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So I was talking to my Mom and Grandma the other day and the subject of kids going back to school came up. My grandmother asked me what I thought about school and I said I never really liked it that much which surprised her. I told her I liked seeing my friends, but school wasn't the only way I could hang out with them.

She then asked me what my earliest memory of school was, and it brought a very potent memory to mind.

In kindergarten I went to a Catholic school. We were in class one day doing I think either a math or cursive writing assignment. Suddenly I really had to pee so I went up to the teacher to ask her if I could use the bathroom.

She said that I couldn't leave to go use the bathroom until I'd finished my assignment. So I scrambled to finish it, all the while my bladder feels like it's bursting. Eventually I did finish, and she let me go.

I practically ran to the bathroom, I got to the stall, and then before I could get my pants down, I accidentally peed myself.

So embarrassingly, I got the attention of one of the staff in the hallway, told them what happened, and they called my dad who picked me up and took me to a clothing store to buy me some pants to wear.

When I told this story, both my Mom and Grandma were a little shocked. I asked them if what the teacher did was mean or not, and my Mom basically said that it was a slap her across the face for making me wait to use the bathroom kind of mean.

I can see how an early experience like this might make me dread going to school, and then sort of create a self fulfilling prophecy as I got older where I engaged less and less in school, and didn't really think highly of any of my teachers.

What do you think?

In the Louisville area fyi

I'll try to be quick, but I tend to over explain

I graduated in 2021 with a Bachelor's essentially in video production. But I couldn't find any work around Louisville or anywhere else for that matter, so I ended up taking a part time job at a retail store which I stayed at for 3 years, becoming a part time manager in that time.

Then I left that job to try putting all of my effort into my main passion which for a while was making videos for Youtube. We didn't find the kind of success doing that that I would have hoped for, so I got filled with existential dread that I'm just floating along because I live with my parents.

So I figured I needed to stop pretending and get a real job. So I looked at the landscape and saw that data analytics jobs were on the rise. So, with some experience coding after taking CS50, I decided to go back to school online to get my Master's in Data Analytics.

I actually finished it in 6 months, but I don't really feel very competent even still. This was last October when I graduated and I basically haven't used anything I've learned since then. I looked for jobs but I was only finding internships that had 500 applicants, or Senior dev jobs only that required tons of experience that I didn't have. And then the rise of AI in the last couple years made it seem laughable to even think I could be hired in the data space anyway.

So I went back to the video production well earlier this year and landed an internship at MetroTV. It was pretty cool seeing a proper production and being a part of it. I hoped that maybe I could parlay that into a job, but nothing materialized.

So now it's been about 4 months since I left the internship and I've still got nothing.

I have ADHD and high functioning autism so I get discouraged really easily and everything surrounding getting a proper job just feels insurmountable. I grew up believing that I would end up in a creative field (maybe making movies, that was the reason I went to school for video production to begin with).

So I'm asking you all if you have any ideas for what I can do? Any job openings you know of?

I've applied to all of the video adjacent jobs I've seen on LinkedIn and Indeed. I've even applied to jobs at Walmart, Costco, and Best Buy and none of them ever got back to me.

I'm lucky to be able to live with my parents right now, but the arrangement is kind of killing me inside cause I have to share a room with my older brother and we're both adults.

So any help would be appreciated

With all the recent discussion about theater behavior, I figured this is probably the one place I could share this.

So there my family was, watching Spider-Man: Brand New Day at our theater, at 2:55 on a Monday. About 20 minutes before the end of the movie, I hear a wooshing sound and then me and everyone in the middle two rows get splattered in something. I stand up and look around, and the lady behind us points towards the walkway at the side of the theater. So I go out and see a spilled milkshake on the ground, and run out but I never found anyone.

A couple of managers came in to give everyone towels and offered everyone who got hit by the tossed milkshake free tickets. According to the people behind me, they saw some kid run in and throw the milkshake into the seats and then bolt.

Most of my negative theater experiences up until this point have been mild at worst. This one just....... hit me out of nowhere

Not /s this really happened btw

Hey all

I'm beginning to work on a short film that I'm making for a short film competition, but I need some help finding a particular location in or around Louisville

The short film is a crime comedy that takes place at a convenience store that's being robbed. The kind of place I'm looking for would be somewhere in a mostly commercial area, and a store with large glass windows that makes it easy to see inside (especially the register) because one of the jokes relies on the two main characters looking at each other through the window while one is robbing the place

I know almost for a fact that I couldn't do this at any chain stores/gas stations because I don't believe (beyond any miracle of a maverick store manager) that any chain would allow me to film at their location without serious financial compensation, especially given the set up is that their business is being robbed in the film

So if you know of any independent convenience store locations that fit this description in or near Louisville, please let me know! I'd be willing to travel up to an hour away from Louisville if you know of any place like this outside Jefferson County

For anyone interested in reading the script: https://drive.google.com/file/d/14F307_YQQuMjq3aJG0M1gCaNbzrCuViD/view?usp=sharing

Hey all

I'm beginning to work on a short film that I'm making for a short film competition, but I need some help finding a particular location

The short film is a crime comedy that takes place at a convenience store that's being robbed. The kind of place I'm looking for would be somewhere in a mostly commercial area, and a store with large glass windows that makes it easy to see inside (especially the register) because one of the jokes relies on the two main characters looking at each other through the window while one is robbing the place

I know almost for a fact that I couldn't do this at any chain stores/gas stations because I don't believe (beyond any miracle of a maverick store manager) that any chain would allow me to film at their location without serious financial compensation, especially given the set up is that their business is being robbed in the film

So if you know of any independent convenience store locations that fit this description in or near Louisville, please let me know!

