u/barelydetatched

Social girl in moon with her close friends in other states..
I’m not someone who needs to see a friend every day but I’m definitely up for more time spent with others :)

If you’re into games, music, hiking, cosplay, dinners/brunch/drinks shoot me a message!

Who else is grieving someone who is alive?

Sometimes I wonder if one of the hardest kinds of grief is meeting someone who felt like they matched a part of your soul you didn’t even know existed, only for life to pull you in different directions.
There isn’t a funeral. No one brings casseroles. No one really knows because the words were never spoken to begin with.
You’re just left with memories and a thousand versions of “what if.”
Some days it feels like the flame burned out. Other days it feels like all that’s left is soot. You can still tell there was a fire once, but all you have now are the marks it left behind.
I’ve experienced other kinds of loss in my life, and somehow this grief sits beside them instead of separate from them. It doesn’t scream anymore. It just quietly exists.
I catch myself wondering if I’ll always think of him. If he’ll ever know how much they changed me. If he’s carrying any of the same questions, or if I’m the only one still visiting a place that no longer exists.
Maybe that’s the hardest part of grief. Not that you can’t go back, but that the version of you who lived there can’t either.
I don’t really need advice. I think I just want to know I’m not the only woman who’s loved someone she couldn’t keep, and still catches herself mourning the life that never happened.

Goose.

Hey all I am going to LL for the first time this year and looking to make friends and go on fun sidequests.

DM me if you’d like to be mutuals on IG or Radiate!

I’m 420 friendly
Love a Kandi trade
I’ll be camping and I’m so unprepared lol
I’m a boy mom who is raising a bb riddim rat and I am here for the MAMAS 💜✨

I’ll tell you what I’m into if you can hold a convo 🤣

Just so you know.
At the time if you would have kept going, maybe.
Keep me closer, just like you used to, one more time?
Eyes don’t lie.

But…

You kissed me like you were.
You held me like you were.
You fit like you were.
You licked me like you were.
You bit me like you were.
You said good morning every day and good night before you fell asleep each night like you were.

The universe sent me you and it felt like you were supposed to be.
It absolutely devastates me every day knowing what you’re left with and how broken you are from a change of heart you never asked for. And I did it to you, after she did… and I’m sorry.
Your words stopped matching your actions, I felt unimportant and of course I ran.
You were never mine.

But
You were meant to be loved by me.

I’m not going to share what I’m into, let’s just see if we vibe. Bonus points if you can make me laugh (in my inbox)

Let’s cook again together
Eat again together
Cuddle again together
Watch your comfort show together
Act like it wasn’t anything special to each others’ faces
It is Wednesday after all 🥺🫶🏼

Why won’t you start an actual conversation? Why do you have to run and hide? Why do you keep it surface level when you know I’m not a surface level kind of girlie 🤣

When I’m out dancing, I look for you.
When I’m driving, I look for your car.
When I stop for gas, I hope you’re there.
When I’m dreaming, I look for you.
But I don’t dream anymore

Today I decided I’m not letting my emotions get the best of me. Don’t work too hard :) I really miss you. I hope you have happy thoughts and get done early so you can rest later.

i wish i could just be someone who says “i hope you’re good too” and keeps it moving. but you were never just someone to me.
there’s still a part of me that wants to reach for you, to close the distance, to pretend this could exist in a way that doesn’t hurt. but i know better now. i know what it costs me.
so i’ll keep the words here instead. i hope you’re good. i hope you’re happy. and i hope wherever you are, you’re taking care of yourself the way i wish i could.

I know I’d break down. Collapse in your arms all over again. I miss how nothing else mattered when you held me. I need that safety so bad right now but I’ll never ask for it again.

In high school we went to chipotle 2-3 times a week after school like it was a job and idk why 🤣😩 I’m curious if anyone had a go to spot after to eat, chill and how it might differ with other generations. Hope you’re having a good day!!

Guess my sun and moon 🤣

I think the hardest part to sit with is knowing some people can completely reshape a relationship and never take accountability for what that does to anyone else.

Change the future you promised.

Pull away.

Look elsewhere.

Open doors that were never supposed to be open.

And then move through life like none of it had impact.

Meanwhile, the fallout lands on people who were never part of the original decisions.

I didn’t create any of it, but I still had to feel it. And yeah… that makes me angry.

I’ve been dealing with a really intense “twin flame” type connection for over a year now..The kind where you KNOW it’s not good for you, but you can’t fully detach no matter how logical you try to be.

So I hit a point where I was like… I just want peace. I don’t even care how I get it at this point. And yeah. I hired a witch…

Not to mess with him or anything…more like energy clearing, helping me let go, get unstuck, whatever you want to call it. I did it for my career too lol.

I want to believe it’ll help. I’ve really be trying to put belief into what I want and not dwell on what I don’t have. But honestly, just doing sometning made me feel a tiny bit more in control of my own brain again.

I’m curious if anyone else has ever gone a little off script trying to move on from someone like this. Also pls don’t be mean. This connection has shattered me open in the best and worst way and I’m really hanging on by a thread.