u/beautiful_disguise99

I don't mean to villainize anyone or stir the pot. I just want to clear my head and ask questions and everything. Im starting to question why I even bother with people in general. I clearly have issues with a lot of extreme republicans in terms of homophobia, xenophobia etc. But it really bugs me that SOME left leaning people will preach against intolerance and bigotry only to turn around and say things that boil down to "all white people are racist" "all men are bad" etc. But when you point out the hypocrisy in those statements they comeback with "you cant oppress the oppresser" or anything else to justify it. For a lack of better words I've only ever felt like 'one of the good ones' when following left leaning pages. Im just tired of holding it in SOME of yall are as close minded and prejudice as a lot of conservatives. And yes I know why some people say these things as history shows. But I still don't think its ok to judge anyone based on something they can't change or for they identity no matter who they are. Idk I might be a misanthrope but I don't know for sure. What's your opinion?

Everyone in my family annoys me and I want to get away from them. But im reliant on my family to help me with bills, medication, finances etc. Because im neurodivergent. My grandma and grandpa are both super homophobic im aromantic and one of my cousins is i think bisexual idk because I hate her for my own reasons. but everytime I had a problem with her or her parenting i would get sidelined and my concerns ignored because 'you should help family' but only had a problem with her dating a woman saying she's "possessed" that's why I hate my grandma. I wanna hurt her but i know i can't. That and I hate my parents for not giving a fuck. My mom and my dad both. I just hate people in general. All of you suck your all fake and humanity is not worth saving.

Everyone in my family annoys me and I want to get away from them. But im reliant on my family to help me with bills, medication, finances etc. Because im neurodivergent. My grandma and grandpa are both super homophobic im aromantic and one of my cousins is i think bisexual idk because I hate her for my own reasons. but everytime I had a problem with her or her parenting i would get sidelined and my concerns ignored because 'you should help family' but only had a problem with her dating a woman saying she's "possessed" that's why I hate my grandma. I wanna hurt her but i know i can't. That and I hate my parents for not giving a fuck. My mom and my dad both. I just hate people in general. All of you suck your all fake and humanity is not worth saving.

Fuck the far right fuck the far left. Fuck my grandma and her stupid homophobia. Fuck the alternative community and Christianity and performative activists for always sitting on your moral high horse. You all act like you spread love and positivity and act like your a safe space. YOUR NOT YOUR ALL A BUNCH OF HYPOCRITES. I could care less about people. Empathy is a disease. I never loved anyone and never will FUCK ALL OF YOU. Since you want me gone so bad I'll live my life alone. Ill leave ill never do anything for anyone ever again. hope your happy.

Ive tried to care about others but everyone sees me as a horrible person anyway so I thought fuck it. I DONT CARE. Truthfully if it doesn't effect me I dont give a fuck. (OH your a horrible person) (you lack empathy) cool. Empathy and virtue signaling have gotten me nowhere. Im still a chud, poor, get no women, all of that people still say. Ive tried therapy and it doesn't fucking work. It never has for me. Mostly because i dont like bitching about shit i know I dont feel like changing. In conclusion im tired of caring.

Im from oklahoma and this is my first time dealing with merch fan and auspost. I ordered a sunk loto shirt cause im a fan of them (its there 2022 tour shirt) will i read reviews on not only merch fan but also auspost being very unreliable. I hope I didn't end up wasting $40 (it added 17 dollars for international shipping) what are your experiences mailing through them to other countries?

And to clarify NO IM NOT AN INCEL/WOMAN HATER.

its a horrible waste of time to hate others for who they are.

Correct me if im wrong but ive seen this double standard since high school. When a woman can't drive, No one bats an eye. But when a man can't drive, he's "lazy" he's a bum, etc. (This pertains to people with disabilities) im on the spectrum and I feel so embarrassed by the fact i can't drive, dont have a job currently, and I dont live on my own, I hate how I can't meet societies expectations. Maybe im too sensitive for my own good sometimes. Ive already given up on love. I wish i was a different person.

I don't know. If im wrong here do let me know.

This goes into deeper issues then family but I put it under because it counts.

In 2023 my cousin moved in with us until she got a place (not the first time she stayed with us btw). And i hated every second of it. She had her first child in her 20s and now has 3 kids. She was barely in her children's lives mostly being babysat by my grandparents (who i live with) or other immediate family. But when she was it was non stop yelling, cussing, and spanking her kids for what feels like anything. I tried making myself heard to my grandma but she wouldn't hear it. Making excuses for her shitty parenting (she very old school and believes so heavily on corporal punishment that its useless to say anything) i felt like I wasnt heard or was ganged up on. What made it worse was issues i had in school i won't bring up here because its nothing compared to this. But i did end up finishing the rest of my senior year at home rather than in school. I developed second hand trauma from her to the point im scared of her. I would hide somewhere just to get away from it all. I developed such a strong hatred for her. And some slightly to my grandma because she only had a problem with her being lesbian and not everything else. My hatred for them spread out to other women and I started saying shitty things about women in hopes that someone would finally hear me. One moment from that time I remember was an Instagram chat I had with my friend at the time. It was some video of a shallow woman and I responded to it to the effect of "women dont deserve equal rights" looking back on it i feel stupid. i knew better but I didn't care cause I thought women could get a free pass to be shitty people at the time. (I think it goes with out saying everybody is equal and should be treated as such) now i feel like all my anger and apathy towards the world, politics, etc. All stems from her. She's the reason im antinatalist. Im truly apathetic towards anything anymore. And people preaching to me about morals and how "im a peace of shit if I dont follow politics or because im a man. Only amplifys it. Call it what you want to but I truthfully don't care if it doesn't effect me or anyone else I know. Its a waste of time to. Im just so tired of bullshit. Im tired of trying to fit the mold. I wish people loved me for who I am. If love is even real at this point.

A little mix of post-grunge and nu metal. Thoughts?