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a few days ago i posted a piece i was making for my friend that i was unhappy with (3rd pic). I went back to the drawing board the next day after buying some fresh paint (a lot of mine had dried up or ran low without me realizing) and a new canvas.

As you can see, I started with the same idea (nostalgic summer evening/fireflies). Then I got most of the way through and still hated it. Even after simplifying all of the other ideas I had and just focusing on the main goal. I felt like it looked really flat and not quite like my usual art (low key sip and paint vibes- no offense to those who do sip and paint thats just not my goal).

Ive been getting over being sick and after taking a short break I realized I had no perspective or real depth. At least not in the ways I normally try to have. I wanted the sky to pop more and it still didn’t feel quite like how I wanted it to.

I also couldn’t shake that I really did want the trees to be blue and to use blue more. So, I traced out the new sight lines and adjusted the tree line then little by little added more of what i wanted.

I finished it off with some chalk and oil pastels (especially for the fireflies) and wrapped the sides with the landscape as well.

While im still not the happiest with it- it’s way closer to my original goal. It being so small I don’t think i could fully capture my vision- I will try again on a bigger canvas in the future.

Thanks Everyone!!

recently been adding stickers cause lil bambi has gotten up there in mileage (almost 250k), if yall have any tips to keep her running forever…

dirty mirror reveal, im growing my hair our still but in 3 years w consistent trims. first 3 pics are current, 4th pic is 1 year ago, last 2 pics are 3 years old. i was growing out my natural hair after bleaching to help w health and restore my wave pattern.

edit; i fr dont understand why my replies to people are being downvoted- if you take one scroll through this sub you would see most people post hair thats touching their butt, mine fr isnt even close to that…. yall are fr weird?

hi everyone- painted a lil disco for my friends birthday.

mostly acrylic, some gouache. i usually paint with really natural palettes but ive recently started to underpaint and work on extending out of my comfort zone.

i will also add, most of my gouache was mega dry and i was trying to rehydrate which caused some issues with mixing different shade varieties. im getting new paints i just didnt feel like leaving my house today.

open to kind critiques. i think the sparkles are fat lol but also i added them as a saving grace because im not super happy w the brushwork.

i usually paint smol canvases but i do struggle with my line work and not getting blobby strokes- if anyone has any advice.

thanks in advance :)

i made a post a few months ago about seven doing this. today i captured her up close and personal.

lil girl is very fashion forward and likes to accessorize- recently, I havent been putting too much thought into my outfits and its shown. I went shopping and got a cute set, came home to try on and put together the whole fit’. once i changed back into my comfy clothes seven immediately came over to let me know she thinks im cool enough to hang out with again.

seven is 3, in the time ive had her she has migrated from sleeping at the foot of the other side of the bed to the foot right under me. then next to me. most recently she’s been choosing the pillows on the other side of the bed for a few months- its been very cute even tho the hair is crazy. welp. this week she decided to migrate again to sleep now on my pillows with me. i’m not complaining as its my new favorite thing, but i am certainly looking forward to wherever she tries to sleep next (taking bets in the comments).

my sister sent me a photo of herself from an event she is at. the only thing i can focus on is TV Too High. obv ive masked the identities of everyoje and i hope thats not too distracting. a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.

emo gorl aka lil girl aka teenie tiny aka dirty sock- cause ahe just be laying on the floor lookin like a tube sock

hi! pic of my recent smudge add for visibility (also peep the 2015 right behind me)-

i have a 2011 fit with abt 240k miles on her. i love her. i hope she never dies but at the same time im not looking to spend a lot to try and fix her either. last year the driver side speaker started to crack, so i just adjusted the sound settings to be fully passenger. fine. but today, the right side started not to crack as much as go in and out then sometimes crack.

driving with music is everything to me. ive had this car for 5 years and it didnt have ac until last year- i had a 2 hour commute (both ways) with stand still traffic and ac still wasnt as big of a priority to me as making sure my music could play.

is there anything i can do!!

thanks in advance

hi friends! this is a bit of an awk post but im hoping for some understanding. I was a rag kid… no, not a blankie, not one specific blanket. I had multiple rags, some were more loved than others but they were my comfort item and i couldnt sleep without one. Even now as an adult, Ive realized the blanket I got for my bed mimics the texture, color and fabric of my rags (these were in the attic of my parents house until this weekend). My most recent ex (no hate) even pointed out I tend to unconsciously “pie crust”, especially when im needing comfort… sort of like a cat… my girl cat does this to the blanket too so i guess we are twins.

anyway, my dad had been threatening to find and dispose/use them as motor and cleaning rags (what a dick), so i had them hidden for a long time but not really knowing what id do with them- I just dont want that to be what their purpose is, I still love them very much (idk what that says abt me that its the most inanimate choice, faceless, small and by all means… garbage…) I want to turn them into something hopefully without cutting too much. any thoughts other than just one large blanket?

p.s. they are mostly all 100% cotton, maybe a few are a poly blend. and no, i dont intend to have kids i could pass them down to nor do i think id want to since id be crushed if something happened (oopsie).

first chart and table is synastry, second chart and table are composite.

met this person 3 years ago now and started off as friends… turned into sort of a hallmark type relationship but shortly after i moved- we continued long distance for almost 2 years and we best friends. first kiss was literally on a super blue moon under the stars. had our own turbulence and we both have a lot of attachment trauma and trauma in general. Ive usually been very independent and happy on my own, but this person felt so special. broke up out of the blue on a full moon that uranus was conjunct his dc & my world fell apart at the same time. a bit over a year later now; ive been really working on myself, finding my loves and passions again, removed a lot of excess stress from my life and actively have improved my own circumstances- even after all that, i dont know why i cant shake this person. My main goals recently have really been about self development, working on who I want to be and become, working on my own trauma, getting social again, art, writing, reading, everything- im not looking for any love or relationship right now and actively want to de-center love from my life (i dont think or what to end up alone, i just genuinely want to ensure i enjoy my life no matter if its with a partner or not) but I always end up stuck in this.

idk what else to do?

