My insurance has approved and I’m scared to death
Long story short. I’ve had anxiety depression and ocd my whole life. I’ve had remission but after having my 2nd baby I never bounced back.
The doctor keeps calling to schedule but 1. I am terrified. With medication if you start feeling shit you can just switch or stop taking it. With TMS it changes your brain. What if it changes it for the worse? You’re just stuck with even worse depression than you started with? I’ve read horror stories. I can’t go too much deeper into this without actually dying.
I have two little kids (6 and 4) to go in every day for 6 weeks at this season in life seems somewhat impossible and if I am able to pull it off — if it doesn’t work — the effort I put in would make it even more devastating.
The dip. What??? It sounds like I won’t be able to survive that.
I’m so scared and I don’t know what to do. The more research I do, the more scared I get.