’m now concerned about fake pages as it was a selfie of me and I still have reason to believe she is the one who made a fake page of my mother. It really has me so down because as if there wasn’t enough heartache it’s still continuing now.

Hello.

This is really random but I lost contact with my childhood best friend, I’d known him since I was a newborn pretty much, we were very young when we met. For context my godmother is his auntie but I’m not that close with her any more, I’ve seen her a few times but always just in passing, I haven’t seen her as in to meet up since 2013, I’ll always ask how she is and how him and his parents and brother are when I see her. I don’t have her number any more either so it isn’t as simple as just saying “ hey how is ____” I came across some photos and wondered how he was doing and wanted to reach out, he was a little older than me by like 3 years so we lost contact when he was in year 9 of secondary school as I was still in primary school or year 7, so there was an age difference so I get that completely. As I say I haven’t seen him since 2013.I searched him up on instagram and he actually came up, and it turns out he’s actually doing very well for himself and is a premier league footballer now ( I don’t keep up with football so I had no idea). So obviously it’s utterly unlikely he’d see my message having so many followers and probably endless messages.

I know people will just say “ message your godmother” but as I said I no longer have her number and it would seem as though as I’m just messaging her to get in contact with him. I was thinking because I actually know him and he isn’t just some random public figure I took a liking to, it might make manifesting easier. I’m actually genuinely looking to rekindle our friendship, we had some great times together and it was like a crazy moment to see he followed his passion and has made a professional career from it. Part of me thinks because he’s famous now that he might have forgotten who I am or think I’m just reaching out because he’s successful. I also think he’d have a girlfriend and probably wouldn’t want to be friends like we were when we were children. I know these are limiting beliefs. But I genuinely was totally unaware he was in the public eye/famous. As of lately I have had quite a few signs as well.

Has any one had any success with manifesting a celebrity/public figure? And which methods worked well for you? I was looking into some methods but I’m unsure what would be best. I find other people’s success stories encouraging. Thank you.

Hello.

This is really random but I lost contact with my childhood best friend, I’d known him since I was a newborn pretty much, we were very young when we met. For context my godmother is his auntie but I’m not that close with her any more, I’ve seen her a few times but always just in passing, I haven’t seen her as in to meet up since 2013, I’ll always ask how she is and how him and his parents and brother are when I see her. I don’t have her number any more either so it isn’t as simple as just saying “ hey how is ____” I came across some photos and wondered how he was doing and wanted to reach out, he was a little older than me by like 3 years so we lost contact when he was in year 9 of secondary school as I was still in primary school or year 7, so there was an age difference so I get that completely. As I say I haven’t seen him since 2013.I searched him up on instagram and he actually came up, and it turns out he’s actually doing very well for himself and is a premier league footballer now ( I don’t keep up with football so I had no idea). So obviously it’s utterly unlikely he’d see my message having so many followers and probably endless messages.

I know people will just say “ message your godmother” but as I said I no longer have her number and it would seem as though as I’m just messaging her to get in contact with him. I was thinking because I actually know him and he isn’t just some random public figure I took a liking to, it might make manifesting easier. I’m actually genuinely looking to rekindle our friendship, we had some great times together and it was like a crazy moment to see he followed his passion and has made a professional career from it. Part of me thinks because he’s famous now that he might have forgotten who I am or think I’m just reaching out because he’s successful. I also think he’d have a girlfriend and probably wouldn’t want to be friends like we were when we were children. I know these are limiting beliefs. But I genuinely was totally unaware he was in the public eye/famous. As of lately I have had quite a few signs as well.

Has any one had any success with manifesting a celebrity/public figure? And which methods worked well for you? I was looking into some methods but I’m unsure what would be best. I find other people’s success stories encouraging. Thank you.

Hello.

This is really random but I lost contact with my childhood best friend, I’d known him since I was a newborn pretty much, we were very young when we met. For context my godmother is his auntie but I’m not that close with her any more, I’ve seen her a few times but always just in passing, I haven’t seen her as in to meet up since 2013, I’ll always ask how she is and how him and his parents and brother are when I see her. I don’t have her number any more either so it isn’t as simple as just saying “ hey how is _____” I came across some photos and wondered how he was doing and wanted to reach out, he was a little older than me by like 3 years so we lost contact when he was in year 9 of secondary school as I was still in primary school or year 7, so there was an age difference so I get that completely. As I say I haven’t seen him since 2013.I searched him up on instagram and he actually came up, and it turns out he’s actually doing very well for himself and is a premier league footballer now ( I don’t keep up with football so I had no idea). So obviously it’s utterly unlikely he’d see my message having so many followers and probably endless messages.