Ive been studying astrology for almost 10 years now and more seriously for 6, newer to synastry and ive hardly looked at composite charts.

thanks again in advance!

posting here for a feel good story!

I found seven when she was 5-6 months old, i had seen her around my neighborhood and something immediately clicked that she was mine but I already had my boy cat and wasnt gonna trap her, especially if she had a home. A few weeks go by and as im returning home at midnight after my shift I see another neighborhood cat (i know his owners) in my driveway, so ofc i ran inside to grab some treats for him. as im running in, Seven jumps out of my bushes and follows me. I kept her outside and went to get treats and so,e food for her. That night I brought her in for a few minutes (maybe an hour) to check to see she wasnt hurt then released with the faith that if she continues to return shes mine….

well, the very next day, I was outside working on some stuff and low and behold she trots right over and would not leave. I brought her right to the vet to get checked for chips or lost registration as well as a checkup since i had a thought she may be pregnant (her lil belly was sticking out but not much, yet more than kitten pudge). They brought her in the back (wouldnt allow me with her… shouldve been a red flag), returned her to me and said she had no chip and wasnt pregnant but was healthy otherwise…. so I brought her inside and still awaited to see if anyone claimed her- no one did. In the weeks that followed we discovered she was infested with fleas which was an issue in itself of bringing her into an animal friendly house (idk why the vets didnt see them…. again…. not good), and while giving her the (im an inside cat now) bath, I saw her lil nipples and really was convinced she was pregnant. A few more days pass (she was pretty isolated still but fleas travel quick so) and I was trying to name her- anything from pippa, poppy, pea- there were others I just can’t remember. but I mostly called her grumblina since she would want a lot of pets but grumble (in hindsight, she was def really uncomfortable from being pregnant), but I also figured she was a bit feral and needed to warm up to it.

send hate if u want idc- but I ended up watching the Taylor Swift long pond studios folklore movie (I love that album btw, it really is poetry, and ive always specifically liked the song seven). now, in the movie, Taylor explains the background to the songs blah blah. and when she was explaining Seven she noted the reflecting back on when you were a kid in a grocery store and you would just throw a tempter tantrum at the drop of a hat, emotions were so accessible- yet as you get older they get swallowed, that emotion never really dies though, you just learn better… anyway that explanation along with the lyrics;

Please picture me
In the weeds
Before I learned civility
I used to scream ferociously
Any time I wanted

felt very much so like feral cat turned indoor cat energy. My favorite number has always been 7 (the number of letters in my name along with many other things, 7 is also just a very common lucky #) and the Men I Trust song Seven is also one of my favs. With that and her immediate response to it; Seven was her name and she is indeed a very lucky girl.

now this didnt solve that I was pretty convinced of her condition (teenage pregnancy), Luckily, my brother works at a vet 3 hours away so she got packed up into the car and off we went. on the drive, i felt so horrible for her- she obviously was sick from the motion and did all 3 bodily functions (thankfully we were close to his house when it happened). the minute I arrived he snatched her right up and brought her in. we gave her another flea bath and more meds (dont get on me abt flea shit, this was at a vet and she is fine), and about 15 mins after he sent me a text of her x-ray… 4 little spines inside of her teenie stomach.

The conversation originally was abort and spay since she was so little (4-5 pounds), but after chatting more with the doctor it was determined that it was too far along and would be more risky to try that. So… decision was made that she was to stay at her uncles until her babies were born, then she was to be spayed/recovered/shots/ chipped and return home to me… Yes, I did ship my teenage pregnant daughter off lol… this decision was best since he lived very close to the office and has the medical training that if complications were to arise, she would have better access to care to save her and her babies- Plus, our house had far too many dogs and other cats in it that it would probably be a more stressful environment for her and easier for her to misplace a baby or have something happen…

Just two short weeks later on august 3rd in the middle of the night, under my brothers bed (the one place he said she better not have her babies), she safely had 4 kittens; 3 girls and a boy. White Girl, Black Girl, Black Boy and one Black and White Girl (her little twin) who coincidentally had a 7 mark on her back (believe in fate or not, this was weird- even my cynic brother agreed).

Almost 3 years later now, all of the kittens had been adopted out to people he knew via his vet office (friends or friends of friends) and all 3 solid color babies had been brought in for checkups + spay/neuter. Yet, her little twin (who we almost kept) still was MIA- as soon as 2 weeks ago I was texting my brother that I missed that one and wish we had an update. he reassured me that its likely her owner brought her to a clinic for care as its less expensive and that shes surely in good hands but agreed that he also wished we knew.

low and behold, last night I get a text of updated photos of the last baby! her twin! All 4 of them are very big in comparison, so its likely their dad was a bigger cat (also seven just never grew after getting pregnant so young, so whos to know). They all have weird proportions of round head or pointy snout or giant ears, but its so heartwarming to see that my lil girl’s babies are all happy, healthy and loved.

spay and neuter your cats yall, stop letting them roam wild. they are invasive and kill natural wildlife as well. it is our responsibility to try and protect the more innocent and prevent injury and ailment. fight me all you want. when your cat gets hit by a car or stolen or hunted, you wont be happy.

P.S- seven lives a very spoiled life now, she is emo but loves cuddles, playing fetch, cronchy treatz, sticky rice, metal music and whining. she is also mega dramatic and needs to be picked up and cuddled if u even as little as take the trash outside.