For anyone interested in reading the script: https://drive.google.com/file/d/14F307_YQQuMjq3aJG0M1gCaNbzrCuViD/view?usp=sharing

For context, I've had panic attacks in the past, dealt with hypochondria, I've seen a psychiatrist for the last 9 years, and therapists for 6. I take anxiety and depression medication, meditate and journal, etc. Also I've been diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum (Level 1, high functioning) and ADHD.

When you get down to it, even though I’m not having panic attacks, fear still controls everything I do. I feel like I’ve internalized this lesson that whenever I’m not afraid, bad things happen, usually because I’ve decided to throw caution to the wind and act more impulsively which gets me in trouble. I can name plenty of times where something like this has happened.

Whenever I say to myself quote “why should I bother” I’m always leaving out the second part which is, “why should I bother brushing my teeth.. when I’m going to die anyway” “why should I bother lifting weights… if I’m gonna die anyway” it feels to my mind like everything I do, no matter what, is a waste of time because it doesn’t take away the fear that’s always inside of me.

And it complicates it because sometimes the fear helps, like I’m afraid of getting cavities so I brush my teeth, or I’m afraid of becoming weak and unhealthy so I lift weights. So, to my mind, it feels like the fear is what’s keeping me going when it’s more likely that my fear is the thing crippling me.

It’s like my brain has a hard time regulating how much fear is too much, I liken it to confidence vs arrogance. Like I shy away from trying to act confident because I don’t want to come off as (or become) arrogant.

Anyway the natural conclusion of this is, since my mind says nothing is worth doing because of my fear, I decide I’d rather just drip feed myself dopamine until reality finally gets me

For further context, this is just a note I wrote on my phone that I was going to tell my therapist at next session, but I figured you all might have some insights or words of wisdom for me

After the recent update, for some reason the world that I've been playing on and running locally is not working. I know it's the server's interaction with the world, because it still works if I use a generic "Bedrock level" world. But if I switch the server properties to be the world that I've been playing on, suddenly the connection always times out.

I've also noticed new parameters in the server.properties folder in the new Bedrock server update and wonder if it has something to do with that? Like ranknet vs. nethernet which I have no idea what that is

Am I going to have to update my old server's world? And if so how do I go about doing that?

Those movies that clearly had a good idea, but really didn't know what to do with it. They start off strong (mostly) but then kind of meander until it just eventually ends. I'm honestly having a hard time coming up with examples myself, but feel like it has happened often enough. I think Hancock might be a good example. The idea of a schlubby super hero seemed interesting to examine, but then it just devolved into this weird mess.

What are some examples that you would give?

So I'm a creative person by nature. I spent most of my time playing music or writing dumb comedy sketches or whatever.

I also live at home with my parents, don't have a full time job, and feel stuck.

Part of my problem is, I'm looking out at the world right now and thinking there's no job I could have where I would feel like I was contributing something to society. I feel like what I can offer the world is not enough. I've always wanted to make a career doing something creative, but in our current age, the world is absolutely drowning in content. And that's just from human creators, AI is going to make this problem infinitely worse.

But I'm not skilled at anything else. The only thing I've ever wanted to be, the only thing that I thought I could be happy doing, is being a creative writer.

I'm too late to enter tech, that's a shitberg on the horizon. I'm too squeamish for the medical field. The trades are gonna fill up soon, and there's no guarantee of an apprenticeship.

The way the world is going, it feels like nothing I do will matter. So some part of me wants to say fuck it and just work on my little projects and pretend like other people are gonna sort out those problems without my help. But I can't do that.

I feel like a burden on my family, I feel like I'm not doing enough to help the world. I feel like I have to be the snowflake that starts the avalanche, but I don't know how to do it, in what direction to do it, etc.

Any of this making sense?

I just started talking to this girl on Tinder, and we've hit it off. But she lives about 2.5 hours away which isn't fun. Anyway, we've started texting off Tinder and have made plans to do like a virtual date together playing a game online.

This is all well and good, but "what's the problem" you're wondering. Well I went back to her Tinder and noticed it says she is 5'11" .. and as for me I'm about 5'4", bit of a short king over here (understatement of the year). But it doesn't show my height on my Tinder because I'm a little self conscious about it. So she doesn't know that she's (a lot) taller than me.

What I'm wondering is, how can I break this information to her? I try not to let my height get me down (even though it does sometimes), and I'm not ashamed of being shorter than her either. But I also understand that some people have preferences, and I should let her know sooner than later so she has the ability to make up her own mind if she wants to keep talking to me.

I just want to figure out a way to break it to her without making it sound like it's something I am ashamed of or something she should be ashamed of. I want it to be a simple statement of fact so she can decide for herself.

I hope this made sense, any thoughts would be nice?

"Forgive me, father, for I have wind."