I know people will just say “ message your godmother” but as I said I no longer have her number and it would seem as though as I’m just messaging her to get in contact with him. I was thinking because I actually know him and he isn’t just some random public figure I took a liking to, it might make manifesting easier. I’m actually genuinely looking to rekindle our friendship, we had some great times together and it was like a crazy moment to see he followed his passion and has made a professional career from it. Part of me thinks because he’s famous now that he might have forgotten who I am or think I’m just reaching out because he’s successful. I also think he’d have a girlfriend and probably wouldn’t want to be friends like we were when we were children. I know these are limiting beliefs. But I genuinely was totally unaware he was in the public eye/famous. As of lately I have had quite a few signs as well.

Has any one had any success with manifesting a celebrity/public figure? And which methods worked well for you? I was looking into some methods but I’m unsure what would be best. I find other people’s success stories encouraging. Thank you.

Hello.

This is really random but I lost contact with my childhood best friend, I’d known him since I was a newborn pretty much, we were very young when we met. For context my godmother is his auntie but I’m not that close with her any more, I’ve seen her a few times but always just in passing, I haven’t seen her as in to meet up since 2013, I’ll always ask how she is and how him and his parents and brother are when I see her. I don’t have her number any more either so it isn’t as simple as just saying “ hey how is _____” I came across some photos and wondered how he was doing and wanted to reach out, he was a little older than me by like 3 years so we lost contact when he was in year 9 of secondary school as I was still in primary school or year 7, so there was an age difference so I get that completely. As I say I haven’t seen him since 2013.I searched him up on instagram and he actually came up, and it turns out he’s actually doing very well for himself and is a premier league footballer now ( I don’t keep up with football so I had no idea). So obviously it’s utterly unlikely he’d see my message having so many followers and probably endless messages.

I know people will just say “ message your godmother” but as I said I no longer have her number and it would seem as though as I’m just messaging her to get in contact with him. I was thinking because I actually know him and he isn’t just some random public figure I took a liking to, it might make manifesting easier. I’m actually genuinely looking to rekindle our friendship, we had some great times together and it was like a crazy moment to see he followed his passion and has made a professional career from it. Part of me thinks because he’s famous now that he might have forgotten who I am or think I’m just reaching out because he’s successful. I also think he’d have a girlfriend and probably wouldn’t want to be friends like we were when we were children. I know these are limiting beliefs. But I genuinely was totally unaware he was in the public eye/famous. As of lately I have had quite a few signs as well.

Has any one had any success with manifesting a celebrity/public figure? And which methods worked well for you? I was looking into some methods but I’m unsure what would be best. I find other people’s success stories encouraging. Thank you.

Hello.

This is really random but I lost contact with my childhood best friend, I’d known him since I was a newborn pretty much, we were very young when we met. For context my godmother is his auntie but I’m not that close with her any more, I’ve seen her a few times but always just in passing, I haven’t seen her as in to meet up since 2013, I’ll always ask how she is and how him and his parents and brother are when I see her. I don’t have her number any more either so it isn’t as simple as just saying “ hey how is ____”. I came across some photos and wondered how he was doing and wanted to reach out, he was a little older than me by like 3 years so we lost contact when he was in year 9 of secondary school as I was still in primary school or year 7, so there was an age difference so I get that completely. As I say I haven’t seen him since 2013.I searched him up on instagram and he actually came up, and it turns out he’s actually doing very well for himself and is a premier league footballer now ( I don’t keep up with football so I had no idea). So obviously it’s utterly unlikely he’d see my message having so many followers and probably endless messages.

I know people will just say “ message your godmother” but as I said I no longer have her number and it would seem as though as I’m just messaging her to get in contact with him. I was thinking because I actually know him and he isn’t just some random public figure I took a liking to, it might make manifesting easier. I’m actually genuinely looking to rekindle our friendship, we had some great times together and it was like a crazy moment to see he followed his passion and has made a professional career from it. Part of me thinks because he’s famous now that he might have forgotten who I am or think I’m just reaching out because he’s successful. I also think he’d have a girlfriend and probably wouldn’t want to be friends like we were when we were children. I know these are limiting beliefs. But I genuinely was totally unaware he was in the public eye/famous. As of lately I have had quite a few signs as well.

Has any one had any success with manifesting a celebrity/public figure? And which methods worked well for you? Thank you.

For context I’ve had issues from being 17 and I’m almost 25 now and I’ve never really bad answers I just got told in December I have a tight pelvic floor. Even women family members undermined me when I knew something was wrong.

Today I was meant to have my first smear test, I was so bad and they gave me gas and air but I ended up having a panic attack and hyperventilating when on gas and air and she couldn’t continue. I feel really defeated and upset that I got to that stage and I wish I powered through, I genuinely think I went into shock too, because I don’t remember much but it could also be from the gas and air. She said I was really distressed and she couldn’t do it.

I then have to be referred again to be sedated for it and I’m really worried. It wasn’t a nice experience at all and having to be to put to sleep.!